Besitos

So the next day I went to the park again. For the same reasons as yesterday, I didn't know why and as I got nearer and nearer to the bench I vaguely saw a form of a man. It was you again wearing your coat and beanie and just like yesterday you were distant. I contemplated if I should still continue to head there or not. Not because I don't wanna see you but because of how you acted yesterday when I asked you. Maybe you thought I was weird and so I don't wanna scare you if that's the case, but just like yesterday you looked my way and you saw me so I guess there's no more backing out now. I walk up to you, giving you a small smile to greet you before sitting beside you. You smiled back, it was a relief. I thought you'd be weirded out by me.

"Hello" I say.

"Hi" you say back with a tone that sounded quite uneasy, I felt happy yet awkward at the same time. You look across and then you went back to being distant again.

Silence. Nothing but awkward silence blanketed over us.

"Sooo, you're here again." I stated.

"Uhh yeah, I'm here again." You said still not looking at me.

"Hmmm." I thought for a while. "Are you okay?"

"Define okay."

Was the answer I got, and from that moment I knew exactly that I needed to be your friend. I wanted to know more about you. I wanted you to open up.

"Okay as in are you alright? How are you feeling?"

"I don't know." You said.

I was confuse for a while, I mean, how can a person not know what they feel? I mean, they should know because well, its their feelings.

"Okay." As confuse as I am, I let it go. I don't want to say something that'd make you leave again.

After a couple of minutes or maybe it was an hour, you took your phone out of your pocket and look down on it. I look down on it too. You were looking at a message, I couldn't read much and I didn't tried to, I respected your privacy but I noticed it was all in caps. I knew that much. You stood up and just like yesterday you left after telling me you had to go.

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