Why Do You Torture Me So?

I was quite jumpy as we made our way across the country, all I could think about was going home. I could tell by the fact of even Jaime telling me to shut up and sit down several times that he was irritated with me. Jaime was usually the hyper type even without sugar but lately I’ve been draining him of that precious life force. I’ve just been so excited and happy to go to San Deigo again.
It was 5am when Swanson nudged my hand singling that he needed to go potty. I cracked my eyes open to see the abnormally large English springer nudging my hand over and over while whimpering.
“Go bother Mikey.” I whispered softly to the dog, watching as he turned around and barked in Mike’s face. I giggled softly, watching as Mike’s eyes flew open and slowly got up to let Swanny out.
“Alice, get the fuck up.” Michael growled at me and I cracked an eye open.
“Are you talking to me?” I asked trying to sound asleep.
“Yes, now get up. You’re helping me with your dog.”
“Fine.” I pushed the blankets off of my body and walked away from my warm bunk into the hot outside. I opened the door to the bus and walked off seeing Mike smoking a cigarette and Swanson pissing on a tree.
“I see you’re here.” He sassed me as I grabbed the cigarette he offered to me greedily. I pulled a lighter out of my pj bottoms and lite it up quickly, taking a long drag.
“Yeah I am. Surprised you’re awake, Mikey.” I shot back grinning like the cat that swallowed the canary.
“Well of course I’m awake you bitch. You’re dumb fucking dog woke me up.” I giggled a bit as he shot me glares.
“One, He’s not dumb; Swanson is very intelligent, you moron. Two, we won’t have him for long and likewise with the cats. We’re in Texas and the animals will be going with my sister in not many hours. So please be nice.” I begged him with sad blue eyes as I smoked my cig.
I was quite upset about having to give the animals to my sister Dani but I couldn’t take care of them. But I was also relieved that she would be taking them from me. I wouldn’t need to worry about if they needed food anymore nor if I neglected them.
I finished my cigarette too soon for comfort but so did Mike; and as we led Swanson back onto the bus, I grabbed Mike’s hand and squeezed it tightly. His head shot up from the ground to look at me and my hand.
“Can’t I hold your hand?” I asked closing the door after him.
“Of course,” He responded with a goofy smile. I watched Swanson climb into Jaime’s bunk and disappear behind the curtains. It caused me to giggle and lean into the tall stick man who looked at me funny before hugging me.
“Can I climb into your bunk with you? Mine’s cold.” I whispered softly into his neck.
“Sure. Maybe we can fall back asleep before anyone else wakes up.” Mike replied letting go of my hand and picking up my really unhappy looking Calico. He stroked her head, smiling at me like the maniac he is, before she bit his hand and I giggled again.
“Bitch.” He murmured sucking on his hand where she bit him. My cat was good for something’s I’ve noticed.
“Come on Mike. She’s a cat, she’s not gonna love everyone.” I replied grabbing his other hand and pulling him into his bunk with me.
“But why doesn’t she like me?” He whined out as I stuck my tongue out at him making him smile.
“There’s always one person she doesn’t like.” I commented pulling his Harry Potter blanket up over our shoulders and fiddling with a few pieces of his hair.
“I guess.” He murmured to himself and I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him closer as I let my eyes droop closed and my world fade away.
~~~~Alice’s Dream~~~
Here I was, back again to my version of Wonderland. I always wondered why I had mine but then remembered my previous years. I had always preferred to be alone than to be hurt by someone. And one day, I just zoned out and built a magical place inside my mind. Just to be funny, I called it Wonderland and so far it has stuck. Many of the things are the same but eventually they changed.
The soft fluffy cat turned into skin and bones with a sickening grin and an earring hanging from its right mangled ear. Hatter wore a strait jacket with his arms busted through. My wonderland had monsters roaming around and destroying it. But I always held my ground. When they would attack me, I’d destroy them. Vile things do not belong in a beautiful paradise.
“Why hello Alice, Back so soon?” A voice cried out from plain sight. It held spite and a bit cockiness as it spoke towards me. The only one who was like that was Cheshire. The wicked cat appeared as I waked towards him.
“You know as well as I do, this is my world. I will come and go as I please. Now what do you want cat?” I crossed my arms and looked down seeing a dress upon my body. It was a steam punk dress almost like the one in The Ballad of Mona Lisa by Panic! At the Disco, worn by the woman who killed the man.
“I wanted to inform you that your world is slowly working its way back together. Your little friends seem to be a gigantic help.” He responded with his grin shining.
“They are my best friends for a reason Cheshire. Now could you point me in the direction of Hatter? I need to speak with him.” I watched the Cat roll his eyes.
“In the White Queen’s castle having a tea party. You seem out of it Alice. May I pick your mind?” The cat asked and I nodded sitting down on a Toad stool.
“Well Wonderland has been in ruin for a few years now, how has it been able to be rebuilt so quickly? Have you fallen in love?”
“ Cheshire, I am not allowed to answer. I don’t even know if I am. Well ta ta.” I replied walking away from the blasted cat towards the White Queen’s Castle. I walked slowly looking at the changes that had been made over the past couple of days.
