A Match Into Water

I've had enough of the pain and the guilt and its only just begun.

I haven't slept properly for months, nearly half a year now.

My mum got me some tablets called Kalms to try and help me sleep better and stop my anxiety....to be honest I don't think they work but hey ho suppose I have to give them chance to kick in.

I pulled myself up off the floor and opened the draw in my dresser next to my bed.

I pulled out 2 and a half sheets of pills and popped them out of the foil packet.

I sat on my bed weeping at my mistakes and what I had done I placed one smooth surfaced pill into my mouth.

One after the other I swallowed them down, it was time for me to go out and meet Vic. I decided to grab the pills and put them into my pocket so that I could sneckly take them still while I was with Vic.

When I met Vic I felt so tired it was hard to keep my eyes open, I got this awful stabbing pain in my chest, back and stomach.

I felt really dizzy and clutched onto Vic as I swayed.....fuck what have I done?

Notes

Only a short chapter I know, sorry!

So I found out like 20 mins ago that I'm on the most popular page!!! That's fucking awesome, you guys are fucking awesome for reading. Thank you so much!!!!

Yeah I sort of overdosed earlier, just before cadets and sort of don't want to close my eyes now...oops :/