Tony stopped hugging me, and walked away. I didn't know what was wrong. Mike got up off the ground and came up to me. "Chloey why..?" He asked me fighting back his tears. "I-I don't know.." I said. I really didn't know why I did meth, It was just fun, I mean staying up late being able to watch 10 movies in a row, partying with your so called friends. I mean it was fun.. Then I thought about it, The fun moments with Vic. The drive to the hair shop, Holding his hand inside, him telling a bitch to leave us the fuck alone, Or that day when my mom died, Vic and Tony stopped me from cutting, Or when we left to go find out why Anthony did it. And when Vic yelled for me to look out because of the car. I tried to stop thinking about Vic.. "I'm sorry Mike. I never mean't to hurt any of you. I forgot about you guys as sad as it sounds, I need you guys to be apart of my life again and I need you to help me change. I love you guys, You are my saviors and maybe not now but I realized things may get better, not right now but soon. I have been taught that because of Vic, Tony, Jaime and you. You and I may not talk that much, But I remember you talking to me in the hospital while I was away for 8 fuckin' weeks, I remember you told me things will get better, Vic needs me, Tony needed me, You needed me you all needed me. I forgot, and now that i'm here with you guys it makes me remember.. Mike I love you, I love you all. And I am so sorry, If I ever hurt you in anyway. I'm sorry." I hugged him tightly. "I'm sorry.." I said, and he hugged me back. "Please don't ever go back to drugs. Please." I wanted to say yes. But I now have realized that i'm addicted, I was killing for another line. I didn't know what to say.. "I will try my best..But. Mike..." I said "But what..?" "I'm addicted.." Mike and I stood hugging in silence. "Mike, I'm sorry.." I said.. He wouldn't talk to me.. "Please Mike?" He still didn't reply.. "Mike I said I'm sorry!" I said again. He let go of hugging me and walked away and went in the building probably going to Tony.. I didn't know what was wrong with both of them is it cause i'm addicted, or did they not trust me.. Maybe they could tell I tried to lie about quitting.. I sat down on the ground against the wall and curled up with my knees to my face, just repeating all the fun memories with them all, Tony,Jaime, Mike and Vic. How they took care of me and helped me feel good until I had to go be stupid and try to kill my self. If I didn't try to kill my self, I wouldn't be where I was today, getting addicted to meth. Feeling hated by the people I felt loved me the most, Feeling alone again, Almost getting poisoned by my so called friends. I remembered that Vic said to me in the hospital "Everything happens for a reason, Don't let it get to you.. Everything will be better and fixed just hang on tight, Life is a bumpy ride..." I thought about it, Maybe this is happening for a reason, But what is the reason? Is it telling me to find new friends?Telling me that I deserved this all.. Telling me that I'm losing the people I would do anything for.. I repeated what I said in my head.. "I'm losing the people I would do anything for..." I cared about them so fucking much.. I need them they need me. I can't do this on my own. I got up off the ground and ran to Vic and hugged him tightly.. "Vic I'm sorry I've gotten myself into this, I can't lose you guys and I'm fucking stupid for trying to kill my self because if I didn't I wouldn't be here hurting the ones I love. If I have to quit, I will just for you guys because I realized maybe what you told me is true. Maybe everything does happen for a reason and how I should just wait things out. I'm sorry for ever hurting you.. And Mike.. And everyone else I hurt. I was just so caught up in my own feelings I was tangled in my mind I didn't know how to get out.. I'm sorry please accept my apology. I love you Vic.."

Notes

So this is all I could type tonight. I hope you guys like it. I tried my best to make it good, Please tell me what you think about it and what you think is going to happen next C: I love you all and Thanks for reading my fan-fic c: <3 have a good night/ day :)