Come Back To My Heart.
I Love You
*** TONY'S POV ***
I was still staring into space, completely oblivious to absolutely everything and anything happening around me when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned round to see my mum with a weak smile on her face, she loves Alice like it was her own daughter so this is really hard on her too.
“Hi honey. She’s ready to talk to you.”
“Okay… I uh, I called Vic, Mike & Jaime, so they’re all coming up. Uhh. I guess I’ll text them telling them where I’ll be when they get here.” I paused for a minute and let out an audible sob. “I’m so sorry all this happened, it’s my fault. I love her… I love her mamma.” I sobbed a little harder and my mum wrapped me in one of her amazing hugs that just calmed me down easily. Her and Alice were the only ones capable of doing that.
“Tell her that, baby. She needs to know.” She rubbed my back before sending me on my way and I looked back at her and smiled. I’m so glad I have a supportive mother who I get along with so well. She’s like my best friend too.
I got up to Alice’s room and delicately knocked on the door. Alice must have wanted us to talk alone because her mum came and opened the door then left, squeezing me into a little cuddle before she left. I stood a few feet away from the bed Alice was lying on. I wasn’t sure she wanted me near her. I was scared. I’d been looking down since I got in the room, scared that if I look up at her I’ll start sobbing and not be able to control it. I looked up for a split second to find her heart-warming smile staring back at me, patting the space on the bed next to her for me to sit down. I did as I was told and mumbled a little “Hi” and waited for her to speak.
*** ALICE'S POV ***
“Hey Tone.” I smiled softly at him. I knew this was hard on him. I felt bad actually, I had come to the realization that this was selfish of me to do and I shouldn’t have even thought about it. I should have spoken to someone instead of letting the demons in my head get the better of me.
He turned round to face me, finally looking up at me for more than a second. He was smiling but there were tears in his eyes. I hated seeing him like this. Knowing it was me making him feel like this made me worse. He took my hand in his and traced small circles with his thumb over the palm of my hand. It was so relaxing.
“Alice. I’m so so sorry.” He choked out. “I didn’t mean for you to feel like this. I’m so so sorry baby girl. You’re everything to me and I know that you feel the same now. I don’t want to make you feel like this ever again. I love you so much and it kills me knowing I’m the reason you’re in here. I called Vic, Jaime & Mike to let them know everything that was going on… I understand you might not want to see Mike and I told him so, but they all insisted on coming up. They told me to tell you that they love you, and that they don’t even need to come in. Just as long as you know they’re outside for you, and they’re here for you.” he started rambling.
“Tone. Stop saying sorry. It’s not your fault. None of it is. I just got so upset and let everything get the better of me. I thought I lost you. But I was being stupid; of course I hadn’t lost you. We’re next door neighbours and our parents are best friends, your family and your house is my second home and second family. I should’ve been less selfish. I just got upset. It was stupid of me, really. I know you love me. It was just a little tiff. And I love you too, more than I thought I would ever be able to love anyone. Now come here and kiss me fool” I giggled and Tony bent down to kiss me softly. The biggest smile was on his face. “And as for the boys, of course I’d want to see them. But when Mike gets here I’d like to talk to him privately, first, and then everything will be okay. I’m on suicide watch until tomorrow afternoon and then I can get out. So could you come up with my mum tomorrow to come get me? And choose my clothes please!!” he laughed and nodded, kissing me again.
“I love you,” he whispered against my lips as he pulled away. “You’re perfect.”
“I love you too Tone.” I smiled up at him. God he really was perfect.
I was finally getting out today and I could not wait. I needed to be home, I missed my own bed dearly. I missed hanging around with my boys. I missed being with Tony 24/7. Everything’s perfect with us again and we’re even going on a date next week. I love him so much it hurts but I just wish he’d ask me to be his already!!
Eventually Tony and my mum came to pick me up, it was a really hot summers day and I was more than thankful that tony brought me shorts to wear or I was gonna faint from the heat! He also told me we were going to Starbucks on the way home! Yay! I ran into the bathroom to quickly change and brush through my hair before leaving this shithole with Tony on my arm and a big smile plastered on my face.
I was still staring into space, completely oblivious to absolutely everything and anything happening around me when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned round to see my mum with a weak smile on her face, she loves Alice like it was her own daughter so this is really hard on her too.
“Hi honey. She’s ready to talk to you.”
“Okay… I uh, I called Vic, Mike & Jaime, so they’re all coming up. Uhh. I guess I’ll text them telling them where I’ll be when they get here.” I paused for a minute and let out an audible sob. “I’m so sorry all this happened, it’s my fault. I love her… I love her mamma.” I sobbed a little harder and my mum wrapped me in one of her amazing hugs that just calmed me down easily. Her and Alice were the only ones capable of doing that.
“Tell her that, baby. She needs to know.” She rubbed my back before sending me on my way and I looked back at her and smiled. I’m so glad I have a supportive mother who I get along with so well. She’s like my best friend too.
I got up to Alice’s room and delicately knocked on the door. Alice must have wanted us to talk alone because her mum came and opened the door then left, squeezing me into a little cuddle before she left. I stood a few feet away from the bed Alice was lying on. I wasn’t sure she wanted me near her. I was scared. I’d been looking down since I got in the room, scared that if I look up at her I’ll start sobbing and not be able to control it. I looked up for a split second to find her heart-warming smile staring back at me, patting the space on the bed next to her for me to sit down. I did as I was told and mumbled a little “Hi” and waited for her to speak.
*** ALICE'S POV ***
“Hey Tone.” I smiled softly at him. I knew this was hard on him. I felt bad actually, I had come to the realization that this was selfish of me to do and I shouldn’t have even thought about it. I should have spoken to someone instead of letting the demons in my head get the better of me.
He turned round to face me, finally looking up at me for more than a second. He was smiling but there were tears in his eyes. I hated seeing him like this. Knowing it was me making him feel like this made me worse. He took my hand in his and traced small circles with his thumb over the palm of my hand. It was so relaxing.
“Alice. I’m so so sorry.” He choked out. “I didn’t mean for you to feel like this. I’m so so sorry baby girl. You’re everything to me and I know that you feel the same now. I don’t want to make you feel like this ever again. I love you so much and it kills me knowing I’m the reason you’re in here. I called Vic, Jaime & Mike to let them know everything that was going on… I understand you might not want to see Mike and I told him so, but they all insisted on coming up. They told me to tell you that they love you, and that they don’t even need to come in. Just as long as you know they’re outside for you, and they’re here for you.” he started rambling.
“Tone. Stop saying sorry. It’s not your fault. None of it is. I just got so upset and let everything get the better of me. I thought I lost you. But I was being stupid; of course I hadn’t lost you. We’re next door neighbours and our parents are best friends, your family and your house is my second home and second family. I should’ve been less selfish. I just got upset. It was stupid of me, really. I know you love me. It was just a little tiff. And I love you too, more than I thought I would ever be able to love anyone. Now come here and kiss me fool” I giggled and Tony bent down to kiss me softly. The biggest smile was on his face. “And as for the boys, of course I’d want to see them. But when Mike gets here I’d like to talk to him privately, first, and then everything will be okay. I’m on suicide watch until tomorrow afternoon and then I can get out. So could you come up with my mum tomorrow to come get me? And choose my clothes please!!” he laughed and nodded, kissing me again.
“I love you,” he whispered against my lips as he pulled away. “You’re perfect.”
“I love you too Tone.” I smiled up at him. God he really was perfect.
I was finally getting out today and I could not wait. I needed to be home, I missed my own bed dearly. I missed hanging around with my boys. I missed being with Tony 24/7. Everything’s perfect with us again and we’re even going on a date next week. I love him so much it hurts but I just wish he’d ask me to be his already!!
Eventually Tony and my mum came to pick me up, it was a really hot summers day and I was more than thankful that tony brought me shorts to wear or I was gonna faint from the heat! He also told me we were going to Starbucks on the way home! Yay! I ran into the bathroom to quickly change and brush through my hair before leaving this shithole with Tony on my arm and a big smile plastered on my face.
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8/2/13