A Match Into Water

I couldn't cope with going back to school. Not now.

I decided to get the bus home, the ride felt longer.

I arrived outside my house door, I quickly pulled out my keys and locked the door. I didn't feel safe being outside...not anymore.

I was getting better. My anxiety wasn't that bad it had near enough gone now but it's back now, I can tell already.

I locked the door behind me and ran upstairs.

I opened the door to my bedroom and bolted the door shut after me.

I dropped my bag causing it to thud on the floor.

I walked over to my bed and pulled off my clothes as they reminded me of him. My body was exposed to the harsh coolness of my room I saw my reflection in the mirror and spat onto the mirror as I looked at my vile body.

I wanted to go and get a bath so I could feel slightly cleaner however then I thought about evidence.

Something clicked in my head the realisation of what had happened.

Fuck fuck fuck.

Suddenly my phone buzzed causing me to panic.

I walked over to my phone to see a text from Vic.

-My baby <3

Hey beautiful how did your counselling go? Why haven't you come back to school? <3

I broke down into tears collapsing on the floor, I didn't know what to say.

I grabbed my phone and began to text back "Fine. I didn't want to come back. <3"

I pressed sent as I couldn't tell Vic what had really happened he would hate me.

Vic's reply was almost instant.

-My baby <3

Hmmm doesn't seem like it did go 'fine' otherwise you would have come back to school <3

I knew he wouldn't believe me.

"Baby I'm not very well that's why okay? <3" I said out loud everything I was typing, while the tears trickled down my cheeks.

Another text followed through straight after I sent it again.

-My baby <3

Right well I am on my way to yours now and I will look after you :3 <3

I cried harder as I didn't want him to come.

"Sweetie it's fine I am okay <3"

-My baby <3

Nope no excuses I'm nearly there <3

I felt my chest tighten as if all the air had been squeezed out of my lungs.

My breathing got heavier as I began to have a panic attack

FUCK!!!

Notes

Sorry its short computer about to reboot!!