She wasn't there.
Why wasn't she here?
Didn't they just say that she was waking up?


I looked around the room taking in the sight. I felt like I was seeing it for the first time. But why? I've been here for God knows how long.

I opened my mouth to talk, but nothing came out.
"Mya!"
Before i knew it, Tony and Jaime were hugging me.

What the fuck was going on?

They let go of me and I soon realized that... I was the one in the hospital bed, not my best friend.

In fact, She wasn't even in the room...

I wasn't siting in an uncomfortable chair beside the bed anymore.
Tony and Jaime had been sitting there, holding my hand this whole time.

My eyes traveled down to my hands.
On my right hand was an IV, with the white medical tape holding it in place, and on the left, a black heart monitor clamp on my index finger.


The beeps. They were mine, not hers.

I was listening to my own heart beat, this whole time, thinking it was hers.
I lifted my left hand slowly and reached up to my face, and there it was. The clear little tube inside of my nostrils to make sure I had stayed breathing.

Tears started to fill my eyes. I have so many questions to ask, but my mouth wouldn't let me speak!

"You were breathing on your own for awhile... We thought you were getting better because you were able to. But then a couple days later, you would stop breathing... The doctors thought it would be safer to put you back on the ventilator."

I stopped touching the tube and nodded, placing my hand back into Jaime's.

How did i get here?! Are Jas and Amelia okay?!
Please tell me they're okay.

WHY WAS NOTHING COMING OUT?!?

"When the doctors ran tests, there was brain activity. You were dreaming, you were alive, but by simply looking at you, you couldn't tell. Your fingers didn't twitch, your eyes weren't rolling behind your lids.. Nothing. You basically looked dead, other than the slow rise and fall of your chest from your breathing." Jaime whispered. Tony scratched his scruffy chin and sat back down next to bed, placing my hand in his. I saw him smile when the heart monitor quicken.


When my heart raced... It was when he touched me.

" That's how I knew you were still in there. When we would kiss your forehead, hold your hand, or just talk to you, It sped up. The first time it happened, I actually cried. I felt like it was you saying you loved us, even though you couldn't actually say it. It gave me hope that you would be okay and wake up, B-But days turned into weeks. And those weeks slowly turned into 4 1/2 months.."

He squeezed my hand. I squeezed back, Well as tight as i could, which wasn't very tight at all.
Tony chuckled and lightly kissed my hand.
"I should probably let Jas and the guys know that you're awake."
I nodded and opened my mouth. When a sound finally came out, it made my throat sting, and it was barely audible.
"H... How is....s-she?"
They both sighed, Jaime lightly rubbing my knuckles.
"It's been rough on her. She visits you everyday that she can when she isn't dealing with the baby. The second that she had heard about you, she quit her job and was on the first flight back."

What? Tony what the hell are you talking about?

"N-no. Amelia."
Tony gave me a confused look.
"Who's Amelia, beautiful?" Jaime whispered.

What do you mean who's Amelia?
And why is Jas not here? She should be resting and, and... and.


What is going on?

"Her baby."
Jaime and Tony shook their heads.

"She's not born yet, babe."
"B-But..." I sighed, it hurt too much to talk. I looked at my lap, my gaze only drifting over to a white bandage around my arm, tinted with red smeared lines from the inside out.

"W-When did I get here?" I asked, my eyes never leaving my arm. I tore the bandage off and Jaime gasped.
"My, what the hell are you doing?"
The scars were fading, only scabs beginning to take the cuts' place. They were still healing, but you can still see them. You can see them perfectly.

I knew when I had done those cuts...

They were both looking at my self injuries biting their lip, tears once again forming in Jaime's eyes.
"M-My. You tried to kill yourself. Your parents had found you a-and you took off with a knife. We couldn't find you for hours. When we found you, you had a gash in the back of your head, a horrible concussion, and bleeding out on a park bench." Jaime said, taking a deep breath as an attempt to stop himself from crying, but failing, his normally defined cheeks puffy and warm brown eyes now gloomy, bloodshot and glossy.

Tony's grip on my hand tightened.
"We kept trying to wake you up, but nothing. You've been out since. Comatose. Almost 5 months."

