A One Night Stand, Lingered To A Fling

The New Year brought a lot of touring for the guys. I got invited along but I decided not to go, since I was with Josh I thought hanging around my ex-boyfriend whom I had slept with over Christmas was probably not the best idea. The funny thing is Oli never made anything obvious. He kept it 100% secret, which I am very grateful for. Maybe he thought if he kept it on a downlow, it might happen more often... no. It's not going to happen.

Like I said, the New Year brought tours; in April the guys invited You Me At Six to support them on a small Europe tour and then Bring Me the Horizon were off to Germany to write their next album. The guys asked Josh to sing on the new album on a track Oli had not revealed much about really.

The tour was tiny, only 8 shows. The two bands had to share a tour bus and the other support band; Pierce the Veil had a small RV type of bus. We started in France, it was interesting because I had never really been to France before but it was nice here. I got asked to photograph for this tour so I decided to take the job, since the guys were going to pay me. The one thing I disliked about this tour was that Oli brought Laura with him, she was one nasty little bitch and I had only spent an hour in her company.

Since we spent the day travelling, we had the night off and we were currently infront of the Eiffle Tower. I was alone since everyone went into groups; I wanted some time to think so I went off on my own.

"France is a really cool place" I heard a soft, American accent from beside me. I turned to look at who was next to me. It was one of the dudes from Pierce the Veil, I knew that much but who I don't entirely know.

"Yeah, it's pretty sound" I nodded. He tilted his head to the side and looked at me. "Sorry, I'm not really upto date with bands right now, so I'm not familiar with your name sorry" I mumbled.

"Oh it's okay. I'm Vic. I sing and play guitar in Pierce the Veil" He smiled. I nodded and looked around.

"What's the other dudes names so I don't embarrass myself 3 more times?" I laughed, blushing slightly.

"Well my little brother Mike is the drummer, Jaime is the bassist and Tony plays lead guitar" He explained and pointed to them in the distance.

"Right, thank you. Hopefully I can remenber that" I smiled and looked at the sun setting in the distance. This was slightly awkward because the scene was very romantic and I was sitting here with some singer from a band that I'm sure about a million girls around the world would wish to be in my spot, in some romantic setting and I felt very awkward. "So Vic, do you get on with Bring Me then?".

"Yeah, we done a tour with them before and they're the raddest dudes. You're Matt Keans sister right?" He asked.

"Yup, the one and only" I nodded. The thing about Vic was he kept giving me strange looks, I mean yeah he was attractive but I've got a boyfriend and I've already cheated on him with one of his best friends. I can't even give off a slight indication that I think he's even slightly nice looking.

"You don't really look like Matt" He laughed. I pulled my hair off my face and his eyes widened. "Okay that's pretty scary, shit" He shook his head.

"Yeah, either I'm manly or he's a girl, I'd go with the second one. I don't wanna think I look manly to be honest" I said scuffing my feet off of the ground underneath my feet.

"You're not manly. You're very pretty" He smiled. I looked into his eyes; he seemed very genuine but something was lingering in those eyes... he was hurting.

"Thanks" I said not looking away. "Are you alright?" I asked.

He looked away quickly and stared at the ground. "I'm totally fine..." He said quietly, I barely even heard him to be honest.

"Consider this, I'm the only female on this tour tour that you can trust and talk to okay. Sometimes you just need a good old girly chat and dont be all. "I'm a guy i dont need a chat" because we all know it's bullshit so I'm here okay" I smiled the most sincere smile I could think of, which probably made me look like a total freak.

He looked up and smiled. "Thank you Casey" His smile fadded a little and he looked over towards Oli and Laura. "What about her, she's female what if I wanted to talk to her?" He said smugly.

"Honestly, talk to her if you want but she is an utter cunt" I shrugged.

His eyes widened at my choice of words. I guess he isn't used to a girl speaking like that. "What a mouth on you" He acted shocked.

"Dirty mouth equals a lot of fun" I smirked. Casey what the fuck? Don't flirt with him.

He just giggled and then looked away. "How do I know you're not just jealous of her?" He asked.

"Why would I be jealous of her? She's a plastic, fake bitch" I laughed.

"Yeah but she's with your ex-boyfriend... doesn't that bother you?" He sounded serious.

"If I wanted him, I could go right up there and take him back but I don't want him, hence the fact I'm with Josh" I said confidently.

"Oh, you're with Josh?" He asked.

"You sound disappointed" I laughed.

"No, of course I'm not. I sorta guessed you were with someone. How could you not?" He said looking over my body.

