Vic hugged me and held me for a while. Then he let go putting his hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes.. "Chloey, when you were in the hospital, I-I couldn't live with out you.. I didn't know how to maintain.. How to keep my self sane I just didn't know what to do.. Without you around and without me hanging out with you everyday.. Hurt like hell and I couldn't help it. Everyday when Tony,Mike and Jaime were at school. I would spend my days with you in the hospital. Singing you songs, Writing songs, Thinking about the first day we met. I couldn't live with out you.. You are something important in my life.. And we all need you here, We can't lose you again.. Or ever. When we found out you were on drugs, I just wanted to.. well die.. I mean that hurt knowing someone we cared about was hurting there body in a worse manner than self harm.. It hurt so much. And its been since about 9 weeks ago that we met, and that one week. Besides all the bad shit that happened with you was the best. With you hanging out with Tony,Jaime,Mike and me. I was fun. Before we met you.. It always felt empty. Like someone was supposed to be there then when you came it never felt so empty until you left and we can't have that again... And Chloey I don't want to ruin our friendship, But I love you Chloey.." Vic said looking down at the ground. I didn't know what to say.. I loved him too. So very much, But what about Tony.. How would he feel about me loving Vic and not him.. What would happen? "Vic, I love you too.. But I mean.. its been 8 weeks. I didn't even barley remember any of you which makes me feel like a total bitch. It makes me feel bad. How could you love me if I didn't remember you. I mean wouldn't it make you sad. I mean, Hearing you while I was in the hospital never thinking I would get out of my own head. Thinking I was imagining your voices, but I wasn't but then I woke up.. I didn't remember you at all.. I only remembered your voice. Jaime,Mike and Tony. I didn't remember. But Vic I do love you. So much you have no idea, I just don't want to ruin what we have now, I don't want anything to come in between our relationship I don't want to have to tell Tony anything. I mean, Tony I could tell he had feelings for me.. And truth is. I have feelings for both of you guys.. I love you both so very much. I just don't want to ruin our relationship." I don't know why I just didn't tell Vic that I loved him more and that I have more feelings for him than Tony.. But I don't really know if its true or not. I mean, I don't want to get hurt, and I don't want to hurt them. I've gotten hurt by people in school who lied to my boyfriend telling him all this bullshit. I don't want that to happen again. I loved Vic alot, but I loved Tony also, I just didn't really know what to do. Vic changed the subject and took his hands off my shoulders. "Just remember that I'm always here if you need me..." He said and walked away. Why is everyone walking away from me.. What the fuck am I doing wrong.. I stood there thinking for a minute. Vic seemed kind of mad. I ran after him. "Vic wait up!" I said catching up to him. I stopped in front of him and looked at him. "Vic.. I love you okay? I do.. I just don't want anyone to get hurt, Me you Tony or anyone else. Imagine if we went out okay, Me and Mike get in a fight over something stupid. You take his side, I leave, I do something stupid.. I end up in the hospital or dead. But you wont be there you know why.. Because you took Mikes side and at that moment you realized I wasn't the one for you. You don't know what happened then a couple weeks later you start to miss me. You pick up the news paper find out that I died.. What will happen..?" Vic tried to speak. "Or how about this.. I start dating you, You and I are in love we try to keep it a secret from the band. We finally tell them, We both hurt Mike and Tony because we lied to him. I hurt Tony because he had feelings for me first. Mike would think you lied to him then he would probably get mad or sad. Or if you and I went out and Tony was trying to flirt with me then I couldn't flirt back and then he will suspect something.. And then something will happen. I don't want that Vic. I love you.. I want to be with you. But I just don't know how.. I love you.." "Chloey you wouldn't kill yourself over me.. And if you did, I would hate myself then I would meet you in heaven because of knowing that I took Mikes side without knowing what really happened then I couldn't live with my self. Chloey I love you.. I know I keep saying this but I do. I mean, your the kind of girl every one should want. You have an amazing personality, your beautiful, Your sweet, your not a bitch like lots of other girls these days, Your amazing. And I don't understand how anyone could have treated you like the way you explained to us that one week. We have only known you for a week. But Chloey, seeing you every day for 9 weeks straight including the week we first met you, Puts a smile on my face.. I can't last about 5 minutes with out thinking about you.. Or something you said that made me laugh or smile. With you i'm constantly smiling.." Vic said to me.. I stood there not knowing how to reply.. Mike came out Thank god I didn't know how to reply to Vic.. "Mike..." I looked at him and hugged him. He didn't hug me back. Vic looked at me he sighed and walked off. "Mike.. Please stop ignoring me. I said i'm sorry.." Mike looked at me and started into tears again. "Mike I'm sorry if I ever hurt you in anyways possible, I just don't know why your the most upset.." Mike looked at me. "The reason why I am so hurt is because, I fell in love with a girl a while ago we loved each other.. But.. She got addicted to drugs and OD'ed on drugs. It was Meth." He said wiping the tears from his eyes. "I'm sorry Mike.. I will quit.. I promise you. No matter how fucking hard it will I will stop for you... Because I love you.. I love you and Vic and Jaime and Tony.. I will stop but all I need is help from you guys, Help me get through this and help me turn things back around and better. I just want to be happy again with you guys.." These words came from my heart. I mean't everything I said. I would stop for them. They are my life.. I need them. "Thank you Chloey..." Mike said hugging me. "Your are one of the most strongest persons I have ever met. My ex girlfriend who OD'ed wouldn't quit.. Not for her mom, Not for her dad. Not for me.. Not for anybody. And it's a good thing we haven't lost you. Because your a great example of strong for all of the people going through the same problem. But thank you Chloey.. It means a lot to me that you quit meth.. Thank you.." He said hugging me tighter. I put my head against his chest and smiled. Then we went in the building to get Tony, Jaime, and Vic to go on home.. I think we all could use some rest especially them because they played a show tonight.. Thank god its back to almost normal again.. I still thought about what Vic said. I want to go out with him. I do, but I think I would have to talk to Tony about it first, because I would feel mad at my self. And I would feel sad. We got Tony, Jaime and Vic and got in the car and left.

Notes

So guys, what do you think is going to happen? Maybe its obvious maybe its not hehe c: I hope you like this chapter.. Sorry if some parts are messed up I am half asleep writing this I didn't get much sleep last night. But I hope you guys like it c: Night!! :)