Wake me up and let me know you're alive
I'm sorry I can't see that you truly love me
Vic's POV
I woke up at 10:21 AM I sat up and got dressed and then listened to music just for fun. I needed a break and to think.
Its been a week since me and Chloey really talked, The only person who she will talk to is Tony, I don't even know if were still together.She is usually always out side on the porch swing, She usually writes I bet its her song journal but every time some one goes out to the back yard she hides it really fast, Even when Tony is out there and they have been getting really close it looks like. I finally went out of my room and saw Chloey coming in from the back yard. She looked at me and smiled, So I smiled back she came up and hugged me and kissed me. "I'm going to go to the store do you want anything?" "No, but I can come with you if you want.?" I asked "Uhm I would rather go alone?" She replied. "Oh okay." I said sort of sad. She soon hugged me again and left. I wonder what her and Tony have been talking about, But Tony barley talks to me anymore. Jaime hasn't been over in a while and Mike is never home because he has a girlfriend now, Which they are always fighting for no reason. She left and I went to my room. A couple minutes later I hear a knock on my bedroom door. I opened it and saw Tony standing there. "Hey dude whats up?" I asked. "Oh nothing I just thought I should come talk to you cause we haven't been talking lately.Sorry about that.." Tony said sort of looking down. "Don't worry about it as long as Chloey is safe." I smiled at Tony.
Tony's POV
I go out to the back yard and sat down next to Chloey on the porch swing, It was 9:57 am "Good morning" I said to her, She jumped from writing and then hid her paper. "Sorry did I scare you?" "Just a little." I laughed "Were you writing lyrics or something?" I asked "Yea, something like that." "I'm gonna go to the store in a few I just need to get ready and I want to say Hi to Vic." She said I smiled and said "Okay" I got up and went to my room. It was 10:19 now that was a long conversation because we replied slowly.. A lot of silence. I heard Chloey going back to the back yard and then coming back in and talked to Vic. After she left I decided to talk to Vic to just say Hi and to apologize for not talking to him lately. I knocked on his door. He opened it "Hey dude whats up?" He asked sounding surprised. "Oh nothing I just thought I should come talk to you cause we haven't been talking lately. Sorry bout that.." I looked slightly at the ground. "Don't worry about it as long as Chloey is safe." Vic said then he smiled at me. "Fuck she isn't safe. I mean she is but, at the same time she isn't. She can just snap any second and take her life. I can't tell Vic. I can't he will freak out and when he is done freaking out he will freak out again. I don't know what to do. "Yea shes fine." I said quickly looking up. "Well you want to hang out for a bit?" I asked Vic. "Uh I actually have some thinking to do sorry dude, maybe later." "Oh I understand I'll come see you later." I walked away. I went back to the basement and listened to music. I decided to listen to some Nirvana. I laid back on the couch staring at the ceiling I felt numb inside like I couldn't feel anything, Nothing at all. I felt like I was getting depressed, Worse than I am. I could feel the darkness surround me, As I lost all my memories of happiness. It felt like I couldn't see colors, Just my blank empty stares at the ceiling. All I could think about is sad things lately, I don't tell Chloey this because I don't want to take it out on her. I love her but she doesn't see how anybody loves her. I remember telling her just the other day. "Chloey I love you." She didn't believe me. "How could you love me? How could Vic love me? How could anybody love me? I'm just suicidal I can't do anything right. Maybe Casey was right all along and I am starting to realize it again, He has a point If I just kill my self it will be better cause no one ca-." "Stop it Chloey! You wont do it please. We need you... I need you!." I just kept replaying in my head about her saying Casey was right and that she should just kill her self. I couldn't help but not to cry. I do love Chloey and I don't know what would happen to any of us if she took her own life. I know we all would be devastated. I heard the front door open and heard someone go in the back yard and closed the door "Chloeys home" I said to my self I didn't want to her to see that I've been crying so I just stayed in my room/ the basement.
Chloey's POV
My suicide date is getting closer. In one month exactly. December 19th. But still I don't think I can wait that long. I've been writing my letters but this week I need to work faster about giving away my stuff and see if they want anything of mine. I don't want to make it look suspicious ill just say "I'm gonna go and buy new stuff." They probably would want some of my band T's cause I wear men's shirts cause they usually have cooler designs. I got the supplies I needed cause I know. I cant wait another month I should just end it all tonight. I thought about it. Then Vic came out. "Hey." He said smiling. "Hello." "Did you have fun shopping?" "I guess." I said. "What did you buy?" "Just a couple of things." Then I remembered that I forgot the bags in the car."Oh shit" I didn't know I said that out loud. I didn't want him to see my 5 bottles of pills and the rope I bought. My way of killing my self is to numb my self as I hang my self. Numbing my self by downing at least 2 bottles of pills. But I didn't have to go through that much of work if I wanted to slit my throat or my wrist. "Whats wrong?" Vic asked. "Nothing I just forgot my bags in the car." I said getting up. "Oh I'll get them for you" "No I can get them.." But Vic insisted that he would get them. I almost started freaking out because he can see whats in the bag, But If he ask's why I have rope, I have an excuse, If he asks about the pills I'll have an excuse. If he asks about the shavers which I don't think he would I have an excuse "Cause I needed new shavers." I knew he was going to ask me. "Hey uh Chlo? Whats the rope and pills for?" He asked me suspiciously. "Oh well when I was growing up my mom always told me that its always good to have some spare rope around the house or what ever so I decided to take her advice. And I got a lot of pills because I have been getting a lot of head aches lately so I decided to stalk up so we don't have to go and get more pills." "Oh okay." Vic smiled and that was all he said until he walked in the house and in to his room."
