I Met The Love Of My Life.
What If I Can't Forget You?
*** Tony’s Pov ***
It feels great to be home. Jaime’s girlfriend, Cassie was giving us a lift back to the house we shared together. It’s great to know that Cassie and Jaime are still together, even after all these years. I guess I need to get back to my girlfriend too… Stephanie. I love her, I think. She’s beautiful and she treats me like I’m any other guy – not just ‘Tony Perry from Pierce the Veil’ and I like that. We get along great and we’ve been together for so long. But there’s something missing. I’m not sure. Maybe I’m getting bored or losing attraction. She was a one night stand type thing when I first met her. I think that in all honesty, I was using her during that first tour because I couldn’t stand to be away from Alice for so long, then when I got home, I felt so guilty and I knew she didn’t deserve what I’d been doing to her, so I left her, and stayed with Stephanie.
“Hey Cassie.” I smiled at her as I entered her car with my luggage, as did Jaime. “Thanks for offering to pick us up.” She just kind of smiled at me; she’s never really acknowledged me since I broke up with Alice. I guess it makes sense. That’s her best friend. We mainly told her stories about tour since we were stuck in traffic.
Finally, I plucked up the question I’ve been wondering about for a couple of years now…
“How’s Alice?” I blurted out and Jaime turned round and gave me a stern look, knowing it would set Cassie off.
“I mean, not that it’s any of your business, Tone, but she’s finally doing okay. She was a mess for a while man, but now, now I actually think that things are starting to get better.” She smiled at me through the window. She wasn’t angry at me?
“A mess?” I said more to myself than anyone else. “I’m sorry Cass…”
We got into the house Jaime and I shared and Cassie was in front of us, talking to me. Her and I sat down on the couch and had the talk I think we’ve needed to have for a long time.
“I know I know. Jaime actually told me how you feel. You felt guilty. It’s alright man; you didn’t know who you were at that time. Being together was all you two knew. I understand. But it was shitty of you to do nonetheless and a part of me will always hate your sorry ass for that.” She laughed, and then continued. “But yes, a mess. She couldn’t come out of her bedroom. She ate a lot, put on a lot of weight. She hardly looked after herself; she slumped into a deep depression. But she’s slowly but surely coming out of it. She seems to be, somewhat, happier.”
I smiled at the thought. Happy Alice is my favourite type of Alice. I imagined her long black hair and those beautiful blue/green eyes of hers. I imagined her pretty little plump lips and how pretty she was, just in general. She really is the most beautiful girl I’ve seen yet. I blushed to myself, thinking about how lucky I am that I once got to be with her.
I finally cleared my throat to speak. “I’m sorry about that Cass… I can’t say I was much better. I’m pretty miserable now. I don’t know man; it’s not that I don’t love Stephanie. I do, I think. It’s just, it’s not certain. You know? The way it was with Alice. She just… She made me complete. There’s been something missing since the day I broke up with her.” I softly laughed. Cassie put her hand on my back and rubbed it, to reassure me. She knew I was holding back tears. “It’s always been her Cass.” I looked up to her and gave her a weak smile. “So is there any guys on the scene for her now?” I looked down and fiddled with my thumbs.
“Well there was this guy who gave her his number at the bar last night… But other than that, nope. And I don’t think she was all that interested in him. But Tony? Please don’t contact her, not for a while. Not til she’s been okay for a good while. I can’t, I physically can’t watch her be like that again. So until you’re one hundred and ten percent sure that you want her, that you want to be with her, that you won’t regret breaking up with Stephanie, that you want to fucking marry Alice and have children with her, please, do not try and contact her. She’s not cut in 2 months, Tone, and I don’t want her to be flooded with memories of you if you’re going to crush her again. I’m sorry for being so harsh. But she’s my best friend, my sister even. And I needed you to know that.” Cassie said, her hands now on mine, looking right into my eyes.
I felt a tear slide down my face. “Fuck. Look at me, I’m crying and we’re only just talking about trying to get her back.” I laughed. Cassie and I hugged it out and I went to my room to leave her and Jaime be. I slumped on my bed, checking my phone. I seen that I had 12 missed calls, all from fucking Stephanie.
I sighed and decided to just call her back. It rang twice before she picked up.
“TONY! You’re back! Yay!” She squealed into the phone.
I rolled my eyes. Faking to be happy is the only thing that will keep me going with her right now.
“Yeah I’m back babe.” I laughed.
“So I’m gonna come over in ten minutes, okay?!”
“Uh, Steph, honey, I’m really tired. Could you wait till tomorrow? Jet lag is seriously catching up with me, I’m so tired.” I lied.
“Um. I mean, okay. But we always have welcome home sex when you get back from tours.” I could practically hear her pout.
“I know babe, tomorrow! I’ll make it worth your while.” I fake chuckled and rolled my eyes.
“Okay baby, I’ll see you tomorrow boo! Love you!”
“See you tomorrow, love you too.” I said and hung up before she could even speak again. I guess I am tired. But there’s only one thing on my mind. Alice. I decided to go onto Cassie’s twitter page, where I also found her Instagram. On her Instagram were pictures of her and Alice from last night. She’d been going to the gym. Her bum. Oh my god. It was amazing before, but now, now it looked even better – I didn’t know that was possible. She looked so, so perfect. I decided I’d follow her on both Instagram and Twitter.. I set my phone down next to me on my bed and stared at my ceiling. I definitely don’t think I’ll be getting a good sleep tonight.. I was snapped out of my thoughts of Alice when I got a notification on Instagram and twitter. Both saying ‘aliceisnotinw0nderland now follows you!’
I smiled to myself. Maybe I will get a good night’s sleep now, knowing she doesn’t hate me.
