(ghost pov)
/——————————————Ten years later——————————————\
I wiped tears from my lifeless eyes as I woke up from another bitter sweet nightmare, ten years ago I lost my world and my mind punishes me every day for it. Its the only thing that changes in my life. I have the same boring routine. eat, sleep, cry over the loss of Ricky, work and listen to Balz hear him complain about his mate. I go into an almost zombie like mode as I shower and do my makeup. I felt a small pull in my numb chest but ignored it knowing the last time I followed it I was lead to my dead mate. Why him? it's not fair. the more i thought about it the more i wanted to badly to join Ricky... life was pointless without him, I haven't smiled in years, for a while i tried to get a cat but her eyes reminded me of Ricky so i let her stay with balz and Ryan. I got dressed into a shirt that smelt pretty clean and random skinny jeans that had way to many slits in then. i sluggishly walked down the stairs of my new place, it was barely decorated i don't have the energy to do most things anymore...not without him.

I walked into work. if your wondering i work for balz at his store. he pays well so i dont complain. He sees me and smiles "Ghosty!" my heart drops remembering ricky called me that a few times. Ryan ashley saw my distress and slapped the back of his head and gave him a look "you want me to do that tattoo today before i go " i nodded and followed her into a room and sat on the chair. i pulled the leg of my skinny jeans up and she looked at me "so whats the design?" i handed her the drawing "ghost i dont think its a great idea to get him-' i cut her off "please its 10 years" she nodded and started to tattoo it. i felt no pain because of how numb I've become. "some guy came in this morning wanting a similar style but your face" I shrugged my shoulders "most likely a fa-'' she cut me off "no he looked like ricky -'' my perked up "h-he is alive'' she shook her head "no he was buffer and way to intimating to be your ricky..sorry ghost. he just had the same piercing eyes" I nodded sadly "its ok Ryan" she finished the tattoo and ended up giving me the day off..like yesterday.

I walked to the one place I wanted to go today. My beauty's grave it was the only place my emotions would come out. I wish my grave could rest next to his so that he wouldn't be in pain up there.like I was down here in my own personal hell. Each step I look the pull got stronger, I kept ignoring it knowing the result of following it. I saw a figure hunched over my rick's grave. I smelt a pint smell and I realised what they were doing "HEY! get away from there!" I growled and charged at him but I stopped and froze as a scent. it was the same scent I had missed. the sweet smell of my Ricky "r-Ricky? how?" I walked over and grabbed the mans shoulder and felt those sparks I had missed so much "Ricky!" I teared up but the man stood up and ran. I ran after him and managed to trap him in an alleyway "r-Ricky please..is it really you" the man had hi head hanging low and I heard a small growl come from him. YES! this is my Ricky. I didn't hesitate to walk over to him and as soon as I went to grab him the figure jumped into the shadows and was gone. I sniffed as tears fell "RICKY!" I looked around "please" I cried as rain fell heavily on me. as I searched the streets for my love. My legs soon gave way and I fell into broken glass and my eyes were begging to close but I pushed through and weakly stood up. as I took another step my legs gave way and I fell into a dark slumber.

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