We Celebrate the way the night hides scars

~A couple hours later~
Well, I’ve been in the fetal position crying and hyperventilating for a couple hours now, just since Jaime left. I have no idea what to do; I just want to feel numb right now. I don’t want to feel anything anymore; and I’m terrified for when Charlie and/or Aliyah get home and ask me what’s wrong. I have no idea how they’re going to react.
“Hey! You’re a crazy bitch, but you fuck so good I’m on top of it and I dream, I’m doin you all night scratches all down my back to keep me right on! Hey! You’re a crazy bitch, but you fuck so good I’m on top of it and I dream, I’m doin you all night scratches all down my back to keep me right on!”
My phone started going off, knowing that it was Aliyah I didn’t want to answer it. If I did, within seconds she would know something was wrong. Even if I had enough fake happiness to fool everyone else, she would immediately know what’s wrong.
Once my phone stopped ringing I felt relieved; that was until it started playing crazy bitch again, “Fuck! She knows! God dammit!” I groaned, Jaime must have called someone or something. Cause Aliyah never calls twice or more in a row unless I’m sad or something has happened to me. “Sebring! Bring me my phone!” I rolled off the couch and started inch worming my way to my room, only to be greeted by Sebring with my phone in her mouth; I gave her a weak smile and took it. I gave her a pat on the head and answered my phone, being as perky as I could be, “Hello?”
“Emily, I know you’ve been crying. What happened?” Aliyah sounded worried
“Nothing. I’m fine.”
“No you’re not, Jaime called me crying. I didn’t understand much, all that I understood was ‘Emily’, ‘please help’ and ‘don’t know what to do’. I’m on my way home right now; I’m about 2 hours away. I called mike and he’s on his way over right now to check on you.” just as she said mikes name, something sparked inside me. Why, though? I can’t tell what it was, I just feel like I need him. It’s like I feel as if he’ll help me get over this, he’ll help me feel numb.
“Emily, answer me!”
I snapped back to the conversation, “Aliyah, I’m fine. You don’t have to come home.”
“Are you sure? I mean, I can somehow find an easier or faster way back home. I can just cancel my last couple interviews of the day, it’s no big deal.”
I heard a knock on the door; I knew it was most likely Mike. “Aliyah, I’m fine. Mike just got here, you can go to your interviews.”
“Okay, just call me if you need anything.”
“Okay I will! Bye Aly!” I hung up and tossed my phone on the couch while getting up. I walked over to the door and opened it.
“Hey. Aliyah told me to come over and I didn’t want to just walk in.” Mike stood in my doorway looking down. I didn’t answer him; I just stared. After a few second I turned around and walked to the couch and plopped; Mike shut the door and followed doing the same thing and sat right next me, thighs touching. “Are you okay?” he gave me a worried look and I returned with a sigh, “Yeah, I’m fine.”
“Are you sure? Cause according to Aliyah you were crying really hard and last time I checked, Emily Vogel doesn’t cry that hard just ‘cause she can.”
“Jaime and I broke up.” I looked forward, expressionless. My voice was even monotone. Mike gave me a shocked look that I could see out of the corner of my eye. “It’s no big deal, mike. I mean it was coming sooner or later. So I guess it was a good thing that it was sooner.” Mike looked down in his lap and a silence fell over us.
I sat and stared at him, just admiring everything about him. The adorable scruff that he had because he hasn’t shaved in a few days, the little indent on his bottom lip from the lip ring that he had swallowed while playing a show, the amazing way that he can pull off beanies, the perfect shade of brown his eyes were; just everything. God, why was he so attractive right now?
My head was pounding from how hard I had been crying and the silence along with the ringing in my ears was making it worse. “My brain is going taptap on my head.”
Mike laughed from beside me, “I’m sorry. I wish there was something I could do.”
I thought for a minute at what I could say, and then my thoughts that I wanted to keep to myself ran out of my mouth, “Ya know, they say the best cure for a headache is an orgasm.” Mike and I made eye contact, as we did you could tell he felt confusion.
But I felt wanting; no, I didn’t want him; I needed him. Without any more hesitation I leaned in and pressed my lips to his. Mike put his hand on the back of my neck and deepened it.
We broke a part just long enough so I could pull his top off over his head while he tugged on the hem of my tank top and pulled it up over my shoulders. We rejoined our lips and then I followed by undoing my shorts and sliding them off of my legs. Mike pulled back so that he could gaze at my body for a moment.