It feels great to be home. Jaime’s girlfriend, Cassie was giving us a lift back to the house we shared together. It’s great to know that Cassie and Jaime are still together, even after all these years. I guess I need to get back to my girlfriend too… Stephanie. I love her, I think. She’s beautiful and she treats me like I’m any other guy – not just ‘Tony Perry from Pierce the Veil’ and I like that. We get along great and we’ve been together for so long. But there’s something missing. I’m not sure. Maybe I’m getting bored or losing attraction. She was a one night stand type thing when I first met her. I think that in all honesty, I was using her during that first tour because I couldn’t stand to be away from Alice for so long, then when I got home, I felt so guilty and I knew she didn’t deserve what I’d been doing to her, so I left her, and stayed with Stephanie.
“Hey Cassie.” I smiled at her as I entered her car with my luggage, as did Jaime. “Thanks for offering to pick us up.” She just kind of smiled at me; she’s never really acknowledged me since I broke up with Alice. I guess it makes sense. That’s her best friend. We mainly told her stories about tour since we were stuck in traffic.
Finally, I plucked up the question I’ve been wondering about for a couple of years now…
“How’s Alice?” I blurted out and Jaime turned round and gave me a stern look, knowing it would set Cassie off.
“I mean, not that it’s any of your business, Tone, but she’s finally doing okay. She was a mess for a while man, but now, now I actually think that things are starting to get better.” She smiled at me through the window. She wasn’t angry at me?
“A mess?” I said more to myself than anyone else. “I’m sorry Cass…”
We got into the house Jaime and I shared and Cassie was in front of us, talking to me. Her and I sat down on the couch and had the talk I think we’ve needed to have for a long time.
“I know I know. Jaime actually told me how you feel. You felt guilty. It’s alright man; you didn’t know who you were at that time. Being together was all you two knew. I understand. But it was shitty of you to do nonetheless and a part of me will always hate your sorry ass for that.” She laughed, and then continued. “But yes, a mess. She couldn’t come out of her bedroom. She ate a lot, put on a lot of weight. She hardly looked after herself; she slumped into a deep depression. But she’s slowly but surely coming out of it. She seems to be, somewhat, happier.”
I smiled at the thought. Happy Alice is my favourite type of Alice. I imagined her long black hair and those beautiful blue/green eyes of hers. I imagined her pretty little plump lips and how pretty she was, just in general. She really is the most beautiful girl I’ve seen yet. I blushed to myself, thinking about how lucky I am that I once got to be with her.
I finally cleared my throat to speak. “I’m sorry about that Cass… I can’t say I was much better. I’m pretty miserable now. I don’t know man; it’s not that I don’t love Stephanie. I do, I think. It’s just, it’s not certain. You know? The way it was with Alice. She just… She made me complete. There’s been something missing since the day I broke up with her.” I softly laughed. Cassie put her hand on my back and rubbed it, to reassure me. She knew I was holding back tears. “It’s always been her Cass.” I looked up to her and gave her a weak smile. “So is there any guys on the scene for her now?” I looked down and fiddled with my thumbs.
“Well there was this guy who gave her his number at the bar last night… But other than that, nope. And I don’t think she was all that interested in him. But Tony? Please don’t contact her, not for a while. Not til she’s been okay for a good while. I can’t, I physically can’t watch her be like that again. So until you’re one hundred and ten percent sure that you want her, that you want to be with her, that you won’t regret breaking up with Stephanie, that you want to fucking marry Alice and have children with her, please, do not try and contact her. She’s not cut in 2 months, Tone, and I don’t want her to be flooded with memories of you if you’re going to crush her again. I’m sorry for being so harsh. But she’s my best friend, my sister even. And I needed you to know that.” Cassie said, her hands now on mine, looking right into my eyes.
I felt a tear slide down my face. “Fuck. Look at me, I’m crying and we’re only just talking about trying to get her back.” I laughed. Cassie and I hugged it out and I went to my room to leave her and Jaime be. I slumped on my bed, checking my phone. I seen that I had 12 missed calls, all from fucking Stephanie.
I sighed and decided to just call her back. It rang twice before she picked up.
“TONY! You’re back! Yay!” She squealed into the phone.
I rolled my eyes. Faking to be happy is the only thing that will keep me going with her right now.
“Yeah I’m back babe.” I laughed.
“So I’m gonna come over in ten minutes, okay?!”
“Uh, Steph, honey, I’m really tired. Could you wait till tomorrow? Jet lag is seriously catching up with me, I’m so tired.” I lied.
“Um. I mean, okay. But we always have welcome home sex when you get back from tours.” I could practically hear her pout.
“I know babe, tomorrow! I’ll make it worth your while.” I fake chuckled and rolled my eyes.
“Okay baby, I’ll see you tomorrow boo! Love you!”
“See you tomorrow, love you too.” I said and hung up before she could even speak again. I guess I am tired. But there’s only one thing on my mind. Alice. I decided to go onto Cassie’s twitter page, where I also found her Instagram. On her Instagram were pictures of her and Alice from last night. She’d been going to the gym. Her bum. Oh my god. It was amazing before, but now, now it looked even better – I didn’t know that was possible. She looked so, so perfect. I decided I’d follow her on both Instagram and Twitter.. I set my phone down next to me on my bed and stared at my ceiling. I definitely don’t think I’ll be getting a good sleep tonight.. I was snapped out of my thoughts of Alice when I got a notification on Instagram and twitter. Both saying ‘aliceisnotinw0nderland now follows you!’
I smiled to myself. Maybe I will get a good night’s sleep now, knowing she doesn’t hate me.
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