I don't remember falling asleep, man I don't even remenber waking up but here I was. In Tonys arms in the middle of the bunk area crying my eyes out. I told him what happened and he promised he was mad at me. That I made a small mistake but Vic would get over it. I wasn't so sure. He seemed really mad. I don't think I've ever cried this much before. I mean the month in Cali where we weren't together was hard but there was always the possibility that he still loved me but now it was clear that he didn't. What hurts me the most is I know about what Cara done to him and I basically done the exact same thing. I fucking hate myself right now.

"Hayley, stop crying. You'll make yourself sick" Tony whispered. "I... can't... T-Tony" I choked out. "Hey, look at me" He said making me look at him. "You need to calm down. I am so mad at him for treating you this way" Tony muttered. "No Tony, I cheated... I deserve it" I whispered. "But you owned up to it and apologized, you coulda swept it under the rug and never mentioned it again but you were the bigger person" Tony explained. "I still fucked up" I sighed. Tony stood up and pulled me up with him. "Come on, let's go sit with the guys" He smiled softly. I nodded and wiped the tears away.

When we walked into the lounge area and everyone was there... except Vic. I frowned but decided he probably wanted some space. Jeremy and Taylor engulfed me in hugs and tried to cheer me up. "Guys, I appreciate it but I deserve to be left to my own sadness" I said honestly. "No, you need to have us around to make you smile" Jaime said kissing my forehead. "I love you guys" I smiled weakly. Mike looked at his phone and suddenly walked off the bus. "So we have today off in New York so what should we do?" Tony asked everyone.

"MIKE IS THAT WHORE IN THERE OR NOT?" Was suddenly shouted from outside the bus. Everyone looked at me and my heart broke. "Vic, calm the fuck down okay. You're drunk" Mike tried to reason with him. "No Mikey, I'm just right" Vic slurred loudly. I grabbed my shoes and phone and stepped off the bus. "Don't fucking worry, the whore is leaving" I muttered as I pushed past him. "Good, FUCK OFF" He screamed after me. "Vic shut the fuck up" I heard Mike say.

I just walked and walked. Still in my sweats and hoody from last night after the show. I didn't know where I was going or what I was doing but I was definitely not going back there anytime soon.

Vics P.O.V

Mike threw me onto the bus and I fell into everything imaginable. Everyone looked pissed at me. Why? She cheated on me. "What the fuck is your problem? You're my friends and you're taking her side?" I said with anger. "Yeah she fucked up but she owned up too. You are taking this too far Vic" Jaime got up and left the bus. "Fine. Be a fucking dick to your best friend" I shouted after him. Slowly but surely everyone left the bus and left me on my own. They're all assholes anyway. I laid my head down on the couch to stop the room spinning around me but it didn't work. Then everything went black.

I felt myself being nudged away. "Vic you slept all day and night. We are on in 10 minutes. Do your warm ups" Tony explained softy. I sat up and my head was spinning. I felt sick and dizzy but then I remembered why I drunk so much. Then I remembered what Hayley done. She let Josh kiss her... she cheated on me. Probably the worst thing anyone could do to me. I love her so much... or do I? No. No I fucking don't anymore.

I stood up and walked off the bus, passing Mike and Tony who gave me weird looks. Shit I haven't changed since last night. I ran back on the bus and changed clothes quickly and warmed my voice up as much as I could. I can't believe I slept for nearly two days. We were in DC now.

Hayley watched the show. It made me feel sick because a part of me wanted to go kiss her and make everything better but the heartbroken part of me knew that I had to be stronger.

After the show I went to our dressing room and found the liquor cabinet. "This is what I'm talking bout" I grinned to myself as I opened a bottle of Tequila. I downed half the bottle in one go, the burning of the alcohol eventually became a numbing sensation. I drank until the bottle was gone then decided to leave.

I walked out of the building and leaned against the wall. I sighed and then giggled at how drunk I was fastly becoming. "Hey, what's a rockstar like you doing out here all on your lonesome?" I heard a girl say sweetly. I opened my eyes and seen a girl with long blonde hair and pretty blue eyes staring at me. My breath caught in my throat and I smiled drunkenly at her. "The headliners of the show has a bitch of a lead singer" I giggled. "Isn't that your girlfriend?" She questioned. "Nope" I said loudly, popping the p. The girl grinned at me and I knew what was going to happen.

Hayleys P.O.V

I walked offstage and my fake smile fell to the floor. Vic passed out on the couch yesterday and had to be woken for the show today. So I guess facing him sober would now be an obstacle I had to face. No one dared to speak to me. Kellin was upset that things have been taken so far. Katelynne spent all of last night with me to make me feel better since she was the only female on the tour with me.

I walked towards the exit of the building and my heart felt so heavy. Like it was going to break all over again. I shook the feeling and opened the door. I stepped outside and looked to my left. The sight before me broke my already shattered heart into even more tiny pieces. Vic was kissing some blonde girl and he was enjoying it. He looked at me and realisation spread across his face. I ran to the bus and climbed in. My heart was beating so fast. I couldn't deal with it. He was trying to get back at me for what I done.

I packed a bag and then left the bus and went onto the other bus. Josh, Max and Kellin were sitting in the lounge area watching TV. "Hey, you okay?" Kellin spoke up. "I just seen Vic making out with some blonde girl" I said and broke down in tears. They all looked at each other. "That's it" Josh said standing up and storming off the bus. I looked up and Max and Kellin quickly stood up. I did too and we all ran off the bus. I seen Josh approaching Vic while he still made out with this girl.

Josh walked up to him and grabbed his T-shirt and pulled him back. Vic looked at Josh with anger. "What the fuck are you doing? You want a go on her too?" Vic spat at him. "Get your shit together you fucking arsehole" Josh said through gritted teeth, his English accent strong and dominating. Vic pushed him back and laughed. "You have no fucking right Josh" Vic shook his head. "No, I fucked up, I kissed your girlfriend and I'm sorry about that but you? I thought you were a better man than this. Treat her with a bit more respect. She didn't start it she was too fragile to stop it because you wanna know something Vic" He said spitting his name out. "You are too blind to see her right infront of you. Ever since you came into her life you've fucked her ovee time and time again and she is sick of it. The girl deserves better than you" Josh said shaking his head. "What like you?" Vic said with confusion. "Maybe. Least I'd treat her right. Love her like she deserves" Josh growled at Vic. "You love her? That's fucking hilarious" Vic slurred. He stumbled over to me and grabbed me face. He kissed me roughly and I cringed. "She loves me" He said cockily. I began to cry and he looked at me. "Pathetic" He whispered.

The next thing I seen was Josh tackle Vic to the ground and began to punch him. Kellin tried to pull Josh off him but it didn't work. "Josh stop" I cried. He didn't stop so I tried to pull him off and he stummbled away from Vic and away to the bus. I sat there and looked at Vic who was covered in blood, laughing hysterically. My heart was breaking for him. He was so drunk and so broken and it was all because of me. Kellin kneeled beside me and Max went after Josh. Vic sat up and looked at me. "You really broke my heart" He whispered. "Now I don't know what to do" He spat out blood. I choked on my tears and his face turned sad. I stood up and he looked at me with more sadness. "I'm staying on the other bus for a bit... you can have space" I whispered. He became angry and stood up. Kellin did also and stood next to me. "Go be a fucking whore then!" He screamed. I closed my eyes and ran to the other bus. This was going to be tough.