“Fuck, you’re so hot.” He growled before kissing me again. My arms wrapped around his neck and hands tangled in his hair while his hands glided over my body and then pulled my legs up so that they were wrapped around his waist. He walked us into my room and shut the door with his foot; just as it closed, He turned and slammed me into the wall and scratched down my sides, causing me to moan into his mouth. I let my legs fall before I knew it; he’s got both of my hands in his viselike grip above my head,
With his free hand he unclasped my bra and threw it off to the side. He brought his hand back up and dug his fingers into my hair and yanked down, bringing my face up. He found the sweet spot on my neck, biting and sucking on it. After a few seconds he crashed his lips onto mine. My tongue hesitantly stroked his and joined it in a battle for dominance; His erection pressed against my belly.
Without warning Mike picked me up and threw me on the bed and quickly stripped his own pants.
“You’re so deliciously wet. God, I want you.”
He climbed onto the bed and pulled off my underwear, and quickly placed his fingers near my entrance. He inserted one, and then another and began to move them in and out of me, his thumb circling around my clit. His lips pressed against mine once again and my back arched from the pleasure. My hand went down into his boxers and to his dick and began to slide up and down him. We were soon both moaning in pleasure. “I’m going to fuck you now, harder than ever.”
He leaned down and kissed me, his fingers still moving steadily inside me, his thumb circling and pressing. His tongue mirrored the actions of his fingers, demanding me. My legs began to stiffen as I pushed against his hand. He softened his hand, so I was brought back from the edge. I cum instantly again and again, coming apart under him, then I’m building again I climax once again, screaming his name.
His fingers touched my clit, tickling it. A rush of warmth spread through my veins at the softness of his touch.
He pulled his fingers out and sucked on them slightly, “You taste so good, Emily.” He said with a wink. My hand moved back up to his hair as he tore off his boxers and lined himself up with my entrance, thrusting inside me without warning. “Fuck, you’re so tight. You feel so fucking good.” He mumbled against my lips causing me to smile.
“Mike!” I shouted. His hips were moving hard and fast, I took my hands from his hair and started clawing at his back from the immense pleasure. I felt myself tense up beneath him.
“Cum, for me.” He moaned, and I did just that. I moaned his name and kissed him hard, my body quivering under him. Mike wasn’t there yet, so he carried on thrusting into me. Because I hadn’t recovered from my previous orgasms, I felt myself reach that point again very quickly. I felt that he was close also. “Fuck, Emily!” He groaned into my neck as he came inside me. We rode out both of our orgasms and he kissed me, hard.
Mike collapsed on the bed next to me, “So, does your head hurt anymore?”
I laughed and laid my head on his chest, “After that many orgasms? I don’t think it does.”
The crying for hours and the amazing sex really took its toll on me; so it wasn’t very long until I drifted into a deep sleep.
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I woke up to the smell of pancakes, “God I love pancakes in the morning.” I smiled and stretched; I turned to my side just to be face to face with a sleeping Mike, “shit!” I whispered. I had completely forgotten about last night, and now Charlie and Aliyah were home. Mike’s eyes fluttered open and looked into mine, “Good morning gorgeous.” I couldn’t help but smile, “good morning.”
“Sleep well?” he smiled
“Like a baby. Well, okay. Not like a baby. I slept like a girl that was exhausted from crying and amazing sex; you?”
“Same. Well minus the being a girl and crying part.” We both laughed but I quickly put my hand over his mouth and whisper yelled, “Wait! We have to be quiet. No one can know that you’re here.”
He gave me a confused look, my hand still covering his mouth, “if I take my hand off of your mouth you have to promise me you’ll be quiet.”
He nodded so I removed my hand. “So why can’t anyone know I’m here?”
“Because, do you know how horrible of a person I would be if they knew I had sex with you not even a day after I broke up with Jaime?”
He shook his head, “Nope. I don’t know. How horrible would you be?”
“Very! I would be horribly horrible! Like I would be condemned to hell; horrible.”
“Oh! Okay!” he laughed and I heard my door opening and Tony came walking in while looking down at a plate of pancakes. “So I hope you like chocolate chip.” I panicked so I shoved mike off the side of the bed and I think he rolled under it? At least I hope he did. “What was that thud?” Tony looked up at me, I pulled the blanket up so I was covered, “Oh, just a book I was reading last night. What’s up?”
