The Fault in Her Scars .

*TWO WEEKS LATER*



"What do you mean they need you to fill in on a tour? Especially Warped Tour?!" I yelled at Vic, tears filling in my eyes.
"Taylor, would you listen to me?" Vic asked, reaching his arms out to hug me.
I backed away from him and he looked down, hurt apparent in his features.
"You can't just leave me here alone! I can't handle that!" I screamed back, not realizing that Mike, Tony, and Jaime had all gathered in the doorway to the kitchen, and were watching us argue.

You know what, no, I can't deal with this right now." I yelled at him, turning on my heels and walking to the front door. Tony reached out his arms but I pushed them away, and ran out of the house.
I took off down the road, ignoring the voices yelling my name behind me. I ran faster and faster until I got to the beach, and realized nobody was following me.
My phone was blowing up with texts and calls, but I ignored them.
I sat down on the shoreline and watched the waves roll in and out, wishing they'd somehow roll me away with them.

I took a deep breath in and thought about what happened. Vic didn't ask to go on tour, none of them did. This was their job, and I should be happy for them. I knew I shouldn't have gotten so upset with them, and then ran away from them like that, probably worrying them to death.

I sighed and peeled my shirt off, leaving me in jean shorts and a black tank top. I took my Converse off and placed my feet in the water, letting the cool night air swirl around me. The distant city lights made me feel nostalgic, they made me feel happy.
I picked up my phone and unlocked it, going to Vic's contact.

"I'm at the beach." I typed out, hoping he wasn't angry with me.
"Jesus Tay, that's like twenty minutes away by walking. Are you okay? Stay there, we're on the way." I read his reply and smiled, he was always worried about me.

I had made a habit out of coming to the beach when I was overwhelmed, it made me feel connected to the ocean.
I walked back up to the beach and placed my phone down on top of my shirt and shoes and ran back out the ocean, wading down till the water reached mid-thigh. I stood there for what felt like hours, but could've only been a few minutes. The silence of the night was broken when I heard Mike yelling my name, and I turned to see all four boys walking towards me.
I waved my hand slightly, letting them know it was in fact me, and turned back to face the horizon.

I shivered slightly, the goosebumps growing on my skin and I wrapped my arms around me.
It was times like this that I missed my dad. He would've protected me from all the awful things that happened to me.
I turned to look sideways, feeling the presence of someone next to me. I saw four boys standing next to me, all looking out into the water, just like I had been.

Mike was the first to notice I'd turned to look at them.
"Hey kiddo," he said, pulling me into him when he noticed that I was shivering. Everyone else turned their attention to us, smiling at me.
I nodded and turned my body, walking back up to the shore. I sat down and waited for the rest of them to sit around me, I knew they wanted answers.

Vic sat facing me, and he was the first to say something.
"Please don't ever run out like that again. I was really scared when you went missing, like I honestly was crying. Ask any of them. Don't do it again." He said, taking my hands in his.
"I'm sorry Vic, I won't do it anymore. I was just upset that you were leaving for tour so soon after you got home. It's okay though, this is what you do." I said, the tears filling my eyes.
"Tay, we were gonna tell you that you were coming with us.. But I should've said it sooner instead of letting you get so upset. I know that you wouldn't have reacted like that over just one thing, so what else is going on?" Mike asked me.

My head shot up and I looked at Mike. "I- I can't say it in front of everyone. Tony knows though. It's okay."
My brothers and Jaime looked at Tony and he nodded, while I mouthed "We'll talk later."

Tony had been talking to me about Jaime, he had found out how I felt after he heard me crying a few days ago. The boys had their girlfriends over, except for Tony, Erin had gone out of town. I didn't mind it, but Jaime had brought Kate to the house and she was spending the night, and Tony had me stay in his room with him so they could have alone time.

I had woken up that night to go get water, and heard moans coming from my room. I rushed back to the bedroom, standing by the door and beginning to cry, seeing Tony had already woken up.
"I was just about to look for you, I didn't feel you in the bed anymore." He said, not realizing I was crying.
"Taylor? What's wrong?" He asked, getting out of bed and walking over to me. He brought me back to the bed and I sat down, him sitting in front of me.
"I- I can't do this anymore Tone, I love him so much and it's killing me." I said, my voice raising with every word.
"Who?" He asked, pulling me in for a hug.
"Jaime. I love Jaime, but he's out fucking Kate." I whispered.
Tony just held me and rocked me back and forth, I knew he didn't know what to do.

"Fucking hell! Why me?" I screamed, knowing that everyone was awake and would probably rush in here.
I was right.
The door swung open and Mike stood there, Alysha right by his side. I heard footsteps come pounding down the hall, and saw Vic's hair flash into the view, someone else by his side, who I assumed was Danielle, but then I saw Jaime and Kate.
"What's wrong Taylor?" Jaime asked, stepping into view.

I cried harder and gripped Tony's shirt, my hands twisting the fabric, and started crying harder. Tony wrapped his arms around me as I pressed my face into his chest, shaking with sadness and anger.
"Taylor, come on, talk to us." Jaime said again, and I felt myself snap.
"GO the hell away! I want to be left alone!" I screamed, but I didn't hear movement. I felt Tony nod his head and heard him whisper that he'd stay with me.
The footsteps piled out and Tony laid down with me, holding me as I cried myself to sleep.

"You're freezing, let's get you home."
I turned my head to look at Jaime, hardly remembering he was even there. He smiled at me, and I quickly looked away. I hadn't spoken to him since that night, I'd hardly looked at him.

I stood up and everyone else followed suit, but I stopped when Mike spoke up. "Alysha and Danielle are already at the house, is Kate coming?"
I turned to notice Jaime shaking his head. "Yeah, she's on her way."

I climbed into the car and sat next to Tony, leaning my head on his shoulder. I didn't want to go back home and be around her, I didn't like her. I hated everything about her, but I knew I was jealous.

I loved him first.

The car ride home was silent, the tension so thick you could cut it with a knife. I jumped out of the car and ran up the stairs into my room, pulling out my phone.

"Come here please. I wanna know the plan for tonight."I typed, sending the message to Tony.

I heard footsteps coming towards my door, and smiled when Tony opened the door and shut it behind him.
"So we're gonna play a game of Truth or Dare, I think you should come down. You can hang out with me for the night, plus Oli and Matt Nicholls are coming, and I know you love both of them." Tony said, sticking his tongue out at me.
I grinned widely and shook my head, standing up off my bed. I loved Oli and Matt more than anything, and Matt and I were definitely cuddle buddies. We were bestfriends, but would always do couple type things, like holding hands or cuddling and even kissing, when my brothers weren't looking.

If Jaime felt like he should have Kate, then I'd have Matt.

Notes

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