A One Night Stand, Lingered To A Fling

The next couple of days were difficult. I never fully expected Oli to completely take my advice but I hoped it would make a small difference but I was wrong, it sorta seemed as though he had done the complete opposite; which scared me a lot.

We were in Paris somewhere, touring for me is a little bit of a blur, I sorta realise that unless you're in the band playing then you don't really know where you are. For me, I have no clue where I am. All I know is that we are going to Disneyland Paris and I couldn't be more excited.

The only thing bothering me was how awkward this day off in Disneyland could be, since it was Disney World that me and Oli got together last year. It still sorta bugs me that it was almost a year ago that we split up. So much had changed in a year, even though I'm with Josh right now and I really do like him I just... miss Oli so much.

"WE'RE HERE!" Josh jumped down on the couch next to me. I looked at his facial expression, he looked as excited as I felt inside but right now, I just didn't wanna show it.

"Good, I'm gonna throw up before the end of the day" I laughed. Looking around me, I grabbed my phone and some money out of my purse and rose to my feet. Josh did the same and grabbed my hand, leading me off of the bus and into the warm Paris air.

"What do you wanna go on first?" Josh said while intertwining our fingers. I glanced down at our hands and smiled lightly, sometimes it's the small things. It wasn't anything like how it felt to have my hand in Olis but right now, this was good enough for me.

Why the fuck am I so ungrateful, I have an amazing boyfriend who is totally gorgeous and loves me but I can't get over my ex-boyfriend who cheated on me; left me broken hearted and almost to the point of giving up on everything. The saddest part is I let it happen, I let him get to me and drag me down. It's like I have no willpower when it comes to Oliver Sykes.

I looked up at Josh, remembering he asked a question. "Um, I don't know to be honest. Whatever everyone else is cool with" I tried to smile sincerely but it almost felt fake. There was a lot of children running around, I forgot it was Easter break right now so the place was heaving with snotty little spoiled brats running around; I mostly dislike kids unless they're family.

We walked over to where pretty much everyone was standing. I instantly looked at Oli to see what his mood was like today, he seemed alright but very quiet. He looked up and caught my gaze. I instantly smiled at him, without even thinking about it actually, he probably thought I was a complete weirdo; which he's not entirely wrong about. "So what's the plan then kids?" Matt N spoke up.

Everyone sorta just shrugged and didn't say much. "Well damn you're all very decisive bastards" Lee laughed.

"I think we should go on some rides then have lunch?" Josh suggested.

Matt pointed at Josh and clapped. "See lads, was that so hard?" He walked over to Josh and patted him on the back. "I love you baby" He whispered in his ear then kissed him on the cheek. Josh just laughed at his actions then rolled his eyes.

We ended up going on rides, I felt a little sick so I didn't last long before I ended up sitting down outside the big castle. I was happy to sit alone and reflect on everything. Something that I've been doing a lot recently, I guess that's a good thing instead of regretting everything at a later date.

Kids ran by, some speaking in French, some were speaking Spanish but the majority were speaking English. I watched them run past me, excited to see Mickey Mouse or Snow-white. It saddened me that I wasn't care free anymore, the days of the most stressful thing in my life which was choosing which pencil case I wanted for school or if I was gonna have jam sandwiches for lunch that day were over. I guess I sorta envy these kids for having no worries. You take for granted being a child, you always want to grow up and be cool; you don't listen when adults say enjoy your childhood because they're boring, what do they know? Now I would give anything to go back and start again.

"Y'know you look like you're totally lost Casey, what's up?" I heard a little voice beside me speak up. I looked to my left and seen Lee sitting there. His beanie hat was covering most of his hair, his long fringe was thrust into his eyes and he looked like he had just eaten a lot of sweets; hence the chocolate on his cheek.

"Lee you've got a little chocolate on your face" I said, holding back a laugh.

He stuck his tongue out and tried to lick it off, it was disturbing really. "Am I close?" He asked. I felt embarrassed to be with him.

"Um... yeah" I giggled and looked away.

He got the sleeve of his jumper and wiped his face, almost like a kid I guess. Which makes me think a little. The guys are the biggest kids I've ever been around, maybe you can hold onto your childhood a bit when you grow up. "So what's up? You love Disneyland so why are you so glum" He nudged me with his arm.

I swayed a little with a small smile playing on my lips before I looked up to answer. "Is it possible to hold onto your childhood and still grow up?" I asked biting my lip.

He tilted his head and then began laughing. "Really?" He asked. I looked at him confused which made him laugh even more. "Oh Casey, that's hilarious" He laughed.

I playfully slapped his arm. "Oi it's a serious question" I whined.

He stopped laughing and sighed. "You should know by now that you can. Look at us, we playing music in a fucking metal band but when you get us off the stage you wonder why anyone even let us near it in the first place. I think to be really happy you have to have a little bit of what you were like as a kid still in you. It keeps you on your toes I guess" He smiled.

I nodded in understanding, he made a lot sense with that. "Thank you knobend" I wrapped my arm around his shoulder and kisses his head.

"Ah, get off me" He tried to push me away but I wouldn't let him.

"Come on then, let's go find the others and have some fun" I suggested. We both stood up and I turned to Lee and smiled. "You're it!" I shouted, tagged him and ran.

This was fun.

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