You Deserve Much More
A Cry For Help
I woke up in Vic’s arms on the couch. I smiled and looked at the time. We only slept for and hour.
“Baby wake up lets go do something?” I asked as Vic rolled over.
“Okay what do you wanna do?” I thought about it for a minute.
“Lets go to Sleeping with sirens bus and hangout with them” Vic laughed and I looked at him with a confused face.
“what are you laughing at?” I asked and he looked down and laughed again.
“You know your boobs bounce when you are excited?” I looked down to see my naked chest. I covered up and smacked him lightly on his arm.
Vic and I walked over to the Sleeping With Sirens bus and walked in.
“Hey guys how was your night?” Kellin asked. I flipped him off an Vic laughed
“I think you know how my night was since you walked in” Jesse and Justin laughed.
“Kellin got a show and I was sitting here what the fuck I miss everything good” Justin yelled.
“Shut up I didn’t willingly show myself to Kellin” I laughed sipping on some beer. The night ended perfectly and I couldn’t be happier with Vic.
It had been a week since Vic and I went public, some fans were okay and happy for us and some fans hated it and sent me death threats. The way that I see the fans that send me death threats is that if they were real fans of Pierce The Veil then they would be happy for the guys and whatever they choose to do in their personal life.
“Hey baby will you come to the meet and greet with us and sit next to me today instead of standing behind us?” Vic wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck.
“I don’t know what if they all hate me, I mean you see what they say to me on twitter” He sighed and pulled me into his lap. He put his finger on my chin forcing me to look at him.
“Babe don’t let people like that get you down. The only thing that matters in this life is yours, mine and the guys happiness and if the fans can’t see that you make me happy then they are no fan of mine” I kissed him with passion.
“I love you Vic” He smiled
“Oh Kat I love you too more than you could ever know” I kissed him and sighed pulling away.
“I will sit with you at the meet and greet today” He cheered an shewed me to get dressed. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=89541096
“Damn little red you look fucking fierce today” Mike said between sipping his water.
“I hope looking fierce is a good thing” I asked sitting on Vic.
“Oh hell yeah it looks like you aren’t afraid to beat some bitches ass” I laughed wiggling around on Vics lap to get comfortable and he let out a grunt. I turned around and laughed.
“Aww what's the matter vicky? someone a bit frustrated?” Tony asked and Jaime Laughed. I looked around and laughed.
“He should be its been a fucking week and I have been torturing the shit out of him” Vic threw his head back in frustration and we all just laughed.
“Shit why would you do that to a man thats just cruel” Mike laughed.
“He can thank fucking kellin for walking in on us and plus I think its fun teasing” I admitted and Jaime spoke up.
“That is brilliant I thought it was quiet around here without all the fucking moans and screams coming from your bunk” I flipped him off an Vic threw a pillow at him.
We we all sitting at the table meeting fans. I thought that I would just be sitting next to Vic watching him talk to the fans but some of them wanted me to sign things for them.
“Why does everyone want me to sign stuff for them? “I asked as Vic was handing Mike a poster.
“Because babe they all know your story and they like you” I forgot that now that I was known as Vics girlfriend people would know about my past. One girl with a subtle red hair came up to the table. There was something about her that seemed different than all the other fans that I had seen today and then it hit me, The scars on her arms. Scars identical to the ones that I used to have visible on my skin. I was shaken out of my thoughts when Vic started talking to her.
“What is your name babe?” He asked and she didn’t blush or giggle she just talked as if he was a normal person.
“Cassandra and I just wanted to say thank you” She smiled at him.
“That is a very pretty name and why are you saying thank you?” Vic can be so fucking dumb sometimes.
“Well I know that people tell you this all the time an stuff but Vic your band has saved my life on so many different occasions that I have lost count of how many. I wanna say thank you for keeping me alive and even though I may never see you again after this I know that as long as you keep making music you will continue to keep me alive. As fucking pathetic as it sounds I really owe you, the guys an even Kat my life for saving me” I had tears in my eyes.
“Cassandra what you said to me is not pathetic at all what you said to me is real and I wanna be there for you so I am giving you this okay and don’t give it out because I want to help you” She smiled as he wrote down his number on a paper.
“Thank you and now I won’t give it out” I smiled. As she was about to walk away Vic grabbed her hand and pulled her back.
“How old are you?” she couldn’t have been more than 16.
“I am 15 and a half” Vic smiled and gave her a hug. Before she left she gave me an envelope with my name on it.
“What is this?” I asked as I was about to open it.
“I wrote you a letter containing things that I have been through because they are similar to your past and it also states some things about being thankful that you are Vics girlfriend, but please read it when I am gone” I nodded and hugged her.