“Just bringing you some breakfast in bed. Charlie and Aliyah went to the mall to get something for you, and don’t ask me what cause I begged them not to tell Me.” he came to the bedside and sat down, he handed the food to me, but I couldn’t take it. Not unless I wanted to drop the blanket and show my best friends’ boyfriend my boobs. “Umm. Tony, I can’t really grab that from you.” I laughed
“What? Why?” it took him a minute but he finally processed, “Wait! Why are you naked? I thought I was the only one who slept like that.”
“Well, I usually don’t. But I got myself pretty drunk last night.”
“Ohh! Okay. So you didn’t like, have sex with someone or something? Okay. Well I’ll just leave this on your bed and leave so you can get dressed.” He smiled and walked out of my room, shutting the door behind him. It wasn’t even 15 seconds before Mike hopped up on the bed, “mmm! Chocolate chip! Can I have?” he gave me a puppy dog look, “fine. I have to get dressed and shower anyways.” I swung my legs over the side of the bed and went to stand up. Just as I took one step, I felt as if I got punched in the va-j-j like a millions times “Fuck mike! I can’t even walk now. God dammit.” I whisper yelled and watched as Mike looked up at me and gave me a cheesy grin, “Then I guess I deserve a sandwich.”
“The only thing you deserve is a gold star. I ain’t makin you no damn sandwich.” I forced myself to walk to my dresser; maybe I can just walk it off. I grabbed some clothes and walked over to my bedroom door to lock it, I didn’t want anyone to walk in on Mike. I quickly walked into the bathroom, leaving the door open and turning on my music. I turned on the hot water and quickly jumped in and started washing and shaving everything once again. After about ten minutes I heard Mike come into the bathroom, before I knew it, he had joined me in the shower. “Mike! What are you doing?” I turned to face him while laughing, “What? Am I not allowed to shower here either?”
“You are, just not with me!” I playfully punched his arm; he grabbed it and shrieked. I quickly covered his mouth to silence him; just incase. After a few seconds he bit my finger so tore my hand away and yelped, “What was that for?”
“You’ve been putting your hand on my mouth a lot today and I don’t like it.” He chuckled and put his hands on my hips, bringing me closer to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and we stood in the shower, just staring at each other.
“Hey Em, can I borrow your straightener?” Aliyah’s voice echoed in my bathroom. Mike and I both gave each other worried looks, “um, yeah. That’s fine. How did you get in here? I thought I locked my door.” I answered trying to act as normal as I could.
“ Your lock is broken, remember? And thanks, sweet cheeks.” She paused, “So what happened to Mike last night? Vic said he hasn’t been home all night.”
Mike started to laugh a little so I put my finger to his lips to silence him, “I don’t know. He was only here for like, ten minutes and left.”
“Oh. Then why is his shirt in the living room?”
“Oh! I accidentally spilt some mountain dew on him so I let him borrow my bon jovi shirt.”
“Uh, huh. Emily, you don’t have to lie to me.”
‘What would I be lying about exactly?” I huffed
I heard Aliyah set my straightener on the counter and the next second she tore open the shower curtain scaring the shit outta me; Mike also, he was completely mortified. “Hey Mike. How’s it goin? Do you normally sleep with your best friends’ ex-girlfriends right after they break up?” she stopped and turned her gaze to me, “Really, Emily? Really? Mike of all people; Are you kidding me?”
I rolled my eyes, turning off the water and stepping past her. I grabbed my towel and wrapped it around myself; normally I would be really self –conscious about my body, but I was never like that with Aliyah. Since we’ve been friends for so long, we really wouldn’t give a rat’s ass if the other never wanted to wear clothes ever again. Mike still stood in place, most likely frozen in the spot.
