Unseen Love

I stood there in the middle of my doorway, well now Austin’s doorway, in shock. I could not believe the sight I see. A part of me knows that this most likely was all Gielle, but why would Austin even let it go as far as to the bedroom? I felt my heart break at the sight of Austin running around the room, like a chicken with no head, looking for clothes.

“I can’t. I can’t do this.” I said turning on my heel to make a run for it. I felt tears already falling down my cheek. I ran to the kitchen looking for my stuff. Then took off to the front door.

“Val! Wait please! Let me explain. It’s not what you think!” I heard Austin yell along with his footsteps as he descended the stair case. I decided to ignore him, not wanting to hear him explain how Gielle ended up half naked.

Austin had ended up catching up to me once I made it outside. He grabbed a hold of my upper arm and spun me around. As soon as I was turned around I shut my eyes. I did not want to see Austin’s face. It will just make me cave in and decide to stay. It is already hard enough with his voice.

“Please. Let me explain. You know I would NEVER do anything to hurt you. Not intentionally at least…” Austin trailed off. I kept my eyes closed, but I still felt the tears fall freely down my face. “Please stop crying. Val. Please.” He begged. I heard his voice crack. This made me give in and I opened my eyes to see Austin crying.

“Please let go. I can’t do this right now.” I spoke just below a whisper. Finally I tugged on my arm and turned back around to the car.

“Please. Val. I love you!” Austin yelled. Tears began falling even harder and my pace picked up. Austin began running to the car too. “Valentina! Please don’t leave me! Please don’t run away. Let’s talk please.” I had got in my car and shut the door. Austin banged on the window and began crying even more. I put the car in reverse and drove off.

Alone with my baby.


I had driven around San Diego for hours just thinking about everything I saw. I finally resorted on stopping at the beach. I got out of my car and began tugging off my shoes and socks. I just wanted to be left alone and with time to think about everything that has been going on the past few hours.

Austin has called me none stop. It got to the point where I just turned off my phone. I know I should give him a chance to explain, but I just can’t get the image of him naked with her out of my head. I wiped away a few tears that managed to escape and sat down in the sand. I put my hand on my stomach and began thinking about life with just my baby and I. Maybe this baby is the only one who will forever love me and only me?

I love Austin with all of my broken heart, but today was the limit for me. I have seen this all before and I don’t want to go down this road again. I just got free from a monster and I don’t want to see the same habits. I know it will also kill me to say goodbye to my love for months on end while he goes on tour. And even though I trust him, I don’t trust other girls. Clearly he won’t stand up for himself when a girl throws themselves at him. How do I know that he won’t have a drunken accident one night and end up sleeping with someone on accident? I would never be able to make love to him if that were to happen.

“Stop thinking about that. You don’t know if he cheated for sure or not just yet. Calm down you don’t know what all happened. But do I really want to know? What if we just took a little break to think about everything? Maybe we are moving too fast. They do say time heals a broken heart. Maybe that is all I need. If Austin is willing to give me time, then I know I will be able to move forward with him. I spoke out loud. I was thinking everything over in my head and began contemplating all of the possibilities. The one that I felt most secure with was the fact that I just need time.

I decided to go back to Austin’s house and tell him what I need in person.

As I got in the car A Day To Remember- I Surrender came on and I could not help but let the tears fall.

I am really going to do this. I am going to give up on the best thing that has ever happened to me, because of one person. What about the baby? All of these things were swarming my mind and I just didn’t know what to do.

As I pulled into the driveway once again I began to tell myself the same sentence over and over again.



“It is only a short break.”

Notes

Short I know! I will update again this weekend! I am about to have a week off of school and I plan on updating everyday!

Have a fun rest of the week! Love you guys!