Vic’s P.O.V.

She fucking knows. I knew she did. I knew she’d figure it out. I had no idea she’d be a fucking fan though. She’s just gonna be another person to use me for who I am. I don’t even wanna be here anymore. The walls are dedicated to bands, from Bring Me The Horizon to Pierce The Veil. This is just awesome. I should have just told her. She’s gonna be pissed. She keeps saying how she isn’t interested in me because of who I am but for who I really am behind all the band stuff. I want to believe her. I really do but that’s what everyone says. I just wanna know about her. I figure, if she tell me about herself, deep stuff, then she’s into me for the band life not for me. Most people who just straight up say deep things about themselves are only interested in me because I’m Vic Fuentes.

“Um…I don’t know. I don’t just open up to people, I just met you.” She smirks a little bit.

“So you’re not gonna tell me?”

“Nope. You’re gonna have to earn that, just like everyone else.” She smiles. I walk over and give her a hug. Just then, footsteps come stomping up the stairs and I feel someone tug at my back.

“Get away from her.” Konnor says. Kaylee rolls her eyes and tells him to leave. What’s the deal with him? I’ve never done anything to him and he just hates me. “Make him go or I’ll tell him everything about you. Everything.” Konnor says to Kaylee. If I wasn’t curious to know more about her, I certainly am now.

“You do it, and I’ll kill you.” Kaylee says getting in his face.

“You won’t do it. I know you. You’re too nice. So Vic.” He says in a way of confidence and hatred. “She tell you about Sammy?”

“Out.” Kaylee grabs him by the collar of his shirt and drags him out the room. Who the hell is Sammy? She’s fucking playing me. I knew this was too good to be true. I follow behind them and leave. I don’t even wanna talk to her. I just want to get the hell away. She follows behind me and tells me to stay with watery eyes but I ignore her and go back to the hotel. When I get back, the guys are all there.

“You’re back earlier than I expected.” Mike says. I just ignore his comment and sit on the couch.

“What’s wrong?” All the guys walk over and crowd me. I know it’s obvious that I’m pissed off.

“She has another guy in her life. She knows who I am. She’s just like the rest of them. So fuck it.”

“What!” Jaime yells. “The way you talked about her, it seemed like she was actually into you.”

“Guess not.” I say as my phone goes off. It’s her. I hit ignore and stick my phone back in my pocket. The guys wanna go back to club we were at last night and convince me that getting out will distract me. I don’t know though. I think I’m more upset than pissed by now. I actually liked her…a lot. I can’t stop thinking about her. We get to club and the guys are making jokes as usual. I just put on a fake smile and look at the seat she was sitting in last night. Almost hoping she’d be there in her vans and t-shirt. She wasn’t though. It was a blonde with a short skirt on flirting with the bar tender. I need to stop this. She’s not worth it. I’ve gotten this far without her and I barely even know her. “I need to get some air.” I tell the guys as I get up from my seat and start to walk around back where me and Kaylee had our first conversation. Maybe if I just walk a little, I’ll be okay…maybe.

Kaylee’s P.O.V.

“I hate you! I hope you’re fucking happy! You have to screw everything up whenever I’m happy. When I was out with him today, nothing else mattered! But you obviously don’t care. And you know better than to bring Sammy up. You know better.” I’m completely bawling my eyes out at this point. It’s not really because of Vic but because of Sammy. It’s a touchy subject and I hate when people bring his name up. Especially when they call him Sammy. I was the only one allowed to call him that. I try to call Vic at least three times but he ignores all three. I finally just text him but he didn’t answer. I’m not surprised. He probably thinks that Sammy is my boyfriend or something and that I’m using him. It’s all Konnor’s fault. I run up the stairs and lay on my stomach on my bed and cry. Kelsie walks in hours later. She knows something is wrong just by looking at me.

“What happened? Did he hurt you?! I swear if he-“

“No…fucking Konnor.” I cut her off. “He broght Sammy up while Vic was here…Vic won’t even talk to me now. I told him I knew who he was and there was Konnor screwing things up again. And yes I’ve called and texted him and he still won’t talk to me.” Kelsie walks over and gives me a big hug.

“It’s gonna be okay. Konnor’s being an asshole. No he’s being a dick. He knows better than that. Just try and call him one more time okay? Tell him. If you really wanna try with him, you’re gonna have to tell him. Use my phone” She hands me her phone and I dial Vic’s number. He answers shockingly.

“Don’t hang up please.” I say.

“Kaylee?” He asks.

“Yeah…just hear me out okay? It’s not what you think. I promise.” My hands are shaking in fear of him hanging up on me.

“What is it then?” He’s still pissed and doesn’t sound like he cares.

“Meet me somewhere and I’ll tell you. It’s not something to talk about over the phone.”

“Fine. I’m at the club, outside where we talked last night.” He hung up. Guess I’ll be going there to talk about this. I don’t even want to. It’s my personal business and I don’t ever want to talk about it. Ever.

“I’ll be back okay? I’m gonna go meet him.” I tell Kelsie and walk out of the house. It’s not long before I reach the club and see Vic standing outside with his arms crossed.

“Hi..” I say walking up to him. He doesn’t say anything. He just gives me a dirty look and looks away. “Are you going to listen to what I have to say or are you going to disregard it and believe what you want?”

“Just say what you want to say.” I take a deep breath and start to talk.

“Sammy…he’s not just this guy. Samuel Scott Bloomquist died on Novemeber 9th of two years ago.” He just looks at me with a confused look after I finish. It’s a different look than he’s given me before though. “Suicide.” I say trying to hold back the tears. Vic looks back up at me with sympathetic eyes.

Vic’s P.O.V.

