It has been four days since I’ve spoken to Mike. He’s called, he’s texted and he’s even tried to get Vic to talk to me but Vic’s obviously pissed at him too. Vic can’t stay pissed for long and he’s already said to me he can’t and the rest of the guys can’t. Which is totally okay, I’m fine with that.. But Vic did say that if I were to give him another chance I was to be careful and he should definitely work for my trust again. I agreed because he really should be working for my trust again, although I’m not sure if I want to forgive him yet. Or maybe even at all.

I was in the kitchen making dinner for me and Jaime, my speciality dish! Pasta with a tomato and basil sauce with some chicken through it. Mmm.

“Scar..?”

“Yep Jaime?”

“You know I knew for quite a while about you and Mike…” I kind of froze as I was cutting the chicken.

“You what?”

“Yeah. Uh… He left his phone in your room after that night you were going out and you didn’t tell me where, and the next day I had to phone him and I heard it ringing… from your room. So yeah. I knew. I just didn’t want to say. I wanted you to tell me on your own and stuff, and now this has happened and I hope it doesn’t mean that you won’t come to our show in 3 days?”

“Oh, I see. I mean I totally would have told you but, yeah… that happened. Oh well. It's in the past” I said with a smile as if it wasn’t bothering me when really, it was. “Uhm, about the show though, I don’t know if it’s a good idea I mean Mike will obviously be there and I’ve sort of been ignoring him and ugh awkwardness…”

Jaime looked at me with a sad face and I hated that, I didn’t want to let him down but I don’t know, I don’t think I could face seeing Mike. I don’t even know why it hurt me so bad, we weren’t even together…

“I understand Scar” he said with a half-hearted smile.. “it just would have been cool for you to be there to support us.”

“Damn you Jaime Preciado. You’re too damn cute. Fine, I’ll go.”

He jumped up with excitement and his dimples looked so cute! He spun me around in the air and cuddled/squeezed me so tight. Ahh, my best friend is the best.


~


It was the night of the PTV show. I was so fucking nervous, but happy I would be seeing my boys, they are so fucking amazing at what they do! I got out of my shower and my clothes I’d asked Jaime to iron before he left for soundcheck were lying on my bed, what a sweetheart. I love him! I got changed into my underwear from my towel and started to apply my makeup. Half of me wanted to be hot as fuck so Mike’s heart would melt; the other half wanted me to just look okay so he didn’t even care. Ugh. I dried and curled my hair; it’s way down my back now! I love having long thick hair. I got changed, grabbed money and my keys and got headed to the show.
I went into the dressing room where I was attacked with cuddles from Jaime, Tony & Vic.

“Ah my little Scar, you do look so very little tonight, no heels?” Tony said, laughing and patting my head because I really was tiny compared to him.

“Nope, thought I’d be all tiny and cute tonight!” I replied squeezing my arms round Tony’s torso.

“Hey, Scarlett.” Mike said with a smile. I half-heartedly smiled back and gave him a quick wave, I forgot how fucking perfect he was. This is going to be more difficult than I first thought..

Sooner than expected the boys were called on and I watched as they all kicked ass. They all put their blood, sweat and tears into their shows and it was easy to see. I’ve never seen the four of them happier; they were just so good together. It was a perfect fix. I had my eyes on Tony at first (which I must say, he makes the funniest concentrated faces) and he looked so damn happy, the sweat was pouring off him though. Then my eyes went to my best friend in the whole world, Jaime. He was killing it on bass and it wasn’t hard to tell he was loving every moment of being on stage. Then I looked at Vic, who was putting every single one of his emotions into these songs, he’s such a talented performer. They all are. Then my eyes turned to Mike. Oh, perfect Mike. What was it that drew me to him? I missed his big muscly arms around me at night or his cute little lip ring kissing me in the morning and it being all cold and it tickled me. He is so beautiful. I wished he hadn’t screwed up, maybe we would be together… Maybe if I’d just told him I was going to speak to Vic nothing would have happened. Fuck it, nothing I can do to change it now. He fucked up, maybe we both did a little, it’s done now. If I can control myself, that is…

It’s been two days since the PTV show. I’ve spoken to Jaime about how I’ve been feeling, he tells me to talk to him but I keep thinking I can’t trust him… I’ve been lying around like a slob watching love movie after love movie wishing that life and falling in love really was that fucking easy, and that trusting someone is easy. Wait did I just say falling in love? Ugh, that says it all then. I’m fucking in love with Mike Fuentes. Fuck.
I was lying on the couch with my hair naturally wavy and minimal makeup on, with my lazy clothes on when I heard a knock on the door.

