I Breathe You In With Smoke.
I Don't Ever Wanna Lose My Best Friend.
I screamed as I hit the hard wooden floor. I looked through my teary vision, my eyes desperately trying to bring come back into focus. I didn't need it though.
I knew those pairs of cold eyes anywhere.
They found me.
I winced and used my legs to scoot across the floor, as far away from them as I could.
"JAIME!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, before my hand was covered.
"You're dead, bitch." Kevin growled. I shook my head, hearing door after door slam open.
"Mya?! MYA!" Jaime screamed, turning on the hallway light. "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!" He ran downstairs and pushed Kevin off of me.
"WHO IS THIS!" Vic screamed at him. Mike and Tony walked over, tackling Kevin to the ground and throwing punches at him.
"Her fucking 'Father'." My body shook, partly with fear, the other from the dizziness from the impact of me hitting the floor. I felt blood begin to trickle down the nape of my neck as I watched Mike and Tony beat Kevin to a pulp. Before I could react, I felt a hand being wrapped around my wrist, nails digging into the sensitive flesh.
"Hey! Get off her!" Jaime screamed, forcing her grip off of me. Vic wrapped his arm around me as I choked on a sob.
"She's a minor, boys. What's going to happen when the police find out you took in a runaway?"
"SHE'S BEEN HERE FOR OVER A FUCKING MONTH!" Vic screamed.
"And now it's time to take her home." She smirked.
"No, that was never my home! f-f-fuck off!" She looked down at me, stepping in up to me.
"The fuck did you say, you little bitch?" I cowered further into Vic and whimpered. Tony walked over, Kevin's blood dripping down his hand.
"Out of my house. Now."
"So, so silly. You don't know what we're capable of, do you? Why don't you ask Mya?" Vic hugged me closer as we watched Jaime and Tony standing up to Lauren, Mike still with Kevin in the corner.
"Don't contradict yourself. Get the law involved, watch how fast your ass and your pathetic scum of boyfriend are behind bars." Tony spat. She growled and shoved him.
"This isn't over."
"Mike, back the fuck up." Jaime barked. Mike launched his arm back, putting all of his strength into one last punch. Lauren helped Kevin up and he held his nose as it gushed.
"You're all fucking dead!" He screamed. "Especially you." He growled, eyes burning into me, making a weird sensation overwhelm me.
The diner. He was the one watching me. I cried into Vic's shirt as I heard the door slam.
"My, are you-" I shook my head, getting up and grabbing a knife.
"Shit, grab her!" I booked it out the front door, slamming it behind them and taking off.
I needed this, I really did. They knew where I was. They could easily hurt the guys, ruin their lives the way they had done to me.
I put them in danger. Nothing could be forgiven for that.
I took twists and turns, hearing their screams fade as I choked on my own tears and stumbled, my vision and dizziness only getting progressively worse. I stumbled towards a street light and sat down on a bench that marked the entrance to a park. I looked down at my wrist. Everything felt as if it was moving in slow motion as I blinked at the white lines that had marked my skin.
They would be so disappointed if I did this. I-I made a promise.
But I've put their lives at risk. I deserved it.
"I deserve it." I whispered to myself as tears fell down my cheeks. I brought the knife to my wrist, hissing in pain as I slowly dragged it across, digging deeper as I moved.
Being deprived of such release made me forget the pain, but the relief... That... That could never be forgotten.
One cut wasn't enough. I had loads of mistakes that I had to punish myself for, and my mouth watered as the euphoria came in larger quantities the deeper I dug.
Letting the guys down.
Making empty promises.
Saying yes to staying with Jaime from day one.
Falling in love with Tony.
Being worthless.
Suicidal.
Pathetic.
Dead.
That's what I was. I was dead. Not in the way that I had wanted to be, but the fire that I was regaining back inside of me, it was now doused. And I was too emotionally damaged to start from scratch.
Nor did the guys have patience for any such thing either.
Why not eliminate the problem? I thought as darkness drifted over me.
You're welcome.
I knew those pairs of cold eyes anywhere.
They found me.
I winced and used my legs to scoot across the floor, as far away from them as I could.
"JAIME!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, before my hand was covered.
