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We Celebrate the way the night hides scars

Jaime?

It’s been a couple days since the incident; Jaime and I haven’t even talked… not once. I mean, okay we kind of did; we ran into each other at target and we just kinda gave fake smiles and left. I take full responsibility of the lack of talking because hey, I have to be a drama queen and not answer the phone when he calls. I’ve been planning on calling him back all day, now. I’ve literally been sitting on my bed in my pajamas staring at my phone since I woke up and it’s now about 6pm.
“Okay, just call him. It can’t be that hard, just pick up the phone and press call. See, easy as that.” I took a breath and reached for the phone and pressed call, not giving myself time to back out. It rang twice and went straight to voice mail, “Hey! You’ve reached Jaime, I would normally say that I’m with my boys or Emily, but sadly I’m probably sitting in my room alone right now. So yeah, leave your name and a brief message and I’ll get back to you when I’m sober. Thanks.” Jaime slurred a little bit, so he was most likely drunk when he recorded that. I quickly hung up and threw my phone on the bed, “Okay. Now he’s just ignoring me. The first time, of all day that I get enough guts to call him, he doesn’t answer. What the hell is up with that?”
Yeah, I tend to talk to myself when I’m upset about something. “Well, since he’s not answering my calls, I’ll just check if he’s been on twitter.” I pulled up twitter on my phone and went to his profile, “Nope. He hasn’t. Nada. Zip. Zilch. Nix. Diddly-squat. Jack shit. Cipher. Non-existent.” I dropped my hand into my lap and thought to myself,
“Well, since I have nothing else to do, lets look at Jaime’s tag!”
I pulled up the tag and went through some. “@ptvjaime why did you break up with @jessicarose? She was so perfect!”
“@ptvjaime so I heard you’ve been seeing some other girl, is that true?”
“@ptvjaime oh my god you are so adorable! Will you please have my babies!?!?!?!?!?!”
“I am so glad that I have @piercetheveil to help me get through stuff, especially @ptvjaime’s adorable face!”
They were all fangirl stuff and then one from this Jessica chick caught my eye…
@Jessicarose: okay, guys. @ptvjaime and I are over! We have been for a while! Stop sending me tweets about it, and I’ve seen what you tag him in, seriously stop! I get that you guys are sad, I mean I still am, but…
it was trailed off because it was a post from her tumblr, I clicked it so I could keep reading.
Okay, guys. @ptvjaime and I are over! We have been for a while! Stop sending me tweets and asks about it, and I’ve seen what you tag him in, seriously stop! I get that you guys are sad; I mean I still am, but you have to stop. I’m sure Jaime has moved on and that’s a good thing. I know many of you guys supported our relationship a lot and many of you are mad that we split, but it was all for good reasons. Many of them I am not at liberty to say, but I will say that it’s better for both of us this way. We weren’t that happy anymore and things became very hard between us. I do hope that we can stay friends given our history, but if it doesn’t work, then it doesn’t work. I thank you all for your support and nice messages, but for those that sent hate and just plain horrible messages, I do not appreciate them and I am so sorry that you feel the way you do. I hope that one day you come around, but if that day never comes, it’s okay. I still love you.”
After I read it aloud, I had no idea what to do. “When did Jaime date a girl named Jessica?”
“Oh he dated her for a long time, infact they just broke up like a month ago. They’ve known each other since high school, she was his date to the junior prom.” I looked up to see Tony in the doorway.
“When did you get here turtle?” I smiled getting up to hug him.
“Just now, Charlie said that she’d be getting off soon and to just meet her here.”
“Oh, so you didn’t see much. That’s good.”
“What more was there to see?” Tony gave me a devilish grin
“Oh ya know, just the occasional masturbation to relieve stress.” I gave him the most serious face I could until he whined, “What? And I missed it? What the hell!”
After he said that I broke down laughing, “I didn’t even do it! And what the hell? You’re dating Charlie; Tone! Plus why would I do that with the door open, ya crazy!” I laughed and walked back over to my bed and sat down and Tony came to join me, “I know, I was just kidding calm down. Where’s Aliyah?”
“Job hunting.”
“Already? Well that was quick.”
“Well, I told her if she wants a job anytime soon she’s got to start looking now cause it’s gonna take a while.”
“Oh yea, that makes sense.” He leaned back like I was, against the wall and a silence fell over us for a couple minutes. I heard Tony sigh and look at me, “how does that feel now? Any better?”
“Huh?” I gave him confused look and then he pointed to my VERY noticeable black eye. “Oh yeah, it still kinda hurts. Not as bad as the other day when it was fresh, but it’s still kinda swollen and sore.”