“HIIIMEEEEY!” I shouted from the livingroom, “Get that pleeeeeeease”

There was no answer. God he’s a pain in the ass sometimes.

“GUESS I’LL GET IT MYSELF LAZYBONES!” I shouted. I heard him laughing, dick. I walked up to the door and unlocked it, for Mike to walk through.

“Oh, hey..” I said shyly as I walked back to the living room to plop myself back down to the couch.

“Waiting on Jaime?” He nodded.

“HIMEEEEY! Mikey is here, hurry up. It’s rude to keep people waiting” I winked at Mike and he chuckled a little bit. It made my heart melt, I missed him. He sat down on the end of the couch.

“I used to love when you called me Mikey, it was cute” he mumbled.

“Yeah, I guess it is I suppose. I’ll go get him, kay?” I smiled at him, he smiled back and nodded. “Jaime! For fuck’s sake, what can be taking you so long? Mikey’s waiting.” I plopped myself down on his bed.

“Sorry, I’m seriously not feeling too great Scar” I heard a little mumble coming from his toilet; his body kind of snuggled into the toilet pan.

“Ew, don’t give me it, stay away, I’ll go tell Mikey.”

“Why do you call him Mikey, you so love him” he winked

“Fuck off Himes” I grunted, knowing he knew that’s exactly what I felt for him. I made my way to the living room again where Mike looked right into “The Notebook” which was the latest love film I was on. I sat down a little away from him, not too far so he felt awkward but far enough so that I didn’t like pounce. I miss him okay?

“So, Mikey, it would appear that Himes is ill, I swear he is like hugging his toilet seat right now, the poor soul.” I said, Mike looked at me and was silent for a while, just looking at me…

“Sucks I guess…” he whispered. “Mind if I watch this film with you?” I shook my head and he went to get a blanket for me, what a cutie. He wrapped the blanket round me and sat right next to me and lifted me up slightly so my legs were draped over his. I smiled, because I was happy to be here with him, feeling the comfortable way I used to feel when I was with him. Maybe it was just one silly mistake; he might never actually make it again. Should I speak to him? I sighed softly, not realising I’d even made enough noise for Mike to hear me and turn round.

“You okay beautiful? You want me to leave? I understand if you do-” I cut him off by jumping up and sitting on him and crashed my lips into his. I don’t know what came over me, maybe it was the film we were watching, maybe it was the fact he was being sweet, maybe its cause I felt comfortable with him again, maybe it was because he called me beautiful. Who am I kidding? It’s because I love him. I fucking love him.
I pressed my forehead against his once the kiss was finished and had my arms wrapped round his neck, whilst his were wrapped round my waist. We stared into each other’s eyes for a while until he finally spoke.

“Wow. Just wow.” I giggled a bit, waiting on him to continue. “Scarlett, I’m so sorry I did that to you, if you gave me one more chance, I’d make sure you could trust me again, do anything you want. I just want you so much, I’ve missed you so much. You’re so beautiful. I don’t want to do anything like that to you again, I never want to make you feel anything other than happy again in my whole life.”

I smiled at him, bit my lip, softly kissed his lips again and said “Mikey, it was my fault too. I should have told you I was going to speak to Vic, I know it looked bad and I should have told you. We both have done wrong. And everyone makes mistakes, yeah?” he nodded. “So we’ve both made ours, and I don’t want to leave you ever again, I’ve missed you so much. I could hardly contain myself, I had to kiss you. I’ve missed kissing you so much.”
I crashed my lips into his again, when he lay me down and lay down beside me, just running his fingers through my hair and giving me soft kisses on my lips and all over my face. I was giggling and so happy to be there with him, I was so damn happy. And that’s when he asked me.

“Baby, I know it’s soon, and I will make everything up to you, I will. But will you be my girlfriend?” I smiled so excitedly and he smiled back, crashing my lips into his with a powerful kiss.

“YES! Yes! Yes! Of course I will Mikey, my boyfriend!!” I smiled before I ran my fingers through his hair and we made our way to my bedroom, where we spent the whole night just talking and playing with each other’s hair and kissing. Fuck, I’ve missed him and it feels so fucking good to have him back in my arms.

Notes

Title credit: Hold on Till May - Pierce the Veil

Scarlett's outfit for the PTV show. - http://www.polyvore.com/ptv_gig/set?id=85657106