A Match Into Water

I jumped off the sofa and backed myself up against the wall as far away from him as possible.

He began to walk over to me.

"David what are you doing?" My voice was quiet.

"I cant help myself Alisha you just turn me on so much, this is your fault for arousing me" He walked closer to me as he spoke pushing me up against the wall.

"David please I don't want to have sex with you or anything at all for that matter. I have a boyfriend" I tried to push him off me but he placed his hand at the back of my neck and pulled me into a kiss, I turned away however he guided my head back to his.

"St..stop please" I mumbled as he pressed his lips firmly against mine.

He sniggered as he pushed me over to the bed and sat me down on it still holding me close to him.

He moved down to my jeans and unbuttoned them. I grabbed onto them not letting him get into my trousers. I couldn't breathe properly, my chest was tightening.

"If you let me finger you now, you do know it wont hurt you as much when we have sex?" He tried to reassure me, I wasn't going to fall for it.

"No I don't wan you to touch me, get away!" I shouted.

There was a knock at the door, David covered my mouth there was a women at the door asking if we was okay and that she heard shouting.

"We are perfectly fine thank you Olivia, she's just struggling with her flashbacks that's all" Olivia understood and said she would leave us, I began to cry as she could have saved me from this nightmare I was reliving once again.

David wiped away my tears and pulled down my jeans and underwear all at once. He put his hands up my jumper and under my shirt and undid my bra pulling my bra and shirt up over my head exposing my boobs.

He lent down and sucked on my nipples, I tried to ignore my bodies signals that it felt good and tell it to stop and that this was wrong, really fucking wrong.

He placed two of his fingers into my fu fu. I gasped as it was a shock as I didn't know he was going to, he kept pushing them in further as I tried to get away. He pulled out his member and started pulling my hand down to it, I used all my strength to pull away from him.

I was crying uncontrollably.

Foreplay was the thing I find hardest as when it happened 3 years ago it was so traumatic.

I pulled away from him and pushed myself against the wall.

"Please don't I am scared, I don't want to I am really scared....stop" I was shaking viciously as if there was an earth quake.

"You'll be fine just relax" David spoke softly in my ear.

Is he being fucking serious how the fuck could I relax?

He wrapped his hands around my thighs and pulled me closer to him, separating my legs as he did so.

I began hyperventilating further as he grabbed his member and pulled me even closer.

I could feel it on the inside of my thigh.

"I don't want to, please stop" I pleaded with him for him to stop however it didn't stop him.

He smiled and said that it would be fine and pushed his member into me.

I gasped at the pain of it. I didn't cry, I didn't want him to know that I was hurting.

He began thrusting, he began to pant as he reached climax....I had reached my climax and cummed. I am so disappointed in myself.

He thrust a couple more times as he said "I'm going to cum....oh I'm cumming"

He ejaculated and pulled out collapsing over me.

Why the fuck was he doing this?!? I was meant to be able to trust him.

How am I meant to trust anyone properly again?

Notes

I know my writing is quite depressing but its my form of realise.

Yet again less than a month ago I was raped. This is now my 4th account of sexual assault.

If anyone wants to talk about anything to me just to get it off your chest please do I will always listen and help where I can.

Apologies if my writing upsets or offends anyone.

So what will happen to Alisha now? Will she tell Vic? Will she tell anyone? What can she do?

Feedback is always appreciated!!