“Eww why is Vic even with you? Your a fat ugly whore” Some girl shouted as they walked by the merch tent that Vic, Cassandra and I were sitting at. I tensed up. Her words got to me and Vic could tell.
“Babe don’t listen to her you are beautiful” He said and I forced a smile. I couldn’t help but let the words go to heart. I suddenly felt sick.
“Yeah you're right I am not feeling very well I think I am going to go lay down in our bunk if thats okay” Vic nodded and kissed me before leaving. I hugged Cassandra but she was still so jumpy due to the past she has with people. I slowly walked back to the bus looking at all the tents around me when I saw that girl again. I put my head down trying to avoid eye contact.
“Look it’s the fat ugly whore again” She said and her group of friends laughed along with her. It felt like highschool all over again. I could my depression an insecurities kicking in the closer I got to the bus. I got to the bus to find Justin sitting on the sleeping with sirens bus steps. I smiled at him pretending that everything was okay. I walked into the bus and looked into the mirror. your fat and gross, why does he love you? my mind shouted at me. do it you fucking fat bitch you know you want to! it shouted again. I tried to shake it but it kept chanting. do it or you will a fat ugly whore for the rest of your fat fucking life and Vic will leave your fat ass! That is when I lost it.
“I CAN’T FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!” I yelled as I hunched over the toilet and threw up my the contents of my stomach. The voices kept coming as I puked. thats right you fat fuck throw it up. I smiled between heaves of throwing up. throw up all you want but you will always be fat you bitch! It screamed and so did I.

“MAKE IT FUCKING STOP PLEASE!!!!” I screamed at the top of my lungs and the bathroom door busted open. I looked up from the toilet to find Justin looking at me panicked.
“Kat what happened are you okay?” I cried as he made his way to me and wrapped his arms around me.
“MAke the voices stop please please I can’t do this anymore” I cried violently.
“What Kat what is it that you can’t do anymore?” He asked as a tear fell from his face.
“Life I want to die I wanna be skinny I am just a fat useless pathetic excuse for a person I don’t deserve to be here” I cried and he shook his head.
“Don’t say that ever again. You not only deserve to live your life you were meant to live your life. You are not fat Kat you are one of the skinniest girls that I have ever seen and you are beautiful” He hugged me again and kissed the top of my head.



Justin cleaned me up and helped me get into bed. Once he left I crawled out of bed and went back to the bathroom. I threw up one more time and then went underneath the sink only to find my blade that I had been hiding. Make it count bitch, remember up the river not across the road that shit is for pussies. The voices were back and this was the only way I knew to get rid of them. I cut my wrist up the bug vein an I did it deep. I kept doing it and let the blood trickled out of the open wounds. I did it once more but right as I was putting the blade to my wrists the door opened. I looked up to see Vic standing there crying. I began to feel light headed and dizzy just like on the night Vic and Jaime saved my life.

“I am so sorry Vic” Was all I said before blacking out. I was in Darkness I felt.


Alone.


Helpless.


Lost with no hope.


peaceful.



Is this what death feels like?

God I sure hope so.

Notes

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