“What..?” I ask. I had no idea. I feel like a complete ass now. I don’t even know what to say to her.

“Sammy was my best friend. We got eachother better than our own siblings ever did. He was twin that bitch of a waitress at the diner. That’s why she hates me. I knew him ever since we were born basically. Our parents were best friends. I had the biggest crush on him since basically ever. Actually, I loved him. I know I did. I never told him though because…well he was my best friend. We were both getting bullied a lot. People managed to shove us in lockers, they’d beat us up daily, they’d say we should just drop dead and that nobody would miss us. People in school sucked. Our home lives weren’t much better. My mom died when I was twelve and my dad blamed me for her death. Let’s just say he got kind of physical when he was mad. Sammy’s mom ignored him and his dad beat the shit out of him at least three days a week. It was bad okay? One day-“ Her sentence starts to break off as tears start to come down her cheeks but she takes another deep breath and continues. “One day, it got really bad. Worse than it ever was before. We were both done with the world and the people and just life. We didn’t want to be here anymore. But, we knew we couldn’t just do that. Not then. We knew we couldn’t just leave the world. I couldn’t leave Kelsie and he couldn’t leave me. We promised each other that no matter how bad things got, we would call each other and pull through. We weren’t gonna leave. We couldn’t live without each other. That was just me and Sammy. It was suppose to be me and him forever. Best friends or lovers, whatever the hell we were going to be. That’s not how it turned out though. I walked into school a few weeks later. I had first hour with him and he wasn’t in that seat next to me. He didn’t not come to school without telling me. If one us wasn’t going to be there, we’d text each other. As I said, we weren’t going alone. I knew something was wrong and sure enough, I got called down to the office half way throug first hour. His parents were standing there with my uncle. His mom was crying and his dad had a weird look on his face. I stood at the door and knew what they were going to say. They started to tell me but I didn’t hear anything. I was too in shock. Just like that. He was gone.” She started crying again and I didn’t know what to do. I start to walk towards her to give her a hug but she pushed me away and moved back. I had no idea. I don’t know how she got through it honestly. Just by the way she’s talking, it’s obvious how hurt she was..still is, but she continued anyway. “Two days later, I got a letter in the mail. It was from Sammy.” She pulls a piece of paper out of her back pocket. “It was his suicide note. He planned it. He told me everything. You can read it.” She hands me the note and I read it. It said how crazy he was about her and how he’s sorry he had to leave her but it was his time and that he hopes she’ll understand one day. He told her to find someone that treats her right and to live her life and stuff. He was crying when he wrote this. There were still tear stains on the paper. I’ve never read something so depressing in my life. Kaylee was a complete mess right now. I handed her back the note and she stuck it back in her pocket. “I carry it everywhere with me. It’s almost like he’s still here with me.” I can barely understand her from all the sobbing. I walk up to her and pull her into my chest. She tries to squirm away but I’m stronger and won’t let go. She gives up after a few seconds and just cries into my chest. The guys come out back and just stand there watching. Jaime comes up to us and asks if everything’s okay.

“Yeah, everything’s fine.” Kaylee says while picking her head up and gets away from my grasp. She starts to walk away with tears still streaming down her face. I run behind her and grab her wrist.

“Don’t go.” I say as I turn her around to face me. “I’m sorry.”

“I don’t want sympathy.” She tries to get away again but I’m not letting her go.

“I don’t want you to go, not because of sympathy, but just because I don’t want you to.” She just stares into my eyes as I talk to her. There’s so much pain in her eyes and I just want it to all go away. I’d do anything to see that bright smile again. I try to say something but she cuts me off.

“I don’t wanna talk about him anymore okay?” She can’t look at me while she says it. Her lip is quivering trying to hold back more tears.

“Okay.” I smile a little at her and lift her chin up so I can see her face. She can’t help but give me a slight smile back. I wipe the tears away from her eyes and just hold her for awhile. Her sobbing starts to slow down and she’s beginning to be a little calmer.

“I’ll be right back okay?” I say as I pull her away from me just enough to look at her face.

“Okay.” She says as quiet as a mouse. I run over to guys and ask if they’re okay if Kaylee comes back with us. Last thing I want her doing is sitting at home with Konnor. I don’t tell them what she said or anything but they can tell how serious I am and agree to let her stay. Mike starts to over to Kaylee before I start to walk back to her. Mike tugs on her shoulder and pulls her into a hug. He says something to her but I can’t tell what it is. He brings Kaylee over and introduces her to everyone. We take her back to the hotel without telling her anything. I drive her car there so she won’t have to drive with all this on her mind.

“What are we doing here?” She asks as I pull into the hotel parking lot.

“You’re gonna stay here okay? I don’t want you to go back with Konnor there tonight. You don’t need that.” She smiles a little after I finish. I take her up to our room on the top floor. She’s been yawning the whole way back so I know she’s tired. It’s understandable from the day she’s been through today.

“Do you have something I can wear to sleep? I’m tired.” She asks giving me a hug. The hug was out of nowhere but I embrace it.

“Of course.” I go into my bag and grab her a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt. She walks to the bathroom and chances real quick. I didn’t realize how short she was compared to me until I saw her basically swimming in my sweatpants. It’s actually really adorable. She crawls into my bed and I follow her lead.

“Is it okay if I sleep next to you?” I ask with a huge smile knowing how ridiculous I look.

“Of course.” She smiles wide for the first time since this afternoon. She lays her on my shoulder and is gone within seconds. I can’t help but watch her sleep for awhile. She looks so peaceful and perfect. I don’t remember falling asleep. I just wake up to Kaylee still sound asleep on my chest.

“Good morning.” I kiss the top of her head waking her up.

“Good morning.” She smiles.

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