A Match Into Water

~1 week later~

Today is the day.

Counselling is approaching and how much I'm dreading it is unbelievable.

I decided to leave Vic in bed as I began to get ready.

I pulled the covers off my body and walked over to my bag and got out my clothes and clean underwear to put on, I placed them on the chair that Vic had in his room and walked to the bathroom.

As I walked onto the landing I was greeted with Mike walking out of the bathroom. We hadn't talked really since he found me purging in the bathroom, especially not about how he found me.

"Erm morning Mike..." I spoke softly and quietly as possible but loud enough so he could hear me.

"Hey" Mike also matched my tone so Vic wouldn't hear.

"Can I erm speak to you about last week?" My voice altered as I was nervous.

"Sure, what's up?" Mike didn't really seemed bothered son I decided to carry on.

"I know you haven't told Vic yet and I'm glad you haven't.." I was cut off from finishing my sentence by Mike.

"But either have you after you said you would. He is better now so you can tell him, right?"

Mike was being very stubborn and I could tell this was important to him otherwise he wouldn't have remembered what I said to him.

"I know I haven't but..." Yet again I was cut off.

"You have till tomorrow to tell him or I will. I promise you that I will tell him" Mike come across as a bit aggressive however I know he wouldn't mean it in that was so I brushed it off.

"Mike please" I pleaded with him to change his mind.

"Don't. I'm going back to bed and I wont be changing my mind"

Mike walked away back into his room rubbing his eyes then closing the door.

I progressed into the bathroom to see my make up and hair brush scattered on the side.too

I was so depressed and especially as I had to go counselling. I couldn't contain my emotions I needed to cut.

I walked over to the bathroom door and locked it. I took part my razor which was on the bath side. I looked at the sliver blade and saw my reflection in it looking back at me.

I took the blade to my chest so Vic wouldn't be able to see due to my bra covering them. I sliced away at my chest without a second thought.

The blood began to flow and I immediately whipped it away. As the cuts stopped bleeding and I put my bra back on and preceded getting ready as if nothing had happened.

I washed my face and brushed my teeth and pulled up my knotted hair into a ponytail to do my make up.

I grabbed my primer and applied it all over my face. I also put on my foundation, concealer, powder, blusher, eye shadow, eyeliner and mascara on.

I took the bobble out of my hair and brushed it carefully. I decided to section off parts of my hair to curl and turned on my curling wand. After 30 minuets of doing my hair I was finally finished and ready to get dressed.

I walked back into Vic's room with my slippers flopping off my feet. I opened the door to see Vic was now awake, he was rested up on one elbow looking at me.

"Good morning beautiful" Vic flashed me a smile as spoke cheerfully.

"Good morning baby" I decided to pick up tone and forget about mine and Mike's chat.

"Why are you up and getting ready darling?" Vic looked puzzled.

"Baby I have my counselling don't I" My tone dropped as I remembered that I really have to go.

"Oh yeah, sorry it slipped my mind" Vic jumped out of bed in his boxers and walked over to his draw and pulled out some fresh ones he turned away and put on his clean underwear then went to get some clothes.

I pulled off Vic's hoodie and dropped it on the floor, I stood in my bra and shorts and put on some deodorant. I put on my clean underwear and began to get dressed. I pulled on my black skinny jeans and Aztec vest with a leather jacket on top. I put on my Victoria secret spray after the one Vic likes the most.

Vic came over and gave me a hug, my breathing was heavy as I began to panic due to the hour approaching.

"Darling calm down, your getting panicked over nothing" Vic was calm and collected and was trying to rub it off onto me.

"I'm trying sweetie" I took a deep breath hoping to calm myself.

"Are you ready to go?" Vic looked me straight in the eyes and held my hand.

"Ready as I will ever be" I sighed as I walked down the stairs and out the door shouting bye to Mike on the way out.

I was dreading this. I don't want to go.

Notes

Been away all weekend capturing the TA it's been amazing!!

Sorry if the story is getting a bit boring please tell me if it is and if it's not and you like it give me feedback please!!!!

I am sort of getting back into the flow of writing now it's just finding the time haha