Tears slowly started falling from my eyes.

I remembered that night.

Everything.

The feeling i had in the pit of my stomach.
The ache in my chest.
The feeling of being alone, not good enough for anyone.
Having to start from scratch.
The feeling of being a fuck up.
I was crying for so long.

I wanted to fall asleep and never wake up..

Never have to worry about them finding me again.

"I-I'm so sorry..." I choked out, removing my hands from theirs to hide my face as tears streamed down it.

I heard the door open and gasps.
"MYA!" Vic and Mike screamed, running over and attacking me in a hug. I cried into Mike's shoulder.
"I'm so sorry.." I repeated.
"We almost lost you, so many times. We were terrified, My's." They both pulled away when we heard another cry ring throughout the room.
"You're okay." Jas cried. I waved her over, and she leaned over the bed, pulling me into a huge hug.
"I missed you, oh God, I missed you."

"I missed you too." I whispered.

"Okay, we need to go look for the doctor." She said, standing up straight. I smiled and touched her stomach.
"It's a girl." She told me. I nodded.
"Can I have a few alone with her?" Tony asked.
"Sure, we'll be back with the Doctor." Jaime told me, giving me a smile and kissing my head as they all walked out.

"Tone, you look like shit. Go home, take a shower and sleep." He shook his head.
"I'm not leaving. Besides... I have a bag of clothes over there." He motioned to the opposite corner of the room where 4 small back packs sat against the wall.
"And you're one to talk."

I gasped, pretending to be hurt by his comment.
"I've been in a coma for five months! I can't help it!"

He looked down and shook his head.
"Y-Yeah, don't remind me.." I lightly placed my hand on top of his and he looked up at me with tears threatening to fall.
"Hey... I'm fine now, Tonester." I smiled and scooted to the right, giving Tony enough room to lay beside me.
"I don't think I-I should..."
"Get in this bed, Perry." I told him. He smiled and carefully crawled into the bed, wrapping his arm around me and lightly pulling me into him, being cautious of my wires and heart monitor clips.
"Wow, My's.. You have no idea how much I've missed this."

No Tony. You have no idea how much i missed this...
Even in my dream i could never just lay with you, because I had disappeared.
And when you found me, we had this huge blow up fight, and said things that we didn't mean.
And you cheated.
But it's going to change.

"I'd kiss you, Tone, Buuuut my breath is probably horrible."
He laughed, leaning down and lightly kissing my lips.
My stomach was doing flips and I could feel my cheeks heat when he pulled away.

But the reason why I was blushing wasn't just because he kissed me.

My stupid heart beat got faster... Which was being monitored and Tony got to hear it.
He quietly laughed and looked at it.
"You're so cute." He leaned down to kiss me again, until we heard the door open. The nurse ran in but stopped when she saw Tony and I laying down.
Tony hurried and got off me sitting back down in his chair, trying to pretend that he was never on the bed.
As for me, i sat up in my bed, looking at the blonde nurse in front of me.


Exactly the way she looked in my dream.

"Miss James-"
"Preciado." I corrected, trying not to cringe at the last name that belonged to the scumbags.
"Right, Miss Preciado. My apologies." I nodded. "So, I see your awake."
"Yeah. Sadly i had to wake up to Tony's ugly face." I giggled and looked over at him. He was pouting and mumbled to himself.
"I'm not ugly. I'm sexy as hell." I smiled and held out my hand.
"Nope. You called me ugly."
"Whatever, Tony." I told him, focusing my attention back on the nurse.
"How are you feeling?"
"Tired. I just want to go home."
"I'm afraid that's going to have to wait until we've confirmed that you're stable." I nodded and laid back against my pillow.
"But if you'd like, Tony and your brother brought a bag of loose fitting clothes that you could wear instead of the gown, along with some personals and shower items. We can get a wheel chair ready and have a nurse assist you to the handicap showers we have. We don't want you trying anything on your own, being as your muscles will be very weak from not using them. the showers have benches you can sit on while you wash."
I chuckled and nodded.
"Um, is there any way that Tony could... y'know be there rather than a nurse? I'm not comfortable with strangers seeing me naked." She bit her lip and nodded.
"If anyone catches you, I didn't know, deal?" I giggled and nodded.
"Deal." I told her. She responded with a nod and walked out of the room.