“I told you that people loved you” Vic kissed me. I couldn’t help but think that Cassandra needed our help.
“Vic there is something about that girl that makes me feel like she needs us to help her” I rubbed up and down my arms thinking about it.
“I know an I want you to go back to the bus and read it okay because I want to find out just what it is” I nodded and said goodbye to everyone.
I walked back to the bus and sat on the couch. I opened the letter that was addressed to me.
Dear Kat One of my biggest inspirations,
My name is Cassandra hills (No relation to Justin Hills I have checked haha). I wanted to say thank you I am not exactly sure about why I say thank you but I am sure it has to do with making me realize that I am not the only one that has gone through such horrible shit in life. The only difference between us is that I am still going through horrible shit and you have found a way out. I am guessing you want to hear about my life? If not I am going to tell you anyway. My mother died when I was 10 so now I am stuck with my abusive father. As I write this to you he is yelling at me so I have to hide this letter until he is done yelling and screaming at me. It had been about 3 hours since I hid the letter because as soon as I his the letter my father stormed into my room and hit, kicked, punched, shoved, burned, cut, an raped me. I know it sounds horrible but to be honest he has done a lot worse. When my mother passed away he started getting heavy into cocaine and became an alcoholic. He started to beat me on my 11 birthday. He started off just slapping me but that lead to punching and kicking. When I got used to these beatings he would use blunt objects to beat me such as the T.V remote, wooden spoons, baseball bats, golf clubs, and sometimes he used a metal pipe. He had cracked my skull, broken all of my ribs twice, broken my legs three times, and both of my arms multiple times too many to count. Since we lived near a farm that my father worked at he would bring home the branders that they use on the cows and burn me. On my stomach I have dozens of burns that are the letter B from the brands that he burned me with an still burns me with every saturday night. My virginity was taken from me at age 12. My father came home from a night out at a bar with some friends and insisted that I was being sneaky. He invited 8 of his friends into the house to help punish me. I wa raped by all 8 including my father. The pain was agonizing. No matter how much I cried for them to stop they didn’t my father would just whip me with a thin metal rod and tell me that this is what happens when little girls don’t obey their daddy’s. I tried to tell my family but they didn’t believe me and I couldn’t tell anyone at school because I had no friends and none of the teachers liked me. Every night after he took my virginity he came home branded me an raped me. When I was 12 and a half I discovered pierce The Veil. Kat I can’t tell you how thankful I am that they exist. They bring a light to my shitty life. There are so many times that I want to give up an end my life but I put on their music and it makes me feel like I have a purpose in life. Last week I tried to kill myself by cutting too deep but just as I was about to cut Hold on Till May played on my ipod and I threw my razor on the ground and decided against it. As I am writing this I am in so much pain from my fathers latest beating and raping that I don’t know if I can continue. I am sort of writing this as a cry for help because no one believes me when I try to tell them but I feel like you will. I have taken some photos of the bruises that my father has caused an the cuts he made in my skin to show you that I am not lying about any of this. I hope that you can help me here is my number please I am begging you help me get away from this piece of shit I call my father.
With Love,
Cassandra Hills.
I was in tears by the end of the letter. I knew that this girl needed help and I plan on helping her with or without Vics permission. The guys walked into the bus as soon as I put the letter away.
“Hey Little red what's wrong?” Mike asked sitting next to me and hugging me.
“You know that letter that the girl at the meet and greet gave me?” He nodded. Vic sat on the other side of me.
“Yeah I do” I took a deep breath.
“well Guys she needs our help she needs to be taken from her father an I don’t care what you guys say I am getting her away from her father and she is coming here” Jaime and Tony nodded.
‘I don’t mind her coming here as long as she is safe” Mike and Vic agreed.
“I am going to go call her and let her know” I said getting up. I called Cassandra and she was thankful that I called though she had to hang up because of her dad. I heard him calling her an unworthy whore that deserves to die.
A week later they guys and I had gone to court two days after the meet and greet an adopted Cassandra. Vic and I were legally her parents now. It felt good to help someone who needed us.
“I want to thank you guys for this I really owe you big time” Cassandra said as we walked to the bus.
“Hey no need to thank us we were just glad to get you out” I said an Vic nodded.
“I have an important question to ask you and I am not sure how your are going to react” Vic said an Cassandra nodded.
“Umm depends on what it is ask away” She nodded and I chuckled to myself.
“Well I was wondering since you are now legally my daughter which sounds so weird to say I was wondering if you would like to get your name changed to mine?” She squealed and said yes.
We went an had Cassies name changed to fuentes and had a small party on our bus with the guys from Sleeping With Sirens. Cassandra seemed so happy to be safe and with people that she loved and who loved her back just the same. I am glad that I had opened the letter. I feel acomplished.
“Baby wake up lets go do something?” I asked as Vic rolled over.
“Okay what do you wanna do?” I thought about it for a minute.
“Lets go to Sleeping with sirens bus and hangout with them” Vic laughed and I looked at him with a confused face.
“what are you laughing at?” I asked and he looked down and laughed again.
“You know your boobs bounce when you are excited?” I looked down to see my naked chest. I covered up and smacked him lightly on his arm.
Vic and I walked over to the Sleeping With Sirens bus and walked in.
“Hey guys how was your night?” Kellin asked. I flipped him off an Vic laughed
“I think you know how my night was since you walked in” Jesse and Justin laughed.
“Kellin got a show and I was sitting here what the fuck I miss everything good” Justin yelled.
“Shut up I didn’t willingly show myself to Kellin” I laughed sipping on some beer. The night ended perfectly and I couldn’t be happier with Vic.
It had been a week since Vic and I went public, some fans were okay and happy for us and some fans hated it and sent me death threats. The way that I see the fans that send me death threats is that if they were real fans of Pierce The Veil then they would be happy for the guys and whatever they choose to do in their personal life.
“Hey baby will you come to the meet and greet with us and sit next to me today instead of standing behind us?” Vic wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck.
“I don’t know what if they all hate me, I mean you see what they say to me on twitter” He sighed and pulled me into his lap. He put his finger on my chin forcing me to look at him.
“Babe don’t let people like that get you down. The only thing that matters in this life is yours, mine and the guys happiness and if the fans can’t see that you make me happy then they are no fan of mine” I kissed him with passion.
“I love you Vic” He smiled
“Oh Kat I love you too more than you could ever know” I kissed him and sighed pulling away.
“I will sit with you at the meet and greet today” He cheered an shewed me to get dressed. http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=89541096
“Damn little red you look fucking fierce today” Mike said between sipping his water.
“I hope looking fierce is a good thing” I asked sitting on Vic.
“Oh hell yeah it looks like you aren’t afraid to beat some bitches ass” I laughed wiggling around on Vics lap to get comfortable and he let out a grunt. I turned around and laughed.
“Aww what's the matter vicky? someone a bit frustrated?” Tony asked and Jaime Laughed. I looked around and laughed.
“He should be its been a fucking week and I have been torturing the shit out of him” Vic threw his head back in frustration and we all just laughed.
“Shit why would you do that to a man thats just cruel” Mike laughed.
“He can thank fucking kellin for walking in on us and plus I think its fun teasing” I admitted and Jaime spoke up.
“That is brilliant I thought it was quiet around here without all the fucking moans and screams coming from your bunk” I flipped him off an Vic threw a pillow at him.
We we all sitting at the table meeting fans. I thought that I would just be sitting next to Vic watching him talk to the fans but some of them wanted me to sign things for them.
“Why does everyone want me to sign stuff for them? “I asked as Vic was handing Mike a poster.
“Because babe they all know your story and they like you” I forgot that now that I was known as Vics girlfriend people would know about my past. One girl with a subtle red hair came up to the table. There was something about her that seemed different than all the other fans that I had seen today and then it hit me, The scars on her arms. Scars identical to the ones that I used to have visible on my skin. I was shaken out of my thoughts when Vic started talking to her.
“What is your name babe?” He asked and she didn’t blush or giggle she just talked as if he was a normal person.
“Cassandra and I just wanted to say thank you” She smiled at him.
“That is a very pretty name and why are you saying thank you?” Vic can be so fucking dumb sometimes.
“Well I know that people tell you this all the time an stuff but Vic your band has saved my life on so many different occasions that I have lost count of how many. I wanna say thank you for keeping me alive and even though I may never see you again after this I know that as long as you keep making music you will continue to keep me alive. As fucking pathetic as it sounds I really owe you, the guys an even Kat my life for saving me” I had tears in my eyes.
“Cassandra what you said to me is not pathetic at all what you said to me is real and I wanna be there for you so I am giving you this okay and don’t give it out because I want to help you” She smiled as he wrote down his number on a paper.
“Thank you and now I won’t give it out” I smiled. As she was about to walk away Vic grabbed her hand and pulled her back.
“How old are you?” she couldn’t have been more than 16.
“I am 15 and a half” Vic smiled and gave her a hug. Before she left she gave me an envelope with my name on it.
“What is this?” I asked as I was about to open it.
“I wrote you a letter containing things that I have been through because they are similar to your past and it also states some things about being thankful that you are Vics girlfriend, but please read it when I am gone” I nodded and hugged her.
“I told you that people loved you” Vic kissed me. I couldn’t help but think that Cassandra needed our help.
“Vic there is something about that girl that makes me feel like she needs us to help her” I rubbed up and down my arms thinking about it.
“I know an I want you to go back to the bus and read it okay because I want to find out just what it is” I nodded and said goodbye to everyone.
I walked back to the bus and sat on the couch. I opened the letter that was addressed to me.
Dear Kat One of my biggest inspirations,
My name is Cassandra hills (No relation to Justin Hills I have checked haha). I wanted to say thank you I am not exactly sure about why I say thank you but I am sure it has to do with making me realize that I am not the only one that has gone through such horrible shit in life. The only difference between us is that I am still going through horrible shit and you have found a way out. I am guessing you want to hear about my life? If not I am going to tell you anyway. My mother died when I was 10 so now I am stuck with my abusive father. As I write this to you he is yelling at me so I have to hide this letter until he is done yelling and screaming at me. It had been about 3 hours since I hid the letter because as soon as I his the letter my father stormed into my room and hit, kicked, punched, shoved, burned, cut, an raped me. I know it sounds horrible but to be honest he has done a lot worse. When my mother passed away he started getting heavy into cocaine and became an alcoholic. He started to beat me on my 11 birthday. He started off just slapping me but that lead to punching and kicking. When I got used to these beatings he would use blunt objects to beat me such as the T.V remote, wooden spoons, baseball bats, golf clubs, and sometimes he used a metal pipe. He had cracked my skull, broken all of my ribs twice, broken my legs three times, and both of my arms multiple times too many to count. Since we lived near a farm that my father worked at he would bring home the branders that they use on the cows and burn me. On my stomach I have dozens of burns that are the letter B from the brands that he burned me with an still burns me with every saturday night. My virginity was taken from me at age 12. My father came home from a night out at a bar with some friends and insisted that I was being sneaky. He invited 8 of his friends into the house to help punish me. I wa raped by all 8 including my father. The pain was agonizing. No matter how much I cried for them to stop they didn’t my father would just whip me with a thin metal rod and tell me that this is what happens when little girls don’t obey their daddy’s. I tried to tell my family but they didn’t believe me and I couldn’t tell anyone at school because I had no friends and none of the teachers liked me. Every night after he took my virginity he came home branded me an raped me. When I was 12 and a half I discovered pierce The Veil. Kat I can’t tell you how thankful I am that they exist. They bring a light to my shitty life. There are so many times that I want to give up an end my life but I put on their music and it makes me feel like I have a purpose in life. Last week I tried to kill myself by cutting too deep but just as I was about to cut Hold on Till May played on my ipod and I threw my razor on the ground and decided against it. As I am writing this I am in so much pain from my fathers latest beating and raping that I don’t know if I can continue. I am sort of writing this as a cry for help because no one believes me when I try to tell them but I feel like you will. I have taken some photos of the bruises that my father has caused an the cuts he made in my skin to show you that I am not lying about any of this. I hope that you can help me here is my number please I am begging you help me get away from this piece of shit I call my father.
With Love,
Cassandra Hills.
I was in tears by the end of the letter. I knew that this girl needed help and I plan on helping her with or without Vics permission. The guys walked into the bus as soon as I put the letter away.
“Hey Little red what's wrong?” Mike asked sitting next to me and hugging me.
“You know that letter that the girl at the meet and greet gave me?” He nodded. Vic sat on the other side of me.
“Yeah I do” I took a deep breath.
“well Guys she needs our help she needs to be taken from her father an I don’t care what you guys say I am getting her away from her father and she is coming here” Jaime and Tony nodded.
‘I don’t mind her coming here as long as she is safe” Mike and Vic agreed.
“I am going to go call her and let her know” I said getting up. I called Cassandra and she was thankful that I called though she had to hang up because of her dad. I heard him calling her an unworthy whore that deserves to die.
A week later they guys and I had gone to court two days after the meet and greet an adopted Cassandra. Vic and I were legally her parents now. It felt good to help someone who needed us.
“I want to thank you guys for this I really owe you big time” Cassandra said as we walked to the bus.
“Hey no need to thank us we were just glad to get you out” I said an Vic nodded.
“I have an important question to ask you and I am not sure how your are going to react” Vic said an Cassandra nodded.
“Umm depends on what it is ask away” She nodded and I chuckled to myself.
“Well I was wondering since you are now legally my daughter which sounds so weird to say I was wondering if you would like to get your name changed to mine?” She squealed and said yes.
We went an had Cassies name changed to fuentes and had a small party on our bus with the guys from Sleeping With Sirens. Cassandra seemed so happy to be safe and with people that she loved and who loved her back just the same. I am glad that I had opened the letter. I feel acomplished.
7/21/13