"You're dead, bitch." Kevin growled. I shook my head, hearing door after door slam open.
"Mya?! MYA!" Jaime screamed, turning on the hallway light. "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!" He ran downstairs and pushed Kevin off of me.
"WHO IS THIS!" Vic screamed at him. Mike and Tony walked over, tackling Kevin to the ground and throwing punches at him.
"Her fucking 'Father'." My body shook, partly with fear, the other from the dizziness from the impact of me hitting the floor. I felt blood begin to trickle down the nape of my neck as I watched Mike and Tony beat Kevin to a pulp. Before I could react, I felt a hand being wrapped around my wrist, nails digging into the sensitive flesh.
"Hey! Get off her!" Jaime screamed, forcing her grip off of me. Vic wrapped his arm around me as I choked on a sob.
"She's a minor, boys. What's going to happen when the police find out you took in a runaway?"
"SHE'S BEEN HERE FOR OVER A FUCKING MONTH!" Vic screamed.
"And now it's time to take her home." She smirked.
"No, that was never my home! f-f-fuck off!" She looked down at me, stepping in up to me.
"The fuck did you say, you little bitch?" I cowered further into Vic and whimpered. Tony walked over, Kevin's blood dripping down his hand.
"Out of my house. Now."
"So, so silly. You don't know what we're capable of, do you? Why don't you ask Mya?" Vic hugged me closer as we watched Jaime and Tony standing up to Lauren, Mike still with Kevin in the corner.
"Don't contradict yourself. Get the law involved, watch how fast your ass and your pathetic scum of boyfriend are behind bars." Tony spat. She growled and shoved him.
"This isn't over."
"Mike, back the fuck up." Jaime barked. Mike launched his arm back, putting all of his strength into one last punch. Lauren helped Kevin up and he held his nose as it gushed.
"You're all fucking dead!" He screamed. "Especially you." He growled, eyes burning into me, making a weird sensation overwhelm me.
The diner. He was the one watching me. I cried into Vic's shirt as I heard the door slam.
"My, are you-" I shook my head, getting up and grabbing a knife.
"Shit, grab her!" I booked it out the front door, slamming it behind them and taking off.
I needed this, I really did. They knew where I was. They could easily hurt the guys, ruin their lives the way they had done to me.
I put them in danger. Nothing could be forgiven for that.
I took twists and turns, hearing their screams fade as I choked on my own tears and stumbled, my vision and dizziness only getting progressively worse. I stumbled towards a street light and sat down on a bench that marked the entrance to a park. I looked down at my wrist. Everything felt as if it was moving in slow motion as I blinked at the white lines that had marked my skin.
They would be so disappointed if I did this. I-I made a promise.
But I've put their lives at risk. I deserved it.
"I deserve it." I whispered to myself as tears fell down my cheeks. I brought the knife to my wrist, hissing in pain as I slowly dragged it across, digging deeper as I moved.
Being deprived of such release made me forget the pain, but the relief... That... That could never be forgotten.
One cut wasn't enough. I had loads of mistakes that I had to punish myself for, and my mouth watered as the euphoria came in larger quantities the deeper I dug.
Letting the guys down.
Making empty promises.
Saying yes to staying with Jaime from day one.
Falling in love with Tony.
Being worthless.
Suicidal.
Pathetic.
Dead.
That's what I was. I was dead. Not in the way that I had wanted to be, but the fire that I was regaining back inside of me, it was now doused. And I was too emotionally damaged to start from scratch.
Nor did the guys have patience for any such thing either.
Why not eliminate the problem? I thought as darkness drifted over me.
You're welcome.
Notes
Wow, this is almost over... :OIdek, just rolling with it and planning around the epic ending Cass and I have.
Don't know if any of you watch Full Frontal, but it's a radio show hosted by Alex and Jack of ATL every monday from 7pm to 8pm. Cassie got me hooked on it, and omg, they're just so hilarious.
Go to http://idobi.com/ in the top left corner, it should say Idobi radio, idobi howl, and listen.
Just click on Idobi howl and click listen, if you wanna hear them<3 Haha.
Will Mya be okay? Idk/:
More soon. (Take it away, Cassie. <3)
Thanks for reading! xx
-Crys
sequel pleeeease :D
5/14/14