Kissing in Cars
how am I supposed to feel?
Mike and I were outside sitting on the private beach smoking like any other ordinary day.
“So how does it feel to be married and almost done with high school?” He asked and I shook my head.
“I mean it feels the same but i know that I am now married to someone who I love with all of my heart” I smiled at the thought. Tony meant everything to me and I wouldn’t know what I would do if I lost him.
“sounds nice I wish I felt that way I wish I had someone to love me the way you love Tony” I saw his wipe away a tear from his cheek. This made me sad to see my best friend the only one that I have ever had crying.
“Oh Mikey you will find her she is out there somewhere I can promise that you will find her somewhere” He smiled
“Yeah if you say so I mean everyone at school calls us the metal heads and no one will ever know the real us and Elli for fucks sake we graduate in a week” I hugged him
“Hey now I believe with all my heart that you will find your other half and on the bright side you guys have been talking to that record label about the band” He smiled when I talked about the band. The guys have been speaking to this record label about getting signed and a possible tour. I was glad for them but I also didn’t want them to leave and me be here by myself.
“Thats is true and Elli thank you for being there for me when I need you” I hugged him and we went back into the house.
EXACTLY ONE YEAR LATER.....................................................................................
“That crowd out there was fucking amazing” Tony buzzed climbing back into the bus and sitting next to me. I smiled taking his hand in mine.
“Yeah it was one of the loudest ones on this tour” Mike sat and smiled. The boys got signed a month after Tony and I got married and we have been touring ever since. This time we were playing warped tour and it was by far one of my favorite tours out of the three we have been on.
“Hey where’s Jaime?” I asked getting water out of the mini fridge.
“Oh umm he was on the phone after we got off the stage” I nodded.
“EEEEEW TONY YOU ARE ALL SWEATY GET OFF ME” I yelled giggling to try and run away but to no avail I was pinned to the wall.
“but I missed you baby” he kissed all over my face making me giggle.
“I missed you too but lets go sit in the front of the bus with everyone else” I took his hand and walked to the front to see Mike and Vic crying and Jaime with his head in his hands. I didn’t know what was going on so I decided it was a joke and to go along with it.
“Guys we were gone for 5 minutes chill” I laughed and everyone just looked at me in shock.
“Elli belly please sit down” I was hesitant but I gave in. Jaime took my hands in his and looked at me.
“What is going on?” I was starting to worry.
“Elli mom’s work called me after the show and said that she had a heart attack and she passed away” His voice breaking a bit at the end. I didn’t say anything I got up and ran out of the bus as fast as I could. I saw many of the fans and they all shouted things.
“Look its Tony’s wife omg can you sign this?” they would ask and I ignored them and kept running I am not sure where I was going but I kept running until I was knocked over and it went black.
“Hey guys she is waking up” I heard a males voice. I opened my eyes to see all of Sleeping With Sirens and Tony by my side.
“Hey baby are you feeling okay ?” I shook my head no my mother just died for fucks sake what am I supposed to feel like ?
“No I am not okay I feel like my heart had just been ripped out of my chest and stomped on a thousand times” I cried into Tony’s chest and he carried me back to the bus.
“Tony i miss her so much” I cried and he rubbed circles on my back.
“I know you do and I know that you are hurting and so is Jaime so why don’t you lay with him tonight to keep him company” I nodded crawling in bed with Jaime. I wrapped my arms around him and he did the same to me.
“Jaime what are we going to do the only one we had left is gone” I cried violently sobbing into his chest.
“We play the last show tomorrow and then we go back to San Diego and plan her funeral and then go on with our lives and keep her in our hearts forever.” I smiled knowing he knew what to do. Jaime always knew what to do.
“Okay can we just go to sleep now I don’t wanna think about it tonight” He nodded kissed the top of my head and I drifted off to sleep.