I Am Not Alright, and I Would Rather
Please Take Me Anywhere But Here
~*POV Mike*~
After the ceremony the wedding party was ushered to a nearby beach to take pictures. Some cute, some romantic, some funny, we spent a good 2 hours taking pictures and messing around. Vic and Jaime had hired Adam Elmakias to take the pictures, so we knew they'd be good. My favorites included one of Vic and Jaime standing back to back, their fingers positioned to imitate guns, standing behind all of us groomsmen, who were collapsed in the sand and one of Jaime throwing Vic into the ocean.
There was also one of me, Vic and Jaime, I really liked that one. I chose to post it on instagram with the caption 'Congrats to my big bro @PiercetheVic and @JaimePTV on their wedding day. Cutest couple ever!' I had about 1,000 instagram followers, some of them were friends, but most had come from my Whiskeyhandz website...
The entire time we were taking pictures Tony ignored me. I can't really blame him though, he's mad at me, I understand. But, I kind of hoped that we could have started over again and possibly have been friends. But he's mad at me, and as much as it bugs me, I understand why.
I sighed lightly as we walked back to the hotel for the reception, it was early evening now and the sun was starting to set. It was pretty, reflecting over the water of the beach. It made me realize how much I missed the west coast, how much I missed San Diego.
"Pretty isn't it?" I heard someone ask from beside me.
I looked and saw that Austin was walking beside me. I wonder how long he'd been there...
"Oh hey Austin," I said, smiling at him, "Yeah, it's really pretty. I missed this..."
He nodded, "So, where have you been living all this time?" he asked, "You never told me at the airport..."
"I guess I didn't," I chuckled slightly, "I lived in northern Maine," I responded with a sigh.
He grimaced before saying anything, "Damn, you really wanted a change, eh?" I nodded. "Must be cold there..."
"Oh it is," I replied, trying not to let the annoyance I feel towards my current 'home' be heard in my voice, "I haven't seen the sun for real in years..."
He frowned, "That sucks, do you atleast like it there?"
I sighed and bit my lip, "I hate it. It's so cold and dreary. Not just the weather, the people are cold and dreary too..."
"Yuck," he responded, "Why do you still live there?"
"I'm too much of a pussy to move back to the place I want to live," I said quietly. l looked down at my feet, suddenly feeling awkward.
"Move back?" he questioned, with a confused look. Then he got it, "You want to come back to San Diego."
I bit my lip and nodded sheepishly. It's true, Maine's never felt like home to me and it never will. My home is on the sunny west coast, more specifically in SD, the place I grew up.
"Then do it!" he squealed, "You have no reason not to! Not after coming now!"
I sighed, "It's not that easy Aus. I don't have the money to move across the country again! I annihilated my bank account the first time! I live from paycheck to paycheck..."
Austin's face fell, "I guess you're right," he said, "Maybe you could save some money up?" he asked. He looked so hopeful, like he wanted me back just as much as my family probably would.
I gave him a small smile, "We'll see Austin, no promises."
"Mikeys moving back to Cali!" he squealed, prapractically jumping up and down.
"Austin shut up!" I exclaimed, "I don't know for sure what I'm doing yet! Don't tell the whole world!"
He just laughed, "Sorry bro, I'm just excited for you. The guys haven't been the same since you left..."
I shrugged, "I guess I haven't been the same either..."
"I still don't think Tony's completely over you..." he said, I could tell by his tone he was deep in thought.
I bit my lip and sighed. I don't know how I feel about that. I don't know how I should feel about that.
"Maybe you guys'll get back together," he mused.
"Austin, that won't happen," I said bluntly, "I don't believe in love anymore."
After the ceremony the wedding party was ushered to a nearby beach to take pictures. Some cute, some romantic, some funny, we spent a good 2 hours taking pictures and messing around. Vic and Jaime had hired Adam Elmakias to take the pictures, so we knew they'd be good. My favorites included one of Vic and Jaime standing back to back, their fingers positioned to imitate guns, standing behind all of us groomsmen, who were collapsed in the sand and one of Jaime throwing Vic into the ocean.
There was also one of me, Vic and Jaime, I really liked that one. I chose to post it on instagram with the caption 'Congrats to my big bro @PiercetheVic and @JaimePTV on their wedding day. Cutest couple ever!' I had about 1,000 instagram followers, some of them were friends, but most had come from my Whiskeyhandz website...
The entire time we were taking pictures Tony ignored me. I can't really blame him though, he's mad at me, I understand. But, I kind of hoped that we could have started over again and possibly have been friends. But he's mad at me, and as much as it bugs me, I understand why.
I sighed lightly as we walked back to the hotel for the reception, it was early evening now and the sun was starting to set. It was pretty, reflecting over the water of the beach. It made me realize how much I missed the west coast, how much I missed San Diego.
"Pretty isn't it?" I heard someone ask from beside me.
I looked and saw that Austin was walking beside me. I wonder how long he'd been there...
"Oh hey Austin," I said, smiling at him, "Yeah, it's really pretty. I missed this..."
He nodded, "So, where have you been living all this time?" he asked, "You never told me at the airport..."
"I guess I didn't," I chuckled slightly, "I lived in northern Maine," I responded with a sigh.
He grimaced before saying anything, "Damn, you really wanted a change, eh?" I nodded. "Must be cold there..."
"Oh it is," I replied, trying not to let the annoyance I feel towards my current 'home' be heard in my voice, "I haven't seen the sun for real in years..."
He frowned, "That sucks, do you atleast like it there?"
I sighed and bit my lip, "I hate it. It's so cold and dreary. Not just the weather, the people are cold and dreary too..."
"Yuck," he responded, "Why do you still live there?"
"I'm too much of a pussy to move back to the place I want to live," I said quietly. l looked down at my feet, suddenly feeling awkward.
"Move back?" he questioned, with a confused look. Then he got it, "You want to come back to San Diego."
I bit my lip and nodded sheepishly. It's true, Maine's never felt like home to me and it never will. My home is on the sunny west coast, more specifically in SD, the place I grew up.
"Then do it!" he squealed, "You have no reason not to! Not after coming now!"
I sighed, "It's not that easy Aus. I don't have the money to move across the country again! I annihilated my bank account the first time! I live from paycheck to paycheck..."
Austin's face fell, "I guess you're right," he said, "Maybe you could save some money up?" he asked. He looked so hopeful, like he wanted me back just as much as my family probably would.
I gave him a small smile, "We'll see Austin, no promises."
"Mikeys moving back to Cali!" he squealed, prapractically jumping up and down.
"Austin shut up!" I exclaimed, "I don't know for sure what I'm doing yet! Don't tell the whole world!"
He just laughed, "Sorry bro, I'm just excited for you. The guys haven't been the same since you left..."
I shrugged, "I guess I haven't been the same either..."
"I still don't think Tony's completely over you..." he said, I could tell by his tone he was deep in thought.
I bit my lip and sighed. I don't know how I feel about that. I don't know how I should feel about that.
"Maybe you guys'll get back together," he mused.
"Austin, that won't happen," I said bluntly, "I don't believe in love anymore."
Notes
Just some short filler so I can post something today. ARGH I'm so stressed out today. I start school in a week and the day I can get my license is the day before I go back. And I have to be able to drive this year or I don't have a ride to school. So I only have one chance and HOLY GOD I CAN'T DO MANEUVERABILITY! D:Title Cred: Mayday Parade
I fucking loved this story you are a natural talent!!!! :)
2/18/14