Before I answered the man himself appeared. "Hello love" Josh said trying to mimick my Sheffield accent. I stood up and hugged him. I really hated that he called me love, that's what Oli always called me.

"Hey Josh, just getting to know Vic here" I said turning to Vic. He stood up and laughed.

"I'll leave you guys to it" He smiled sweetly and walked off. I like him, not in a sexual way... in a sorta, 'he could become a good friend of mine' way.

"So what did you guys talk about?" Josh asked. I looked up at him and smiled.

"Just general chit chat. I told him about you" I said then quickly gave him a kiss. We walked back to the group and decided to go back to the bus. Everyone was tired and wanted a good sleep before the tour properly began.

Everyone went to bed fairly early, I on the other hand couldn't sleep. Josh was all up in my face, he meant well but I get a little smothered sometimes, I needed air. I climbed out of the bunk and out of the bus. It was kinda cold but I was in pyjama shorts and a hoody; the air blew my hair around. I walked over to the curb of the small parking lot of the venue where the show was being held the next night.

I sat there alone, thinking about everything; how cliché. Mainly, I couldn't stop thinking about what Vic said. Was I jealous of Laura? I mean I guess yeah I'm a bit annoyed that she's still with him but we didn't work out. The difference is that at least he had the decency to tell me that he cheated on me. She is oblivious to everything around her.

After about 10 minutes I stood up and turned to walk back towards the bus but someone had been standing behind me. When I looked at them properly in the light I could a proper glance at the person; Oli. "What are you doing out here?" I asked, wrapping the hoody around my body tighter.

"Could ask you the same thing..." He stepped forward. I rolled my eyes and began to walk past him but he grabbed onto my arm and turned me around to face him. "Don't just leave" He almost whispered. His voice was so soft and fragile, like he was almost scared to talk loudly or he'd break it.

"Why on earth would I stay" I said as I yanked my arm out of his grip. His eyes filled with sadness and my heart almost felt heavy with hurt but I knew better.

"Casey, please just stay and talk to me" He begged. Okay maybe not. Damn those fucking eyes of his.

I closed my eyes in frustration. "Fine" I moaned. When I opened my eyes and was sitting on the ground infront of me. I followed suit and took a seat infront of him. "So what is wrong, why are you up and want me around?" I asked.

"I couldn't sleep, I don't know why. I guess I'm just getting a little frustrated" He shrugged. I watched his facial expressions closely, he seemed... sad.

"Are you okay?" I asked him. He looked up into my eyes.

"I'm trying to hold on but there isn't much left for me to hold on to and I'm beginning to drown in something so deep that I'll never be able to get out of. It's so hard to breathe and my lungs feel like they're getting smaller and smaller. My heart is telling me to keep believing that it'll get better but my head is smarter than that. I just want to give up" He mumbled. I tried to take in everything he said but my head was spinning, Oli was never usually like this. If he was sad about something he would get drunk, moan about it and then move on. He never ever said anything so morbid before.

I grabbed his hand and moved closer to him. "No matter what you feel, what you think or whatever the situation is I'm always going to be here for you" I whispered.

He looked away, I could see the tears beginning to form in his eyes so I got an idea. I grabbed his other hand and pulling him to his feet with me. He looked at me strangely. "What are you doing?" He asked.

"Close your eyes" I commanded him. He done as he was told and I closed mines too. I began spinning us in circles. "Imagine life is us, spinning around. We both have our eyes closed, unable to see what is coming towards us. We're mainly gonna stay in the same spot but as we get dizzier we will move around. You represent the heart, I represent the brain. When you're sad, your mind tries to be logical and sort it out; like if we begin to trip on something I would pull us in another direction... to try and stop us. You would just accept it and let us fall because it's less painful than to fight it, metaphoricly" I explained. "If I let go, we'll fall" I said and let go.

We both tumbled to the ground with a thud. "That hurt, a warning would be nice" Oli mumbled, grabbing his arm.

I dizzily stood back up and pulled him with me. I grabbed his hands and began spinning again. "You didn't see it coming did you?" I asked.

"No" He mumbled.

"That's it though isn't it. You don't see when you're going to fall but we got back up and continued spinning. Life is going to throw you some stones but you gotta dodge them, if you get hit and fall down. Just get right back up. We're going through life blindly, just don't quit before the light hits you" I said and stopped suddenly. "You just never know when it's going to end. I opened my eyes and looked at him, he stared back at me.

The look on his face was priceless. "Casey... you're the best okay" He smiled, what looked like the first real smile in ages. It felt like we were friends again... real friends.

"Come on, let's go get sleep okay?" I suggested. He nodded and we both began to walk back to the bus, swaying as we walked because of how dizzy we were.

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