Aliyah turned to face me and awaited my answer. I was brushing through my hair when I could literally feel her eyes burning a hole in the back of my head, “It doesn’t matter Aliyah! I was devastated and I wasn’t thinking right. It’s not like it’s going to happen again.” I heard Mike sigh, “I’m sorry Mike, but it can’t. Not if I want to be on good terms with Jaime again.” just as I finished saying that Mike got furious, he went to my room and put his clothes on; well the ones that were in there already. After he did that he tore open my bedroom door and charged out, I followed right behind him, “Mike, come back! Are you seriously going to be acting like this right now?” he stopped in the middle of the living room where just about everyone was. Ya know, by everyone I mean, Vic, Tony, Charlie, Aliyah (because she followed us out), And of course, Angelise. Yippee…
He whipped around so he was facing me, “Yeah, Emily I seriously am doing this. Cause ya know what, I finally thought that I was going to get the girl of my dreams, but it turns out she was just using me.” He turned his back on me and started walking towards the door, “You just had the most amazing A+ sex of your life and you’re seriously acting this way? I can’t fucking hardly walk because of you and you’re being a dick! Fuck you mike and the whore you rode in on!”
“Actually for one, it was like C+ sex for me and two, you are the whore I rode in on, Emily. Just sayin.” Mike smiled and walked out the door. So there I was, standing in the middle of the living room with nothing on but a towel, everyone was now staring at me and now knew that Mike and I had sex last night. Great.
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“So… you and Mike, huh?” Vic broke finally broke the long awkward silence. It’s been silent since everyone else left; they left just after Mike did. God, I can’t imagine what Angelise is thinking about me right now.
“It only happened once, Vic. It doesn’t mean anything.” I was sitting on the couch legs crossed in a long sleeve shirt, sweats and a hoodie with long socks. I just really didn’t feel comfortable showing skin right now. I kinda feel like everyone just thinks I’m a whore after what they saw today.
“Okay. Well… do you want to talk about it?” he came and sat down by me, not really close, but not very far either.
“What am I going to say, Vic?”
“I don’t know, why you did it, I guess?”
“ ‘Oh, hey. I had sex with your brother because I just broke up with your best friend for not telling me about his ex and I was just really sad so I didn’t know what else to do.’ is that what you want me to say?”
“Emily, it’s not as big of a deal as you’re thinking it is. You’re not a horrible person because it happened to go that way; at least I don’t think you are. And I’m sure Charlie and Aliyah don’t think that you are either.”
Ya know how I thought that mike would help me feel numb? Well, he did. I don’t feel a single thing right now; I am utterly and completely numb, all the way to my core.
I sighed and looked at Vic, “Normally with any of my relationships I would go in the other room and calm down so then I could come back and we’d talk about it. But I was just so upset about Jessica and how Jaime never told me about her that I just closed myself off to him completely. I didn’t even want to talk about it with him I just wanted it to be done and over with.”
“I could see why you were upset because he didn’t tell you, but what made you so upset that you had to breakup with him?”
I unfolded my arms and turned my body so I could face him, “I’m not completely sure, that’s the thing… oh yeah! It was the part when he said he was still in love with her; that was it.”
Vic had an ‘oh…’ look on his face and took a minute before answering, “Yeah, that would make me pretty upset too. But can I tell you something?” I nodded, so Vic turned to mirror me and continued, “I can’t actually remember a single day that Jaime didn’t mention your name. Like if Jessica would do something like you, he would tell us about it and how much he missed it. Everyday he would compare her to you; and to be completely honest, I think that’s why he was so in love with her; she was so much like you. He didn’t fall heels over head in love with her, he fell heels over head for you. See, he doesn’t realize that it happened like that, but I did. That’s why I lied to him for you, because I knew that you two were destined to be together. I didn’t want you two to split because I knew that both of you would be so devastated and would do something horrible that you would regret.”
I looked down into my lap and started picking at my hands; taking in everything that Vic just said. Vic put a finger under my chin and brought my head up so he could look me in the eyes, “I think that you should go over to his house and take him back. You don’t have to tell him about Mike, right now. Just go over there and get him back.” I went to protest but Vic shushed me, “Don’t think, and just go.”
I smiled and got up, slipping on my toms and grabbing my keys and phone before running out the door. I ran down the stairs and to my jeep, hopping in. Once I was situated I drove to Jaime’s house in record time. Once I got there I quickly put the car in park, turned it off and ran to the door. What do I do now? Do I just walk in; do I knock? What? Since I couldn’t make up my mind, I eenie-meenie-minee-mo’d it and knocking won. So I took every ounce of courage I could muster up and knocked on the door; it was now about 2-3pm so Jaime should be up.
After a few minutes no one answered so I knocked again, just to hear someone walking towards the door. I looked down and started taking deep breaths to keep myself calm while trying to think of what to say. I heard the door open and when I looked up, it wasn’t Jaime.
