Its been 4 months now since I woke up from my coma. Ive gotten really close to Jenna over the past few months. She’s like my little sister.. Hmm I wonder if I had a sibling in my past life??.. I also got to be friends with her friends too. Well after I met Jaime,They introduced me to some of their friends, Alex, Jack, Austin and Tony they are really nice dudes. I wonder if I had friends like them back then.

All this starting a new life thing really overwhelms me, like I’m so curiuos I mean what was my life like before? Well Jenna and Flitch told me to wait it out as the doctor told them it’ll come eventually but I wonder when exactly. I also broke down a lot , I dont even know why but I feel sad, like somewhere, some part of me is missing and it somehow got me thinking what if? what if I never got into that accident they are telling me about. I dont even remember what accident I got into but whatever it is it sucks. It really.. really.. really sucks that I dont remember but I guess there’s always a reason for everything.

I’ve been having this strange dreams with this boy too, I dont even know why I dream of him, maybe its an effect of the accident. This boy I keep dreaming about, I think I like him which is wierd because I dont really know him and I dont think Im gay either. I like girls really. Maybe its just a dream right?... but somehow I find myself thinking, what would his lips feel like in person
and how good I would feel inside him , yes I already dreamt of us having doing it. Dont judge. But lately I dont know, I think its wrong to feel like this with a guy.

I've been thinking too much lately,I think I need fresh air to clear my head out. I got out of bed and went down stairs. I notice Jenna is on the living room watching tv.

"Hey" she greeted when she notice me.

"Hey " I said back.

"Im going out for a while" I said.

"Oh ok. Have fun." she said.

I got out of the door and started walking.I dont even know where Im going but I just think I need a walk.

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After walking for like a mile I stop and I found myself in front of a bar. it said 'Boomers'. I walk up inside and past through the crowd and headed to the counter. I sat and basically just watch the people havin a good time and grinding against each other.

"So what’s a hot guy like you doing all alone in a place like this?" This girl asked. I didnt even notice her when she sat down next to me. She looks gorgeous by the way, brown hair and all. She is wearing a black tube dress that cut a bit short above her knees.

"Uhmm Im not quite sure" I nervously said. she just giggled.

"So why dont you call me sometime" she said and handed me a paper with a number on it. I accepted it with a confuse look on my face. Was she flirting with me? Im not quite sure but its not working though. maybe I should just go along with this see where it
leads me.

"Why dont I go buy you a drink?" I offered trying my best not to weird her out.

"Sure. Tequila would be nice" She said flashing me a smile.

"Tequila it is." I smiled back at her.

After a while of drinking and flirting with each other its safe to say that we were both drunk, but Im not as drunk as she is.

"Im Tay by the way" she slurred.

"Hey Tay Im Vic" I slurred back.

"Vic you got a little something on your lips right there" Tay said while stroking her thumb to my lips.

"Oh really what is it?" I said in a flirty voice. I didnt mean to Im just so drunk right now.

"my lips" And with that she leaned in and started kissing me, shoving her tongue in my mouth. I hesitated for a moment. should I kiss her back? Do i like her like that? It feels wrong but I dont know she’s a girl and Im a guy so whats the harm in that? It took me a second before I kiss back and I think I kinda like the feeling of this. Our tongues where both battling for dominance. She stood up from where she was sitting and sitted on my lap without even breaking the kiss. I placed my hands on her hips rubbing her sides up and down. If im sober I would never do this but Im not soooo...

I opened my eyes and saw him, his eyes closed. he opened his eyes and I saw those crystal blue eyes of his. I immedietly pulled away from the kiss. he looked at me confuse.

"Whats wrong?" he asked.

I blink a few more times and I realized that it was only Tay. What the fuck? Im drunk and Im seeing things.

"Vic." she called out. snapping her fingers in front me which cause me to broke from my thinking.

"You okay? you look like you’ve seen a ghost?" she ask.

"uuhh yeah. sorry about that." I said trying to keep my composure.

"Im sorry I think I need to go. I’ll call you some other time" I got up and stumbled my way out of the bar. I didnt even care leaving her like that but all I know is I just needed to get out of there.I'm being paranoid, I know. I managed to get outside and I started finding my way back home. I only stumbled a few more times before deciding to call Jenna.

"Hey Vic whats up?" she said.

"Jenna can you come pick me up please." I tried my best not to give away my drunkness.

"Oh. Ok where are you?"

"some street just across Boomers. I dont know"

"Oh okay Im on my way." and with that she hung up.

---- the next day

I woke up feeling a little bit dizzy. I think Im having a headache. Hhmmm what happened yesterday? I remember walking and being in a bar, making out with a girl, what was her name again? I dont even remember. I groaned my head hurts. I heard the door clicking and I sat up.

"Oh hey your awake." Jenna came in with a glass of water and a pill in hand.

"Here take this" she said with her ever so cheerful smile. I took them from her and took them in my mouth.

"How are you feeling?" she asked.

"Fine." I said.

"You mind telling me what happened? why were you drunk?"

"I dont really know, at first I was just sitting at the counter looking at the crowd, but then I met this girl, a few flirts, but then we got drunk and then one thing led to another and ... yeah " I said quite randomly. I dont even know why I explained the whole thing to her..

"Oh." she said awkwardly

"yeah. Im sorry if I troubled you or something" I said looking down at the ground. I dont really wanna see her disappointed at me.

"Its ok. Its what guys do really. Just try to hold your alcohol next time." she said.

"Oh so your not mad?" I asked

"why would I be?"

"I just taught..." I admitted.

"Its ok don’t sweat it." she said.

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