I had just got in the door to my house when Cassie’s ringtone on my phone started to play. I pressed answer and put loudspeaker on whilst setting my phone on the kitchen counter, along with the takeout food I’d brought in.

“Helllllo beautiful lady!” she squealed into the phone.

“Hey babe, why are you so excited?” I laughed at my best friend.

“Cause my man’s back in town tomorrow and we’re going out tonight! Yay!” I could practically hear her grinning. I smiled to myself, her and Jaime hadn’t seen each other in so long. However, I’d totally forgotten that we were meant to be going out tonight.

“Oh yeah, tell Himes hello when you see him tomorrow from his number one fan!” I giggled, then groaned. “Do we really have to go out?”

“Yes. You have not got your fine ass out in so long. It's only been once or twice since...”

I groaned again, cutting her off. “Pleeeeeease don’t bring him up.” I drew the word ‘please’ out and sighed. “Okay fine. I’ll go out. Where are we going?”

“We could go out and have some drinks and a good dance so you can shake your little booty! Wear a dress!” She sounded deadly excited, making me know I had to go now.

“Little booty? Cassandra have you ever come across this fine ass of mine?” I laughed. I have to admit, going to the gym a lot more and doing squats has made me much more confident in my own skin. I’m still down on the inside but on the outside I looked good. Now all I had to worry about was the demons constantly taking over my head and my thoughts.

“Okay you have a point! I’ll see you tonight babe, okay?!” she squealed and I laughed, at least she’s cute.

“See you tonight hon.” I hung up the phone and sat on the couch, turning on the episodes of Supernatural I recorded. “Ahhh, Dean Winchester, what a beauty.” I muttered to myself as I ate my dinner before having to get ready.

I decided on an outfit after I’d done my hair and makeup and waited in my living room for Cassie to get here. She gave me a text to say she was outside so I quickly made sure all my windows were locked – I’m really paranoid about things like that. And I walked outside, locking my front door behind me. I got in the cab Cass was in and she wolf whistled as I strapped my seatbelt to myself.

“Looking good girl!” she said as she reached across the seat to hug me.

I hugged her back and smiled. “You look amazing love.”

We got to the club and soon I found that I was pretty tipsy. We’d had our fair share of drinks and as soon as a song came on that Cassie loved, we were up dancing.

Sometimes, I feel really alive. Like there’s nothing in the world wrong with me. I’ve got the perfect life in someone else’s eyes. A great house to myself that I’m able to pay for, a great family, great friends, a great job, great health (well of course other than my mental health, but no one other than Cassie knows about that.).

But then other times, I feel dead. Like I’m worthless. Like I’m 17 again standing in front of that mirror in my parent’s house counting out all my fucking flaws. Clearly I must be worthless, because as soon as Tony got back from that tour he'd been acting really, really strange. Then maybe six months after their tour, he left me for another girl. He’d been with her starting from the middle of the tour. I literally could not believe it. He’d also been partying a lot with Mike in the beginning of tour.

They’ve been on many tours since then and they’ve had two albums out. After they come back tomorrow they’re working on their third. Pierce the Veil were very, very big now. I was somewhat happy for them, but I fucking hated them too. They all left me. The only one that came back was Jaime. No one else kept in contact with me after Tony and I’s break up. When we did break up, I was totally lost. I didn't trust anyone, not even Cass for a while. I stayed in my house all day and slumped in my bed, just constantly eating and cutting. I put on a lot of weight. My hair was dull and lifeless. And I certainly wasn't myself anymore, my thoughts consisted of only Tony and killing myself. Then one day I came to my senses. I got myself a job at Alternative Press, worked very fucking hard at my job, got a house of my own, worked out and finally, I've started to feel better about myself. I've finally started to forget all about Tony fucking Perry. Without the help of Cassie and my family, I probably wouldn't be here.

I guess sometimes you need to find out who your true friends are, right?

Notes

Title Credit: Seven Thousand Miles For What? - Of Mice & Men

Yay the sequel is hereee!

Please read Come Back To My Heart if you haven't, this might not make sense if you don't!

This is just a little bit of an insight as to what's going on since they went on their very first tour!

Anyway, I hope you're enjoying this so far. No updates without feedback though!

Thank you for reading <3