“Here you go Miss Lady,” Tony said goofily as he pulled the chair out for me.

I couldn’t help but smile as I sat down, nodding him a thanks.

“Can you talk?” Jaime asked curiously.

I shrugged and looked away from him. The thing is, I didn’t feel like talking. I knew no one was going to listen to me, no matter how much I cry or beg for them to stop. No one listens, so why waste my time? Plus, I never even liked my voice anyways.

“But you were speaking just fine yesterday,” Vic said, frowning at me.

I lifted my shoulders and then dropped them. Another shrug. The table went silent. Great, I seem to make things awkward even without me talking. After a few more minutes, the food arrived and everyone started stuffing their faces. I looked down at my burger. Fat! It screamed out at me.

Why the fuck are you eating that? You’re going to be fat, not that you aren’t already.

I frowned. Why can’t the voice just go away and stop bothering me? It’s messing with my emotions and the way I think. I can’t think properly. The noise, my head, it never seems like I can get any silence. It sucks.

“Are you going to eat that?” Jaime looked at the burger hungrily as he asked me.

I shook my head and pushed the plate towards him and he immediately scoffed it down. I smiled a small smile. He’s so hyper and funny; you just can’t help but to be in a brighter mood.

“Are you sure Nicki? You can have some of my food if you want,” Vic offered me, frowning at Jaime.

I froze. Did he just call me Nicki? Breathe Nicole, breathe. I could feel my chest constricting and it felt hard to breathe. Vic seemed to notice too because his eyebrows pulled together even more and his eyes went cold. Looking down at his food he pushed it away before leaving the restaurant.

“Don’t worry about him. He’ll be okay after a few minutes. Just a few unpleasant memories.” Mike told me.

My chest hurt. My heart hurts. I swallowed all the tears down that was threatening to rise up and I looked down at my hands.

I guess I’m still the girl who murdered his best friend.

Notes

Gah I don't know anymore numbers in spanish lol. Here you guys go!

Song: Bite My Tongue by You Me At Six
Quote: "I bite my tongue so you don't hear me, I wanna hate every part of you in me."
xx (: