Victor Fuentes. That person was not him. He just looks like him, has the same name as him, sounds like him and has that same nose ring. His name might be Vic but he’s not my Vic. He couldnt be. Vic would never push me away like that or even he’s own brother, for that matter.

I still couldnt get that image out of my head though, the way he looked at me, not exactly how you would a stranger. He looked at me like he despised me, like he was afraid of me, like I did something bad to him. He pushed me away like I didnt even mattered. I could feel hot tears prickle through my eyes. I blink them back before they could even fall.

"Its alright Kell. He wasnt Vic." Mike said trying to hide the crack in his voice. I feel bad for Mike. He didnt deserve that; He just wanted to see his brother again. He wanted Vic back as much as I do and I’m pretty sure that he was convinced it was his brother.

Going back to what happened earlier, I notice the way that guy looked at Mike, it was like he felt a certain feeling of significance, he hugged him back like two friends reunited after a long time; and from that moment I swear I was convince it was Vic. I admit he could be a douche bag to me but never to his brother, and him hugging Mike back definitely made my point clear. but

Bullshit.

Its like we’ve been made fun of. Giving us false hope that we would ever see him again.

"Hey! Wait up!!" some girl called we just continued walking. Mike probably didnt hear her but I did and I just dont feel like talking to some random girl right now.

"Guys!!" she called again. Mike finally stopped walking so I did the same we both look back but I just kept my head down looking at her red converse she was standing just a few inches away from us.

"Hey is there a problem?" Mike asked the girl. I look up and I noticed that she was one of ’Vic’s’ friends from earlier.

"Uhmm yeah. Hey I have a question. Do you know Vic?" she said getting to the point.

"Yeah but I dont know, I think we got the wrong guy. Sorry about that." Mike said with a bit of disappointment.

"Actually, I think he’s the guy you’re looking for." she said. What?

"Really? Doesnt seem like it with how he reacted and all." Mike faked a laughed like it was the most ridiculous thing he ever heard.

The girl sighed before saying
"Look, Vic is uhh.. he’s been in a coma .. and when he woke up he couldnt remember anything. The doctor said he had an amnesia" she explained with sorry eyes. Mike’s blank expression suddenly become sad at the realization but he’s eyes held a slight sparkle knowing that his brother is alive and it was him earlier ago. So Vic has amnesia? I ignored the tightening feeling in my throat I know these tears would start to fall down any minute now.

"He’s also been telling me about some of the strange dreams he’s been having although he wouldnt exactly tell me what was in the dream he would tell me, like, descriptions of the persons that were in them and Im pretty sure I recognize one of the descriptions as you" she said pointing at me.

Oh so that explains it, why he reacted like that earlier. He was just scared, of me... but why would he be? What kind of dreams does he exactly see that cause him to push me away like that?

"If you could do anything to help get his memory back that would be great. He’s like a big brother to me and I just wanna help him out you know?" she said with a tone of desperation.

"yeah, like a big brother." Mike said icely. He was jealous at her, that much I could tell.

"Here, we could switch numbers and keep in touch. He’s been living with us too. Ill text you the address." she said while handing her phone to Mike. Mike did the same and after they switched numbers she said bye to us.

"Hey, what was your name again?." Mike called out to her. She stopped and look back at us.

"Its Jenna and yours?"

"Im Mike" mike said, Jenna look over to me waiting to introduce myself. I just stared, I didnt feel like talking. Mike hit my arm with his..

"Kellin" I said plainly. She gave me a warm smile but I didnt feel like returning it.

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The whole drive was silent, Neither of us initiated a talk and neither of us really did wanted to talk. Mike and I had our own thoughts to think about. Think about what happened today. The information we got and more importantly, Vic.

As soon as we got back in the apartment I immediately went straight to my room plunging myself into the bed. I feel tired, a lot has happened this day and I think I need time to process all of this. I just feel like crawling into a deep hole. I heard Mike slam the door to his room
followed by an angry shout. Maybe I should go check on him first. I stood up and headed towards Mike’s room. I opened the door and I saw some of his stuff that used to be on the table are now scattered on the floor. Mike is sitting on his bed, hands covering
his face. He’s crying.

"Hey It’ll be Ok. He’s alive Mike." I said. I walk up and took a seat next to him.

"Did you see?....how... quickly he just pushed us away? ......He has a.... new life now Kell. He doesnt even need ..... us anymore. We’ve been...replaced. He.. He-- d--didnt... even.." He broke down.

"ssh. Its ok. We’re gonna get him back ok? We’re gonna help him remember." I comforted him as much as I know I was about to cry too, I didnt. I dont wanna make him lose hope.

"My brother.. Doesnt even want anything to do with me..." He whimpered.

"Vic has amnesia. He didnt intentionally.." I said.

"yeah but..." he butted.

"Its gonna be ok.. Ok? Call Jenna.. We’re gonna see him tommorow ok?" he nodded.

"you get some rest. Its been a long day." he nodded again and I stood up and started walking to the door.

"Good night" I said.

"yeah" he said. I left his room closing the light and the door along the process.I went back to my room and just laid in bed.

When I finally found out he was Vic I taught I would be happy. I should be happy right? because he’s alive. I do feel happy. Who would have taught that he was in San Diego all along. He seems to be doing fine... without me, that is. I cant believe this, all this time I was sad and missing him, he was just there..... Happy.

So now thinking about tomorrow makes me nervous, like what am I gonna say to him? Hey Im Kellin Quinn your boyfriend of three years wont you come and ride off into the sunset with me?.. Yeah I dont think so. He has a girlfriend now. She’s a girl. GIRLfriend. He’s not gay. The accident probabaly knocked him out so hard that he turned straight. Whatever. Im not gonna tell him about us. Not now atleast. I dont wanna force myself into him and as much as it hurts Im just gonna have to act like normal or something like that, atleast I could still be a part of his life even if we’re just friends. Vic has amnesia, he needs me right now, Im gonna help him remember and Im just gonna have to put these feelings aside. I wont give up though. Im not gonna lose him again. He might be with his girl now but once he gets his memory back its gonna be me cause that's how it should be. We were for each other and no one else can have him. I wont give him away that easily. He’s mine.

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