Love Like A Tidal Wave.
Dear Whoever May Find This...
1st May 2013.
Dear whoever may find this, please make sure that anyone who is mentioned in this letter gets to read it.
Dad,
Please know that this, none of this, is your fault – or ever was. I don’t care about the person you were in the past, I just know that you adored me, and know that I adore you too. You are my daddy, after all. I’m so sorry I didn’t visit or call enough; I know you must hate the fact that I didn’t. I’m so sorry, daddy, I guess I just lost track of everything, including myself. Please think of me as being in a better place. I’m happy up here, with my mama. I love you so much. Please smile. You know it’s what I’d only ever want you to do.
John, Marc and Ben,
Thank you for everything you have all done for me, I wouldn’t have lasted this long if you haven’t. Think of me as looking after my mum up in heaven, and think of us laughing together, happy as ever. Please, please know that this is no one’s fault but my own. I wanted this, it was me. I’m just not happy, and I haven’t been for the longest time. I just wasn’t meant to be here, and that’s okay. I’m okay with it. I love you so much; you all are amongst the most amazing men I have ever met. I will watch over you, look after you and well, you all already know I’ll be forever smiling and be filled with pride and joy for you all. I just want you to know that I love you. More than anything. You are the best family a girl like me could ever hope for. Thanks for always being so supportive. Thanks for being you.
Jaime, Mike and Tony,
So I guess we didn’t know each other that well, but from what we did, I just wanted you guys to know that you are amazing. You always knew how to make me smile and laugh. You are so loving and caring and I thank you for being there for me. Don’t think there was anything else you could have done, because there wasn’t. You all did more than enough. I love you all.
Taylor, my beautiful best friend and partner in crime,
You know I love you right? You know you’re the best friend I could have ever asked for? Remember two years ago, the first time I ever tried this, on the 31st of April – you said, “Hold on till May, for me, please?” And I did? Well, I’m so sorry I couldn’t have held on any longer for you. I know how desperately you wanted me to. But I just couldn’t hold on anymore, I couldn’t. I was miserable. I was happy with you, Vic and the guys, but I was more or less miserable. Know that I’m happy up here, please. I know you’ll understand, you know how long I’ve wanted this for. I’m so sorry I couldn’t be here for your beautiful wedding, but I’ll be looking down on you from above, telling you to not be so stupid when you say you don’t look beautiful enough – you ALWAYS look beautiful enough, you lucky bitch. I am so blessed to have known you, never mind have you as my best friend. You are literally the best girl in the whole world, ever, and Jaime is very lucky to have you. You will make a wonderful wife and a wonderful mum. And I’m so fucking proud of you. I always will be. I love you more than words can say. But you know that already. Keep that gorgeous smile on your face, for me, please?
And finally, Vic,
Our relationship hasn’t gone on for that long, but know that I am eternally yours. The love I felt for you was like a tidal wave – powerful and strong, I couldn’t have loved you more. You are my soulmate, that I know for sure. Just know there’s nothing you could have done, my baby, for I was already gone. And don’t you dare feel guilty, it is NOT your fault. You are the most flawless man I have ever had the pleasure to know, and I’m so glad I did. I love you more than anything, you are the reason I was here for so long. I will miss you and everything about you forever. I know you will find a beautiful, flawless girl, much like yourself, and you will be happy together. And I will be more than happy for you, forever watching over you and smiling. Please keep a smile on your face, keep making music and saving young teenagers lives. Don’t feel like you should have saved mine, some people weren’t meant to be saved, I am one of them. I love you always. Until we meet again, my love.
Kimberly Rose x
Dear whoever may find this, please make sure that anyone who is mentioned in this letter gets to read it.
Dad,
Please know that this, none of this, is your fault – or ever was. I don’t care about the person you were in the past, I just know that you adored me, and know that I adore you too. You are my daddy, after all. I’m so sorry I didn’t visit or call enough; I know you must hate the fact that I didn’t. I’m so sorry, daddy, I guess I just lost track of everything, including myself. Please think of me as being in a better place. I’m happy up here, with my mama. I love you so much. Please smile. You know it’s what I’d only ever want you to do.
John, Marc and Ben,
Thank you for everything you have all done for me, I wouldn’t have lasted this long if you haven’t. Think of me as looking after my mum up in heaven, and think of us laughing together, happy as ever. Please, please know that this is no one’s fault but my own. I wanted this, it was me. I’m just not happy, and I haven’t been for the longest time. I just wasn’t meant to be here, and that’s okay. I’m okay with it. I love you so much; you all are amongst the most amazing men I have ever met. I will watch over you, look after you and well, you all already know I’ll be forever smiling and be filled with pride and joy for you all. I just want you to know that I love you. More than anything. You are the best family a girl like me could ever hope for. Thanks for always being so supportive. Thanks for being you.
Jaime, Mike and Tony,
So I guess we didn’t know each other that well, but from what we did, I just wanted you guys to know that you are amazing. You always knew how to make me smile and laugh. You are so loving and caring and I thank you for being there for me. Don’t think there was anything else you could have done, because there wasn’t. You all did more than enough. I love you all.
Taylor, my beautiful best friend and partner in crime,
You know I love you right? You know you’re the best friend I could have ever asked for? Remember two years ago, the first time I ever tried this, on the 31st of April – you said, “Hold on till May, for me, please?” And I did? Well, I’m so sorry I couldn’t have held on any longer for you. I know how desperately you wanted me to. But I just couldn’t hold on anymore, I couldn’t. I was miserable. I was happy with you, Vic and the guys, but I was more or less miserable. Know that I’m happy up here, please. I know you’ll understand, you know how long I’ve wanted this for. I’m so sorry I couldn’t be here for your beautiful wedding, but I’ll be looking down on you from above, telling you to not be so stupid when you say you don’t look beautiful enough – you ALWAYS look beautiful enough, you lucky bitch. I am so blessed to have known you, never mind have you as my best friend. You are literally the best girl in the whole world, ever, and Jaime is very lucky to have you. You will make a wonderful wife and a wonderful mum. And I’m so fucking proud of you. I always will be. I love you more than words can say. But you know that already. Keep that gorgeous smile on your face, for me, please?
And finally, Vic,
Our relationship hasn’t gone on for that long, but know that I am eternally yours. The love I felt for you was like a tidal wave – powerful and strong, I couldn’t have loved you more. You are my soulmate, that I know for sure. Just know there’s nothing you could have done, my baby, for I was already gone. And don’t you dare feel guilty, it is NOT your fault. You are the most flawless man I have ever had the pleasure to know, and I’m so glad I did. I love you more than anything, you are the reason I was here for so long. I will miss you and everything about you forever. I know you will find a beautiful, flawless girl, much like yourself, and you will be happy together. And I will be more than happy for you, forever watching over you and smiling. Please keep a smile on your face, keep making music and saving young teenagers lives. Don’t feel like you should have saved mine, some people weren’t meant to be saved, I am one of them. I love you always. Until we meet again, my love.
Kimberly Rose x
Notes
So the final chapter will be up in literally an hour or so! :)This wasn't too good meeeh but it's up and it's done! :D John is her stepdad btw :)
oh my god i forgot to read these stories and everything went to hell omg this is so sad i wish she was still alive awe damn im sobbing
2/24/15