The land was fuller and greener compared to what it once was. Pride swelled in my throat. Wonderland was coming back together. No more creatures that I could see of and I could make out my Mad Hatter.
“Hatter~” I called, waving my arm as I ran closer to approach him. I looked at him to see A semi chipped tea cup in his hand and the food along the long table actually looked edible.
“Hello Alice, what brings you here? Tea?” He asked me and I sat down in a chair to his left. I happily took the cup he offered me and put several sugar cubs into it.
“Thank you Hatter. I wanted to ask you a few questions actually.” I sipped the tea slowly, tasting the goodness of the Ceylon in my cup.
“Ask away Alice, my dear. Muffin?” He held the platter to me and I graciously accepted a chocolate chip one and began to much happily.
“Thanks. How’s the reproduction of Wonderland going? I’ve heard you put yourself in charge.” I sat at the table crossing and uncrossing my ankles over and over as I waited for his response. My insides felt like pudding.
“Its been going well as you can see. But the real question is for you Alice,” Hatter replied pouring himself more tea and drinking it.
“Yes?” I asked, perking up a bit in my chair.
“You’ve found your old friends haven’t you?” He asked and I nodded smiling. “Are they good friends?” I nodded once again. “And you’ve developed feelings for one of them?” I nodded again, feeling heat in my cheeks. “Well good. You need to find someone. Eat a few more muffins and drink some more tea. Invite Cheshire the next time too. I could use the company. “ He said handing me a basket full of treats and thermos full of my favorite tea.
“Why thank you Hatter. I really must be going.” I said standing up and kissed his cheek.
“I know that, why do you think I gave you the basket? Now shoo!” I nodded walking away from the table and as I approached the black old fashioned door, I heard voices that didn’t belong here.
“Victor?” I called looking around until I saw the small Mexican sitting on the ground in front of me clutching his bum as if he fell and landed on it.
“Owwie…Oh, Hi Alice,” He said standing up.
“What are you doing here? This is my world…” I asked getting anxious. I’d never had another person fall into my wonderland. I’d been told it wasn’t possible.
“Well I went to wake you up and we’ll I just fell into you. My body went right through. Umm can we leave now?” He asked walking closer to me.
“Yeah, I was just about to go. Take my hand.” I told him reaching my arm out and pulled him through the door.
~~~~~~End of Alice’s Dream~~~~~
I awoke with a start seeing as though the bus had stopped and a little brown haired Mexican was lying on the floor outside Mike’s bunk. He really did try to wake me up huh? Well time to wake them up.
“Mike…” I nudged the sleeping man-boy next to me as he opened his eyes.
“Wa?”
“Wake up.” I told him and he nodded yawning.
“Wha time is?” He asked yawning loudly. I honestly didn’t know what time it was but I figured I could trick him.
“2;30 dude. Get up!” And with that Mike flew outta bed and raced into the living room section.
“Where is everyone?! Vic! What are you doing on the ground! Get up!! Rawr!!!” Mike yelled running off the bus shirtless in the hot Texas sun and onto my sister’s porch. I poked Vic awake and his sleepy act was adorable. He stretched out then acted like a cat.
“Come on Vic. Time to meet my sister.”
“Okay.” Vic pulled his vans on and followed me outside and into my sister’s house. I opened the door to see my elder sister, her husband, matt, and their dogs running around happily.
“Hey Dani! What’s up?” I said smiling from the doorway. It was a forced smile but she accepted it. I felt so uncomfortable around her because of our past but I did miss her.
“Alice! I missed you! I’m so glad you came, when I got your text saying you were going to stop by I didn’t believe it.” I nodded, smiling at them.
“Yeah, We’re heading to San Diego. You remember Vic, Mike, Tony and Jaime right?” I asked and she nodded. “Well I’m heading back with them.”
“Really? That’s amazing! I guess this is congratulations. I hope you have lots of fun.”
“Yeah, I plan on soaking up the sun for a bit then getting a job. I can’t live off of the guys forever.” I gave a feeble laugh where everyone joined in.
“No you can. You can live with me, Alice!” Jaime cried hugging me tightly.
“No~” Vic replied loudly, “She’s gonna live with me!” I just giggled softly at their gestures.
“So have you watched Naruto lately?” My sister asked and I nodded happily.
“Watching Konoha get their asses beat is very upsetting.” I commented receiving odd looks from the boys.
“I know right? I’m just glad Kakashi’s still alive but Sasuke should really die.”
“Agreed that duck ass should die.” I snickered walking down the hall. “Where’s your bathroom?” I asked opening a door, “Never mind!” I cried out walking into the bathroom and sitting on the floor, just thinking.
“Is it time to run free?” I asked myself looking up at the ceiling with a smile. “I think its time to be free.” I stood up and walked out of the bathroom smiling happily.
We hung out in my sister’s house for almost another hour and soon said our goodbyes with promises to text.
I walked back on the bus, with feelings of loneliness as I climbed into my bunk and silently sobbed myself to sleep.

Notes

Hey guys! I'm back finally but I come with disappointing news.
I'm going to slow the production of all of my stories(BVB, MCR, PTV, Sherlock, Naruto and Harry Potter/Hetalia crossover) including this one.
The reason because I'm having lots of trouble with my depression and self-harming. I'm sorry. :/
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