"But.. I've never seen you um.." Tony blushed.
"Oh, yeah. I forgot that it was a dream..." I whispered. His head snapped up and he laughed lightly.
"You had a dream where I saw you... or where we- Okay, nevermind." He chuckled. I giggled and covered my face, trying to hide my red face.
"I couldn't help it!" He bit his lip, quickly shaking his head and walking towards the bag in the corner of the room.
"You can wear my turtle shirt and a pair of red basketball shorts so you match. I also brought a couple pairs of panties and bras. No shoes or socks though, since I figured you weren't going to walking a lot."

I smiled and nodded. He took them out and threw them at me, the shirt landing on my head purposely.

"Tooooonnnnyyy." I whined. He laughed and took it off.
"Sorry. Jaime brought the stuff out of your shower, toothbrush and toothpaste, and a brush. Oh, and just because you're a girl and believe you need it, your makeup bag."

"You're amazing." He smiled and kissed me, only pulling away slightly.
"I try to be." He whispered, leaning in to give me another kiss, until there was a knock on the door.
"Sorry guys, just me." The nurse said and rolled the chair into my room, before walking to my side. She turned off the monitor and took the clamp off of my finger then walked around to the other side, carefully taking out the IV and taping a cottonball to my hand where the IV had been, then proceeded to take the uncomfortable tube out of my nose.
"If you have any complications breathing, please let me know."
I nodded.

"Ready?" Tony smiled at me as he put the back pack on him that had now been only packed with the things that I needed, the non necessities placed on the hospital chair.
I returned his smile and nodded. He carefully lifted me up bridal style and gently placed me in the wheel chair.

I couldn't wait to get back home.
But for now, Tony taking care of me...

I might abuse that.


I also can't wait to see if anything else from my dream actually happens....

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The guys and I were sitting at a small round table in the cafe, Jas having to go home from stomach pains.

I had tried to buy myself a cup of tea, and a bagel with cream cheese, but as soon as I went to pull out my money from my wallet Tony had brought here for me, he snatched it away and stuffed it in one of his pockets, smiling and kissing my nose as he handed the cashier a 20 dollar bill after ordering himself a Muffin, a small cappuccino, and a brownie to share with me.
I smiled and laughed at Tony as I watched him get the whip cream from his drink on his nose, then try to lick it off.

We looked a lot better than what we had before our shower. Our hair was still wet, but you could tell that it was no longer greasy.

Tony had shaved what facial hair he had, and I kinda missed it.
The bags under his eyes were a little less noticeable. His eyes were no longer red, they showed happiness in them, especially when he looked at me.
And his to die for smile was permanently showing.

"So, I believe that we owe you an 18th birthday party." Mike said. I blushed and nodded, feeling Tony's hand slip it's way into mine.
"And by the way, Jaime knows. No more hiding, you two."
"W-What?" I asked, head snapping towards Jaime.
"Eh, rather him than some stranger. At least I trust him, but he better watch out if he hurts you. I know where you sleep, Perry."
"Sir yes sir." Tony grumbled, making me giggle.
"I really missed you guys." I sighed, playing with Tony's fingers between my own.
"Missed you too, My's." Jaime said, pulling me into him and kissing my forehead.

This was my true family.


I couldn't wait to start over, with the ones that I knew had mattered most from the moment I had walked through that house.


The ones who saved me. Who had taken me in and showed me how to care, how to love.


How to be happy.


Oh my God, this is paradise.

Notes

Okay, so I had a whole nother ending planned (Since I was in charge of the ending)

But I changed it... ALOT.

Idk, I hope I kind of mind fucked you, and it makes sense. xD

I kinda winged it here, so... Let me know how I did!

And tell me if I should stay writing on this website!

Thanks for letting me write with you, Crys! It was certainly a pleasure bbg ;*



THANKS FOR STICKING WITH THE STORY! I LOVE YOU DARLING<3

Cass<3