“You know he’s really sorry about that right? He called me today asking if I’ve seen how you were and it sounded like he was almost in tears. You know mike, he never cries.”
I sighed and started picking at my fingers, “Yeah I know. But I still am pretty upset at him. I mean, the only reason I jumped in is because he decided to actually fight Jaime and not talk to him.” I paused and Tony went to talk but I cut him off real quick, “and I do not care who you are, the manly way of resolving things is not to beat the shit out of each other, it’s to own up to your mistake and talk about it.”
“Yeah, you’re right; they could’ve done that.”
“And I can’t tell you how happy I am that the building manager didn’t hear it and call the muskers.” I let out a relieved laugh
“I may sound kind of stupid, but what are muskers?” Tony let out a nervous laugh
“Oh, sorry. I’m just still use to hanging with people who call them that too. It means the cops, it’s the word that gypsy’s identify them as.”
“I didn’t know you were a gypsy.” We both laughed, “Oh, I’m not. I have a couple of friends that are and I use to hangout with them so much I just kind of picked it up from them. I mean, I heard the word a lot.” I laughed at all the memories that came to my mind.
“Are there any good stories that I can hear?” Tony said intrigued
“Well, there is one.”
“Do tell, do tell!” Tony jumped up and flipped on his stomach, propping his chin on his elbows to listen to the story.
I laughed at the face he was making and started up the ‘oh so funny’ story.
“Okay, so my friend Annabel turned 18 a couple weeks before me and she had already met the man of her dreams named Joey. As many people know, gypsy men travel and look for work 6 months out of the year and the women stay home and take care of everything there. Well, seeing as they really didn’t have a family started they wanted to buy a really fancy trailer and she’d just go on the road with him and just take care of the trailer. Well her parents didn’t really like that, or even him for the matter. They didn’t like the relationship at all nor did his parents.” I paused
“Well, Annabel and Joey still loved each other and their parents made it clear that they didn’t want them to be together, but he and she decided to get married anyways. So being her best friend at the time, I was automatically dragged into this.”
“How did that go?” Tony laughed
“Well, we planned a wedding. The day of the wedding came, and Annabel had been living at my house, and left her social security card at her mothers. So on the way to the wedding, Annabel called her mom to get it and her mom refused to give it to her. So we went to her mom’s house and I ran up to the door, hoping that I could get in before she locked it, but I was too late. So Annabel, who was in her huge wedding dress mind you, got out of the car and ran to the door and started pounding on it and yelling, ‘open this door you stupid bitch!’ and her mom was yelling back and said that she wasn’t goin to. So Anna was like, ‘ open this fucking door and give me my social security card right now or I will break this goddamn window, you know I will!’ and I started laughing. Her mom was like, ‘I can’t give you something that I just ripped up and threw away! Get the fuck off of my property!’. We both knew that she didn’t have the balls to actually rip it up so Anna yelled at her and said that she was calling the muskers. Her mom, being the bitch she was, yelled back and said that we could. So Anna did and they said that she could just get her ss number from her doctor’s office so we just did that. Little did I know, Joey’s aunt Sarah wanted to beat the shit out of Annabel. So when we showed up, Sarah was all pissed off. Luckily we got through the ceremony and it wasn’t until after they were already married, that everything happened.” I stopped and looked at Tony, he was smiling from ear to ear.
“What happened next?”
“A lot.” I laughed, “and just let me say, gypsy women don’t care where they are, a courthouse, police station, market, or school, they will fight if it’s needed.”
Tony hit the bed in excitement, “go on with the story!!!!”
“Okay! So after the ceremony was done, we all went outside. Sarah decided to just walk up to Annabel and punch her in the face. She tried picking a fight with her while she was still in her wedding dress! How stupid is that!”
“Oh my gosh, so stupid girlfriend. Now finish!” Tony imitated his best gay voice, I was so proud I just had to finish the story for him quickly cause I could also see that he was dying to hear it.
“So after Sarah punched Annabel, Joey jumped in front of her and Sarah started attacking him, I couldn’t just stand there and watch it so of course, like what you saw me do the other night, I jumped in the middle of it. I pushed Sarah off of them and started pushing her down the street with my hands on her chest saying, ‘just walk away and we’ll pretend like this never happened.’ She said ‘okay’ and she turned around, well when I turned to walk back towards them she jumped on me knocking me to the ground and started hitting me. But hell to the no! I was not going to let that happen! When I got the chance, I flipped us over and started pounding on her. After I had had enough, I got off of her and started walking away, when I got back to Annabel and Joey I heard her coming up behind me so I timed it and just as she was about to hit my back I turned and hit her in the nose and when she grabbed her nose I hit her in the stomach so of course, she automatically went to grab that. Well, when she did so, I dug my fingers into her hair, grabbed her head and slammed it against my knee, for what I think was about four times and dropped her. We heard someone yell, ‘the muskers are coming! Scatter!’ so Annabel, Joey and I all jumped in my car and took off. I heard that they interviewed Sarah and she decided not to press charges. It’s so funny; she started the fight and lost. So yeah, that’s my muskers story.” I laughed and Tony shook the shocked look off his face, “I seriously didn’t know you were so badass! Does Jaime know about this story?”
“What story?” Charlie walked in and tossed an ice pack to me. I caught it and smiled, “oh the one about Annabel’s wedding.”
Charlie leaned on the door jam, “Oh I remember that! You had a black eye for like two weeks but she had a broken nose and 3 cracked ribs am I right?”
“Close! She had four cracked ribs and a broken nose. But you did get my black eye right.” I laughed
Charlie looked at Tony who was smiling, “so are you ready to go?”
Tony hopped off the bed and joined her in the doorway, “I sure am.” I stood up from the bed, “where are you guys going?”
“Oh, probably just to dinner and a movie. I would invite you and Jaime, but you refuse to talk to him so…”Charlie trailed off.
“I do not refuse to talk to him! He refuses to talk to me!”
“Oh really? Have you even tried to call him yet?” Charlie raised an eyebrow at me and I put my nose in the air and gave her an ‘as a matter of fact I did’ look.
“Well did he answer?”
“No.” I sighed
“Then I guess you’re hopping in your jeep and driving down to his house to make sure he hasn’t drank himself into a coma.”
“Do I have to?” I whined
“Yes! He’s still your boyfriend and if he’s sad you have to try to fix him.”
I pouted and plopped on my bed, lying on my back, “Fine! I’ll go over to his house. But only because I don’t want to be responsible for my boyfriend dying of alcohol poisoning.”
“Good girl! Now Tony and I are leaving and I’ll call you in one hour to make sure you actually went.” Charlie blew me a kiss and exited the apartment, Tony not far behind.
“You mean I have to go right now? Ugh!” I rolled off my bed and hit the floor with a loud thud, slowly crawled to the bathroom and got up to look in the mirror, “Do I want to get dressed or do I just want to go like this.” I paused staring at myself in the mirror. In my moment of silence, I heard my phone start ringing, “hey! You’re a crazy bitch but you fuck so good I’m on top of it and I dream, I’m doin you all night. Scratches all down my back to keep my right on!”
“Aliyah!” I squealed and ran to my phone, pouncing on my bed while answering, “Hello, crazy bitch?”
“Hey my Crazy bitch! Whatcha doin?”
“Not much, just trying to decide if I want to shower and get ready before I go to Jaime’s or just go.”
“Em, you need to shower. You haven’t showered in two days, it’s gross.”
“I did too shower! I showered last night!” I exclaimed
“Putting your head over the side of the tub and washing your hair doesn’t count as showering.” We both laughed, “Okay, okay. I’ll shower. When will you be home?”
“Ummm. I’m not sure. Why?”
I sighed, “Because I don’t want to go to Jaime’s alone.”
“Emily, I am not gonna go to Jaime’s house with you. What if you guys have like, make up sex or something? I SO don’t wanna be there!”
I laughed, “Oh god. I would not let you be there for that! But okay, I’ll just shower and go over.”
She laughed, “Okay. So what are you gonna do? I’m sure he still feels guilty about mike givin you that shiner.”
I sighed realizing that I had no idea what I was going to say when I got there. “I don’t know, Aly. I seriously have no idea, I’m just goin in there blind. And he’s not answering any of my calls.”
“Well, I don’t really know what to tell ya. I mean, I can try to call him right now and just do like a 3-way call or something to see if he’s just ignoring you. But other than that I have no clue what to tell ya, Hun.”
I sighed, “Okay. You can call him.” I heard dialing and then some ringing; I decided that if he answered I was just going to keep quite while him and Aliyah talked; I put it on speaker and put it on the bed. It rang about 3 times and Jaime answered, “Hey Aliyah.” He seemed… Happy, I think? I can’t tell.
“Hey Hime-Time, Whatcha doin?”
“Not really much. Just hanging out. Watching movies, ya know what newly single people do.” My mouth dropped, since when was he single? I didn’t know we broke up. What the hell?
“Since when were you single?” Aliyah let out a nervous laugh, knowing that I was probably freaking out.
“Since a couple days ago when you got here. I mean, I haven’t heard from Emily at all and she’s been avoiding my calls so I just kinda took the hint.”
“Jaime, just because she’s been avoiding your calls doesn’t mean that you’re over. It just means that she has no idea what to say and she doesn’t want to answer until she does.”
“See! This is why I don’t get girls! It’s like, one minute they’re mad at you and not wanting anything to do with you, the next they’re sobbing and wanting you back. I don’t get it.” Aliyah and I both laughed; luckily we both have the same laugh so if I were loud enough for him to hear, it would blend in with hers.
“Trust me Jaime, you don’t want to know girls. Girls know girls and they hate each other.”
He laughed, “I guess you’re right. So what should I do?”
“Why does everyone always ask me for advice?” Aliyah groaned but told him anyways, “I suggest that you get ready for the day, which includes showering,” Aliyah put emphasis on the showering part, making sure that I got the hint. So I smiled and she continued, “Combing your hair brushing your teeth, ya know the works and go over to her apartment to talk to her.”
“Thanks Aliyah. Are you sure that’ll work?”
Aliyah was silent for a moment, “You should bring her pizza and cheese in a can.”
Jaime laughed, but not the normal laugh, like the one where something is really weird but you don’t want to say anything. “Okay? Is that all?”
“Umm. Oh and make sure that its pepperoni and get some hot sauce also. All of her favorite foods, she can’t turn them down no matter how mad or depressed she is.”
“Okay, thanks. Is there any type of drink or anything else like that I need to get?”
“Well, she’ll just drink the straight hot sauce, but if you think that that’s gross, then get mountain dew. That’s our drug of choice.”
“Okay, well I’ll do that then. Thanks again Aliyah, you’re a life saver.”
“That’s what I’m here for, sweets. Have fun with Emily, and Jaime….”
“Yeah?”
Oh god, I know what’s coming. Really Aly? Really?
“Wear a condom.” She made a kissing noise and hung up. Forgetting that on his phone it still said call in session, I started laughing very loudly; letting everything out that I was holding in during the call.
“Emily?” Jaime’s voice came through the phone. I, being my ditsy self, answered him. “Yeah?” I realized what I had done and my eyes grew wide, “What? Wait, fuck!” I panicked and quickly hung up. I tossed my phone to the other side of the bed and started laughing at myself, “Oh my god! I can’t believe I just did that! He’s gonna kill me!”
My phone started going off, scaring the shit outta me, “Cause I swore that I’ll be fine when you’re gone. But my body misses you like the sun, but something inside feels wrong. Maybe it was you all along.
One of Jaime’s songs started playing so I knew that it was him calling. I took a few deep breaths, listening to the same snippet of Anatome playing over and over again before I walked over to my phone and answered it, “Hello?”
“Hey. Um. It’s Me.” he sounded lost so I laughed a little, “Me who?”
“You’re boyfriend.” I could feel him smiling through the phone, “Oh! That ‘me’; okay. How are you?”
“I’m good. You?”
“I’m pretty good.”
“That’s good. So, I was just talking to Aliyah on the phone and I think that she thought she hung up but she didn’t. Your guys’ laughs sound a lot alike, I thought that you were on the phone for a minute.” He chuckled so I played along and let a silent sigh of relief escape my lips, “oh really? That’s funny; our laughs do sound a lot alike.”
“Yeah; are you doing anything today?”
“Well, I thought about hanging out with Angelise because I haven’t in a while, but I might just stay home and watch movies and stuff. Why?”
“I was just wondering cause I want to talk to you, but I didn’t want to come over if you already had plans.”
“Oh, well you can come over. I mean I haven’t even called Angelise yet, so I have nothing set in stone.”
“Okay, well I guess I’ll be over in like an hour.”
“Okay! I’ll be here. Bye Jaime.”
“Bye Emily.” We hung up and I threw my phone on the bed. Well shit, I only have an hour. I guess I’m not doing my hair.
I ran to the bathroom, turning on the hot shower and stripping my clothes. I jumped in and quickly washing and shaving everything. After about 15-20 minutes I was done and got out; I wrapped my towel around myself and semi-dried my hair before putting it into a cute messy bun. After that was done, I applied little makeup. Ya know, just the thin line of eyeliner on my top eyelid and some mascara. Once it was applied beautifully I quickly walked to my dresser and put on a bra and underwear; then walked to the closet to choose my outfit.
“Well, I don’t want to be super cute, but I don’t want to be grungy/lazy either.” After 20-25 minutes I finally picked my outfit and quickly slipped it on. (Outfit)Just as I zipped up my shorts I heard the door open and close, “I’m here!”
I smiled and walked into the living room, Jaime coming into my view with all of the items from Aliyah’s list in his hands.
“Hey!” I walked over to him and grabbed a couple things so he wouldn’t drop them.
“I got your favorite food and stuff.” He gave me a weak smile, “I saw! Thank you, Jaime! I was just craving all of this.” I walked over to the coffee table setting all of the items on it and plopping on the couch. “So, what did you want to talk about?” I patted the couch next to me, offering for him to sit down. He took my invite and sat, also putting the items from his hands on the coffee table. “Well, I wanted to talk about the party and what happened.” I cut him off, “Jaime its no big deal. I’ve been in worse fights than that, trust me.”
“No it is a big deal, Emily. You got hit in the face because of me, now you have a black eye. I feel terrible” I went to say something but he stopped me, “No, let me finish. I feel terrible about how I reacted and how I treated you when I first found out. I know that it wasn’t your fault that Mike kissed you. I guess I was just mad because Mike has done that to me before. When I was with a girl named Jessica, it all got fucked up because of him. He didn’t like her so he told her lies about me and she ended up breaking up with me; then once I found out about what he did I went to talk to her about it. When I got to her apartment I used the spare and I walked in like I usually did. I found her sleeping with a guy that I later found out she had cheated on me several times with. I mean, that was a girl that I had an engagement ring for, I loved her with everything I had and more. I loved everything about her; the dimples on her back, the little creases she would get by her eyes when she smiled, her laugh, the way her hair fell perfectly, especially when she woke up. I just loved everything about her. In the end it was a good thing that we broke up, but I was still mad at Mike for it. I guess the anger from that fueled the anger that I had from him kissing you.”
We sat in silence for a few minutes until my curiosity got the better of me, “Do you still love her?” Jaime looked up from his hands with a confused expression, “What?”
“I said, do you. Still. Love her.” I was terrified for the answer, but I had to know. I wanted us to be better, but if he says yes, I have no idea what I’ll do. The worry and slight tears built up, as Jaime stayed silent. He just continued being silent and looking down.
“Jaime?” my voice cracked.
Jaime still hadn’t looked at me, which made me feel even sicker. “Jaime will you answer me?”
“What am I suppose to say Emily?” he shot back and looked up at me.
My eyes started overflowing with tears, “You’re suppose to say no, Jaime. You’re supposed to tell me that you don’t anymore; that you love me and not her.”
“I can’t.” he mumbled
“What?” I held my breath to keep from sobbing,
“ I can’t say that I don’t love her anymore because I do. I always will; I wish I could change it, believe me I do but I can’t. I am so sorry.”
I couldn’t look at him anymore; I pulled my knees to my chest tucking my head into them and cried.
“Emily, please forgive me. I can’t do this on my own.”
“Do what?” I mumbled without lifting my head, “I can’t go on living without you.”
I looked up and wiped the tears from my eyes and getting control of my breathing. It took a couple minutes, but I got everything back to normal, “I think you can do it. You’ve lived without me for 3 years, and look what that got you. You fell in love with Jessica; you forgot about me, and it’s perfectly okay. But you can’t love me when you’re still in love with her.”
“So what does this mean? Are we… over?” he paused, probably scared to get an answer.
“Yes, Jaime. We’re over.” I looked at him and he looked as if he was starting to cry, when he noticed that I saw he looked down and rubbed his eyes before looking back up at me. “Okay. Well I guess if that’s how you feel. I’ll just leave then.” Jaime nodded, getting up and walked out of my apartment without another word being said.

Notes

I bet you didn't see that comin now did ya!?! haha how do ya'll like them apples! do you guys like it? cause i do very much:3
hey guys! so i currently don't have internet at my house so i'm updating while at McDonalds. haha so yeah! I love you all dearly and just a heads up,the next couple chapters will be alot of drama! :D
<3/Emilio

Comments

Yay Sequel!! I Love This Story Im Very Happy There's A Sequel! AND YOU JUST USED A STAR WARS QUOTE! You Are Officially My Favorite Now <3

this-this so many feels cant

ishaluvsu ishaluvsu
2/4/14

@turtle-wars-babe
yay okay, just message me when you want help my dear :3

taylorlovesptv taylorlovesptv
1/19/14

@taylorlovesptv
It's okay, I would've made a more lame joke. Haha and I will definitely come to you for help. :p

@turtle-wars-babe
I MISSED YOU TOO, and dude, my comments are just too damn awesome ;)
yeah, i will totally help you, and if you need help writing them also i could give you hand BECAUSE I HAVE TWO, okay yeah i just had the urge to make that really lame jokeee -_- <3

taylorlovesptv taylorlovesptv
1/19/14