This is dangerous you know. You can’t hide this from them forever. You have to tell them that you’re the Nicole or I swear to God, I won’t ever leave you alone.

I sighed. The voice in my head was right. Well a tiny bit. I’m going to have to tell them. Vic came back and sat down, quietly muttering a sorry to each of us.

Tell them now Nicole. It’s now or never.

Crap. My heart started speeding up again and my hands started shaking.

“Hey Nicole, are you alright?”

I ignored him and grabbed the pen that was sticking out of Jaime’s pocket and started scribbling away on the clean napkin next to me. All of them watched me curiously and confusingly as I wrote everything down.

I’m Nicole.

Jaime chuckled. “We know your Nicole, Nicole.”

I shook my head and wrote again. I felt Vic’s eyes on me. When I glanced up, he looked a little worried. Suddenly, his eyes hardened and all the kindness disappeared. I dropped my pen and stared at him, curious but also scared to see how he would react.

“What are you doing trying to get back into my life again?” Vic asked harshly.

I flinched back a little and stared at him, not knowing what to say to him.

“So this is the Nicole,” Jaime sneered.

Crap, crap, crap. I have to get out of here now. I need to get out of here now. I can’t do this, I can’t talk to them, and I can’t do anything.

I slid down the wall next to me and curled into a ball. I was so angry with myself. Why am I so useless? Why can’t I do anything right? Numb. I feel so numb. No tears would come out, as much as I want them to. My chest didn’t hurt when I saw the way he looked at me. I couldn’t feel. Why can’t I feel anything? Why?

The voice cackled inside my head.

Goodbye Nicole.

Notes

Oh god, my emotions got the best of this story. It's such a great way to vent you know. The storm is approaching. Muahahaha.

Song: Beautiful by Christina Aguilera
Quote: "Trying hard to fill the emptiness. The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone."

It's a good song guys. I like the lyrics.

xx (: