My teachers lover (kellic)

How can I disguise myself? Hide from the crowd? How can I blend. I don't know the answers to these questions. And quite frankly I don't want to. Maybe I'm made to keep going until I break. I want to go. Somewhere. Somehow. I will. And what shall you do about it? Lie to me. Try to keep me alive. But I cant.
I woke up alone in Vics bed. His spot was cold where his body lay. I gulped and looked around. It was Saturday. It was so gloomy. I liked it. I walked downstairs and saw him in his office. I guess he was grading papers. My ringtone startled both of us. It was 'he love this phat ass' from anaconda. He laughed at it and I sighed.
I picked up the call and sighed. "kellin?" my father asked. "uh hey dad what's going on?" I asked. He sighed. "you're mother um took her own life, I'm so sorry," he said. Everything in my life crashed. I caused my mother to kill herself. Oh my god.
"o-ok," I stuttered. He hung up shortly and I looked back up at Vic. "i-I have to um go to the bathroom," I said. We all know that's not what I was going to do.

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