Monday. Oh I hated Monday's, especially today. I was still majorly pissed at Tony for his antics yesterday. I had been ignoring all his calls, all his text's. You'd think he'd get the message but no, he still continued. Rolling out of bed, I headed off downstairs. “What's for breakfast?” I yawned, stretching a little.

“Whatever you wanna make. Vic left early.” Mike jumped a little at the sound of my voice. I let out a small laugh. I was not making breakfast. He was engrossed with his phone, a smirk appearing on his face which meant he was talking to Natalie. I turned around heading upstairs. He's left you alone, poor little Claire. It was too early for this shit. “Don't start..” I muttered to myself. I know I must look crazy, I am crazy in fact. Getting ready to face school seemed to take forever. Maybe it was because part of me didn't want to face Tony. I bet he's with another girl. Sighing, I sat down in front of the mirror, I looked at my reflection. Disgusting. I put a little make-up on, I looked once more. That would have to do. My hair was curly & I didn't feel like putting any effort into it today.

“Do you want a lift? I'm picking up Jaime though.” Mike's voice called as I wandered back downstairs, bag in one hand.

“No you're alright, I'll walk.” I smiled. I grabbed an apple, taking a bite out of it. I chewed it until I got out, I spit it out & put it in the bin. Well it had to look like I was eating. I hated myself for even putting it in my mouth. I'd been starving myself for a couple of days now. I wasn't hungry at all. I set off to school, thoughts whizzing through my mind. Come on Claire, sort yourself out. What exactly are you going to do? I knew I wouldn't stand up to him, I didn't dare. My phone buzzed in my hand, scaring me a little.

Tony:
Meet me at our place, I need to talk to you - Tone x

I shoved the phone in my pocket and carried on walking. I wasn't going there at all. I didn't want to talk to him. If he wanted to see me that bad he'd come & find me right? I soon arrived at school, I didn't go straight in. I waited at the gates for Mike after realising I had left my cigarette's at home. What a stupid thing to do. I'd been stood there a good 20 minutes before he arrived. Jaime spotted me, bounding out the car & scooping me into a big hug. “Someone's happy...”

“Well duh, my best friend in the whole wide world is here” he grinned at me as he put me down. Mike soon walked over, throwing a packet of cigarette's at me. I thanked him and we stood waiting for Natalie. Tony arrived before her, I stood a little bit closer to Jaime.

“Morning..” his smile was awkward. The other two said morning, I just ignored him. Oh yes, I was giving him the silent treatment. “I said morning Claire..”

“I'm not talking yo--oh fuck you Tony.” I rolled my eyes at him, his stupid attempt to make me talk worked. God damn it Claire, why didn't you just keep your mouth shut? I grabbed Jaime's hand & walked into school. I glanced back to see him glaring at us. That's right Perry, I was going to make you so mad at me.

****

I sat in my usual seat for Maths, Tony plonking himself beside me. I turned my head & started talking to Mike who was sat the other side of me. “Me & Hime-Time are going out for lunch. If you wanna join?”

“Nah, I'll skip little sis.” his eyes locked onto his work.

“Little? I'm older than you.” I laughed.

“By 2 minutes & 16 seconds. Plus you're shorter than me therefore you're little.” He poked my face with his pen. I couldn't help but laugh. I always made sure he knew I was older than him. I felt Tony tap my shoulder, I turned around half expecting him to say something. Oh no, he grabbed my face & full blown kissed me in the middle of class.

“I'm really sorry baby.” he whispered as we pulled away from each other. I nodded, I never said anything. I was going to make him suffer this time, he turned his head to the front leaving his hand on my thigh, lightly stroking it. After a while I pushed it away, earning a confused look from him. I shrugged at him & continued with my work.

After lesson we went our separate ways, I think he got the message as he wandered off somewhere. I felt bad but I had to stand my ground this time. The next two lesson's went by quickly, I met up with Jaime. I wanted to ask him exactly what went down between him & Tony but I probably wasn't going to like the answer, but I chose to ask anyway. “What happened?”

“What? Oh with me & fuck face?” I nodded. “He's convinced we're seeing other each other, without thinking I told him it was true because he didn't show enough love to--”

“Jaime! Jesus christ, why would you do that?” I was trying to stay serious but it didn't work, I ended up laughing. That's so typical of him. We soon arrived at my favourite pizza place, we walked inside to see Tony there with some other girl, his arm wrapped round her. She's just a friend I told myself. I grabbed Jaime's hand, I knew he had the same idea as me. He leaned in closer whispering something causing me to laugh really loud. Tony's head snapped in our general direction, scrunching his face us as he saw us. I told Jaime to order while I went to the toilets. I was about to close the cubicle door when it shot open again.

“What game are you playing?” his voice was surprisingly calm.

“I'm not playing a game, I'm simply out for lunch with my best friend.” I stated. “Unlike someone I know, tell me Tone. Is she another one of your side bits?”

“No, she isn't.” he mumbled.

“Bull shit. I knew you were cheat--” he cut me off, lips pressed to mine. He pulled away, smiling at me. I couldn't quite read his expression though. I was usually good at that, but not right now. “..you're seriously messing my mind up.”

“She meant nothing to me.” was his reply. What did he..oh I was right. She was a side bit. “That soun---”

“Damn right it did, run along to your little slut Perry.” I half shouted, pushing past him. I told Jaime we were leaving, I didn't want to be here. I had to get away, I knew the perfect thing to do. I was right all along, all I ever did was try to keep him happy yet he does this to me? Hitting me wasn't enough? Oh no, wait he'll be doing this because he knows he can't be violent towards me so he's finding another way to hurt me. Well he found it, I was about to do more damage the second I got through that door.

We took a little detour, I didn't fancy going home my brothers would instantly know there was something wrong. I couldn't tell me, I made Jaime promise not to tell anyone. It would soon get out anyway, if he's seen with her then people would soon figured it out. I was shaken awake, I didn't even realise how tired I was. “Do you want me to come in?”

“No, it's fine. I'll call you later if I'm not asleep. Love you honey bunch.” I smiled a little as I climbed out the car.

“Love you too pumpkin.” He watched me walk into the house before driving off. By the looks of it, everyone was out. In a way I wished one of them was in. I just wanted to break down, but then again who would really care. It's the same old shit as usual. They get upset, then go about their daily routines. I headed down towards the music room the boys had downstairs, maybe I could just sit in there. They wouldn't even know unless they came down. Looking at the 'practice sheet' I spotted they were due in here later on. Great, so much for alone time. I turned to walk off before colliding into Vic.

“What's wrong?” he said as he helped steady me.

“Nothing, just tired.”

“You never come down here, spit it out now.” I shook my head, I walked past him & all the way up to my room.

Here goes nothing.