I woke up at 10:21 AM I sat up and got dressed and then listened to music just for fun. I needed a break and to think.
Its been a week since me and Chloey really talked, The only person who she will talk to is Tony, I don't even know if were still together.She is usually always out side on the porch swing, She usually writes I bet its her song journal but every time some one goes out to the back yard she hides it really fast, Even when Tony is out there and they have been getting really close it looks like. I finally went out of my room and saw Chloey coming in from the back yard. She looked at me and smiled, So I smiled back she came up and hugged me and kissed me. "I'm going to go to the store do you want anything?" "No, but I can come with you if you want.?" I asked "Uhm I would rather go alone?" She replied. "Oh okay." I said sort of sad. She soon hugged me again and left. I wonder what her and Tony have been talking about, But Tony barley talks to me anymore. Jaime hasn't been over in a while and Mike is never home because he has a girlfriend now, Which they are always fighting for no reason. She left and I went to my room. A couple minutes later I hear a knock on my bedroom door. I opened it and saw Tony standing there. "Hey dude whats up?" I asked. "Oh nothing I just thought I should come talk to you cause we haven't been talking lately.Sorry about that.." Tony said sort of looking down. "Don't worry about it as long as Chloey is safe." I smiled at Tony.
Tony's POV
I go out to the back yard and sat down next to Chloey on the porch swing, It was 9:57 am "Good morning" I said to her, She jumped from writing and then hid her paper. "Sorry did I scare you?" "Just a little." I laughed "Were you writing lyrics or something?" I asked "Yea, something like that." "I'm gonna go to the store in a few I just need to get ready and I want to say Hi to Vic." She said I smiled and said "Okay" I got up and went to my room. It was 10:19 now that was a long conversation because we replied slowly.. A lot of silence. I heard Chloey going back to the back yard and then coming back in and talked to Vic. After she left I decided to talk to Vic to just say Hi and to apologize for not talking to him lately. I knocked on his door. He opened it "Hey dude whats up?" He asked sounding surprised. "Oh nothing I just thought I should come talk to you cause we haven't been talking lately. Sorry bout that.." I looked slightly at the ground. "Don't worry about it as long as Chloey is safe." Vic said then he smiled at me. "Fuck she isn't safe. I mean she is but, at the same time she isn't. She can just snap any second and take her life. I can't tell Vic. I can't he will freak out and when he is done freaking out he will freak out again. I don't know what to do. "Yea shes fine." I said quickly looking up. "Well you want to hang out for a bit?" I asked Vic. "Uh I actually have some thinking to do sorry dude, maybe later." "Oh I understand I'll come see you later." I walked away. I went back to the basement and listened to music. I decided to listen to some Nirvana. I laid back on the couch staring at the ceiling I felt numb inside like I couldn't feel anything, Nothing at all. I felt like I was getting depressed, Worse than I am. I could feel the darkness surround me, As I lost all my memories of happiness. It felt like I couldn't see colors, Just my blank empty stares at the ceiling. All I could think about is sad things lately, I don't tell Chloey this because I don't want to take it out on her. I love her but she doesn't see how anybody loves her. I remember telling her just the other day. "Chloey I love you." She didn't believe me. "How could you love me? How could Vic love me? How could anybody love me? I'm just suicidal I can't do anything right. Maybe Casey was right all along and I am starting to realize it again, He has a point If I just kill my self it will be better cause no one ca-." "Stop it Chloey! You wont do it please. We need you... I need you!." I just kept replaying in my head about her saying Casey was right and that she should just kill her self. I couldn't help but not to cry. I do love Chloey and I don't know what would happen to any of us if she took her own life. I know we all would be devastated. I heard the front door open and heard someone go in the back yard and closed the door "Chloeys home" I said to my self I didn't want to her to see that I've been crying so I just stayed in my room/ the basement.
Chloey's POV
My suicide date is getting closer. In one month exactly. December 19th. But still I don't think I can wait that long. I've been writing my letters but this week I need to work faster about giving away my stuff and see if they want anything of mine. I don't want to make it look suspicious ill just say "I'm gonna go and buy new stuff." They probably would want some of my band T's cause I wear men's shirts cause they usually have cooler designs. I got the supplies I needed cause I know. I cant wait another month I should just end it all tonight. I thought about it. Then Vic came out. "Hey." He said smiling. "Hello." "Did you have fun shopping?" "I guess." I said. "What did you buy?" "Just a couple of things." Then I remembered that I forgot the bags in the car."Oh shit" I didn't know I said that out loud. I didn't want him to see my 5 bottles of pills and the rope I bought. My way of killing my self is to numb my self as I hang my self. Numbing my self by downing at least 2 bottles of pills. But I didn't have to go through that much of work if I wanted to slit my throat or my wrist. "Whats wrong?" Vic asked. "Nothing I just forgot my bags in the car." I said getting up. "Oh I'll get them for you" "No I can get them.." But Vic insisted that he would get them. I almost started freaking out because he can see whats in the bag, But If he ask's why I have rope, I have an excuse, If he asks about the pills I'll have an excuse. If he asks about the shavers which I don't think he would I have an excuse "Cause I needed new shavers." I knew he was going to ask me. "Hey uh Chlo? Whats the rope and pills for?" He asked me suspiciously. "Oh well when I was growing up my mom always told me that its always good to have some spare rope around the house or what ever so I decided to take her advice. And I got a lot of pills because I have been getting a lot of head aches lately so I decided to stalk up so we don't have to go and get more pills." "Oh okay." Vic smiled and that was all he said until he walked in the house and in to his room."
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