“Can I help you?” a girl I didn’t know stood in front of me, she was a little shorter with short black hair; And nothing but one of Jaime’s shirts on. The one that I had worn when I spent the night, to be exact…
“Jessica, who is it?” Jaime came walking out of the kitchen and into my view; apparently I was in his as well. His jaw dropped when we made eye contact, “I don’t know.” Jessica switched her gaze to me, “What’s your name?” Jaime walked over to the door, “I can take it from here Jess.” She nodded and left into the living room. I kept my eyes on her; the cat had definitely gotten my tongue.
“It’s not what it looks like, Em.” Jaime stepped down onto the porch and shut the door. Once the door latched I snapped out of my little trance and looked at him, “What do you mean it isn’t what it looks like? If it isn’t what it looks like then why is she wearing nothing but your shirt?” Jaime sighed and looked down, “Okay, it is what it looks like. But I didn’t mean for it to happen. I was just so upset that I didn’t know who to call. I mean, I called Aliyah but all she said was that she’d call you. I had no one to talk to or anything. I called Vic but he was at his parents and couldn’t leave, I called Tony but he was with Charlie; and I wanted to call Mike, but I knew that he wouldn’t want to help me he would just want to get to you. So I called the last person I could think of; she was in town and wasn’t doing anything so I just took a chance. Believe me, Emily; I wouldn’t have called her if I knew it would happen.”
I stood in silence for a moment, thinking about everything he just told me. I was just so angered that he called her, I mean I really have no room to talk I mean look at what I did with Mike. Just the thought of him being with her sent me over the edge. I looked Jaime in the eyes, I couldn’t see that he regretted it; hell I really don’t think that he regretted it at all. “I guess we’re even now Jaime.”
Jaime gave me a questioning look, “How are we even?”
“I had sex with Mike last night. There ya go. Now you know, I felt so horrible about it I came here to get it off my chest and to tell you how sorry I am.”
“Why?”
“Because I just wanted to feel numb. Aliyah called him and asked him to check on me because she was at least two ours from being able to come home and Mike was just 5 minutes away. I thought that he could help me feel numb, just for a moment; and he did.”
“No I meant why did you come to tell me?”
“I loved you Jaime, with everything I had and more; you were really the only man in my life that I fully trusted from the beginning. But I guess that doesn’t matter anymore, huh?”
“Emily, I-”
“Well congratulations; you got the girl that you were so in love with. I hope you have fun with her.” I nodded and turned to go to my car; half hoping that Jaime would stop me. I got to my car with no interruptions from him and got in, turning on the engine and peeling out of there.
I drove for hours, I had no idea where I was going; but I was getting there fast. I swerved through cars and drove very stupidly, not paying attention to anything. I got to an intersection and I had just enough time to make the yellow light so I sped up; just as my back tires passed the white line I thought that I was safe. That was until I heard a horn felt the crunching metal against my body.

Notes

Yay! new chapter! (: i had to pick my sister up from my parents friends house and i decided to steal their internet and give you guys an update. i'm sorry for the people that i have upset for the Emily/Mike thing and for those of you that are happy about it, you're welcome. one person that is going to be upset when she reads this is Taylor. haha (i'm sorry for when your reading this and you're probably now bald from pulling your hair out.)
Hey, I'm ahead 3 chapters! right now i'm in the middle of writing chapter 27, I've got 8 pages so far. and now, the weeks that i get back from my Christmas break i'm switching schools and i'm terrified. I've never been the new kid in my entire life, and the school that i'm going to is called blue peak high (It's known as the bad kid school because all of the kids that just got out or about to go into juvenile hall.) long story short, one of the main reasons of why i'm scared is because i put most of those kids there. (Ex: A cop that later gets arrested and has to go to jail with all of the people he has put there, if that makes sense. haha) so hopefully now that i'm ahead, switching schools wont really be a problem, but if it is i am terribly sorry for the inconvenience. :/ i hope you still love me though, cause i love you. (: i hope you have a great day, you guys!
<3/Emilio
P.S. the next few chapters are going to be super dramatic! (:
P.S.S. i made another account (Name: turtle-wars-babe) so i can update while at school. my original account i have t log in through tumblr, and my school blocks it. so now i made a new account so now i can update more. (: