maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
big deal, I guess you're official
Since the whole Mike thing happened, I've been talking to Jaime a lot. And I found out that the PTV guys hang out a lot, and considerating that I'm in ''something'' with Mike, I should start hanging out with them. Although everything that happened, a part of me still thinks that he actually didn't wanted me. I'm nothing special anyway...
Finally, Jaime told me that they were throwing a ''pizza+beer+horror movies night'' at Tony's, that night, and I was invited. I was invited at Tony's house? I felt obtrusive, but Jaime told me that it was fine, that after the party at his house everybody wanted to see me again, apparently they like me. I found it weird, but. I wanted to see Mike again.
I didn't had much time, but I'm not a person who takes a big while preparing myself to go out, so I just took a shower, left my hair dry naturally, and almost didn't put any makeup. I wanted to look good, but casual. I didn't wanted to look like a plastic superficial bitch. I wore some dark red high-waisted shorts, red vans and a black The Clockwork Orange t-shirt, with long sleeves, covering my scars. Soon or later, he'll find out. But not yet. I didn't want him to think I'm a psychopath so soon. I didn't wanted to disappoint him.
I got into my car and I headed to Tony's place, listening to Marilyn Manson all volume. God, I love that dude. I arrived to my destiny, and there was only one car outside. Not Mike's. I exited my car and I walked through the garden to the door. I took a deep breath. I was kinda nervous. What if the didn't wanted me there? What if I fuck things up? What if they think I'm horrible? What if is was all a joke from Jaime and Mike to embarrass me in front of everyone? I knew they were good people, but the bad one in here was my mind. I took another breath, and before exhale I knocked the door with my knuckles. As I exhale, Tony opened the door, smiling. He looked at me, from top to bottom, and said ''Hey, I'm glad you're here''. I smiled. ''Thanks for invite me'' I responded shyly. He let me in, and I slowly walked to the living room, where Jaime was sitting in a couch, with a girl at his side, black hair, shoulder length hair, huge white smile, holding her by the shoulders. ''Hi there!'' Jaime said loudly as he waved at me, ''Hi'' I responded, not very loud. ''This is my Jess'' said, pointing the girl at his side. As he said that, she was staring at him, and then, she rested her head on his shoulder. Jaime hugged her a little tighter. Tony made a sound of disgust. I smiled and looked at the ground, kinda embarrassed. They invited me to sit on the couch and talk. I did as I said. Jess was an adorable girl, and we became friends quickly, and easily. After a while, the Fuentes brothers arrived. When they knocked the door, my heart stopped. Even though we spent time alone with Mike, we were strangers, we barely knew each other. I was very nervous now. When Tony opened the door, Vic entered first, screaming, and after hugging the host, he looked at me with a knowing smile. Then, Mike entered, with a bottle of Jack in each hand, he gave Tony a hug, and he looked up. I was staring at him. He gave me a smirk, and winked at me. I blushed and turned my look to the floor, as fast as I could. ''Girl, you're as red as a tomato'' Vic said. ''What's wrong, something made you nervous?'' Jaime added, provoking me. I smiled and I felt my face burn. I looked up dissimulating, to see Mike, smiling, looking at the floor shyly. The guys headed to the kitchen to bring drinks, cups and something to eat. But Mike cutted his way to come to me, and kissed me firmly but gently in the lips. It was official. We both smiled and everyone screamed, made jokes and applauded. We separated and he returned to his path, while everyone, without moving, looked astonished at Mike and me. I couldn't stop smiling. 'It's official' was the only thing that I could think. I almost couldn't believe it, it couldn't be true. But no, it was official. We were in something. I was something.
The hours passed and Mike was always at my side, with an arm around me. Occasionally, he kissed me, and stared at me. It was a fun night. There was pizza. Lots of pizza. But I didn't even touch it. Some of the guys asked me why, and I just said that I already ate at my house, and that I wasn't hungry. Apparently they were conform with my excuses.
When we were half drunk, we decided to watch a movie. Mama. And shit, it was scary. I love horror movies with blood, gore stuff, innards everywhere, but I can't stand movies with ghosts, spirits and all that weird stuff. I was terrified, but the more terrified I was, Mike's hugs were more and more tight. He sat me on his lap, and he was holding me with both arms, while I was curled in a ball, with my head on his chest, and when something scary happened, I turned around and buried my face in his neck, trying not to watch. His head was resting in mine, and occacionally kissed it. As the time passed, everybody started to fall asleep, except Mike and I. We stayed awake until the movie ended. After that, he carried me bridal stile, to Tony's room, where he put me in the bed and layed down beside me. He held me tight with his both arms and I rested my head in his chest, using it as a pillow. He kissed me goodnight. ''Sweet dreams'' I whispered. ''Only if I dream with you'' he smiled. I closed my eyes and fell asleep immediately. I was peaceful. I was happy.
Finally, Jaime told me that they were throwing a ''pizza+beer+horror movies night'' at Tony's, that night, and I was invited. I was invited at Tony's house? I felt obtrusive, but Jaime told me that it was fine, that after the party at his house everybody wanted to see me again, apparently they like me. I found it weird, but. I wanted to see Mike again.
I didn't had much time, but I'm not a person who takes a big while preparing myself to go out, so I just took a shower, left my hair dry naturally, and almost didn't put any makeup. I wanted to look good, but casual. I didn't wanted to look like a plastic superficial bitch. I wore some dark red high-waisted shorts, red vans and a black The Clockwork Orange t-shirt, with long sleeves, covering my scars. Soon or later, he'll find out. But not yet. I didn't want him to think I'm a psychopath so soon. I didn't wanted to disappoint him.
I got into my car and I headed to Tony's place, listening to Marilyn Manson all volume. God, I love that dude. I arrived to my destiny, and there was only one car outside. Not Mike's. I exited my car and I walked through the garden to the door. I took a deep breath. I was kinda nervous. What if the didn't wanted me there? What if I fuck things up? What if they think I'm horrible? What if is was all a joke from Jaime and Mike to embarrass me in front of everyone? I knew they were good people, but the bad one in here was my mind. I took another breath, and before exhale I knocked the door with my knuckles. As I exhale, Tony opened the door, smiling. He looked at me, from top to bottom, and said ''Hey, I'm glad you're here''. I smiled. ''Thanks for invite me'' I responded shyly. He let me in, and I slowly walked to the living room, where Jaime was sitting in a couch, with a girl at his side, black hair, shoulder length hair, huge white smile, holding her by the shoulders. ''Hi there!'' Jaime said loudly as he waved at me, ''Hi'' I responded, not very loud. ''This is my Jess'' said, pointing the girl at his side. As he said that, she was staring at him, and then, she rested her head on his shoulder. Jaime hugged her a little tighter. Tony made a sound of disgust. I smiled and looked at the ground, kinda embarrassed. They invited me to sit on the couch and talk. I did as I said. Jess was an adorable girl, and we became friends quickly, and easily. After a while, the Fuentes brothers arrived. When they knocked the door, my heart stopped. Even though we spent time alone with Mike, we were strangers, we barely knew each other. I was very nervous now. When Tony opened the door, Vic entered first, screaming, and after hugging the host, he looked at me with a knowing smile. Then, Mike entered, with a bottle of Jack in each hand, he gave Tony a hug, and he looked up. I was staring at him. He gave me a smirk, and winked at me. I blushed and turned my look to the floor, as fast as I could. ''Girl, you're as red as a tomato'' Vic said. ''What's wrong, something made you nervous?'' Jaime added, provoking me. I smiled and I felt my face burn. I looked up dissimulating, to see Mike, smiling, looking at the floor shyly. The guys headed to the kitchen to bring drinks, cups and something to eat. But Mike cutted his way to come to me, and kissed me firmly but gently in the lips. It was official. We both smiled and everyone screamed, made jokes and applauded. We separated and he returned to his path, while everyone, without moving, looked astonished at Mike and me. I couldn't stop smiling. 'It's official' was the only thing that I could think. I almost couldn't believe it, it couldn't be true. But no, it was official. We were in something. I was something.
The hours passed and Mike was always at my side, with an arm around me. Occasionally, he kissed me, and stared at me. It was a fun night. There was pizza. Lots of pizza. But I didn't even touch it. Some of the guys asked me why, and I just said that I already ate at my house, and that I wasn't hungry. Apparently they were conform with my excuses.
When we were half drunk, we decided to watch a movie. Mama. And shit, it was scary. I love horror movies with blood, gore stuff, innards everywhere, but I can't stand movies with ghosts, spirits and all that weird stuff. I was terrified, but the more terrified I was, Mike's hugs were more and more tight. He sat me on his lap, and he was holding me with both arms, while I was curled in a ball, with my head on his chest, and when something scary happened, I turned around and buried my face in his neck, trying not to watch. His head was resting in mine, and occacionally kissed it. As the time passed, everybody started to fall asleep, except Mike and I. We stayed awake until the movie ended. After that, he carried me bridal stile, to Tony's room, where he put me in the bed and layed down beside me. He held me tight with his both arms and I rested my head in his chest, using it as a pillow. He kissed me goodnight. ''Sweet dreams'' I whispered. ''Only if I dream with you'' he smiled. I closed my eyes and fell asleep immediately. I was peaceful. I was happy.
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