Let Me In

The moment we got back to the room Mike headed into the shower since he was faster than me, and that would give me more time to get ready. As he showered I began to search through my suitcase for something to wear; I settled for a pair of black frayed denim shorts, a white printed shirt with a little bow at the front, my burgundy converse, my sister’s watch as well as some bracelets and earrings. I also chose to bring a thin zipper hoodie just in case I got cold, but I doubted that I’d be cold in the venue.

I gathered everything and just as I was done packing it all within my arms, Mike came out of the bathroom, his towel wrapped around his hips with the corner tucked in so it would hold. He began to walk towards me and ran his hand through his hair, flipping it to a side before smiling at me.

“It’s all yours,” he said as he leaned over to kiss my lips softly and quickly. I nodded and headed inside. I automatically stripped from my swim suit and turned on the water. I got in and began to allow the water to run down my body as I began to scrub off the leftover sunscreen as well as the patches of makeup that attempted to cover Mike’s hickies; at this point I didn’t care that much in all reality since nothing got more embarrassing than Vic’s noisy comment, plus it’s not like anyone here has never had one of their own. For a couple of minutes I simply stood under the warm water and allowed it to run down my head and onto the rest of my body, just silently allowing it to relax me and calm down both the stress that was running through every cell in my body as well as the sore muscles from the night before. When I was growing up I loved to just sit under the shower and allow it to calm me down. I used to tell my sister, Tiffany, that maybe the shower would wash away my stress and problems and she used to laugh at me for believing in that. She was always a little more rational than me, I was a little more of a dreamer.

The sudden ringing of my phone managed to snap me out of my daydreaming and allowed me to actually finish showering. It was a short ring which meant it was just a text so there was no rush on getting it. A couple of minutes later I left the shower and began to pat myself dry. I checked my phone and it was a text from Lisa.

Lisa: Okay you haven’t updated me on ANYTHING since yesterday and I’m really offended right now.

I laughed and responded:

Me: hahaha don’t be, so much happened but I haven’t had a chance to explain all of it. We’re heading to the concert soon, so I’ll have plenty of time to catch you up bby :)

Lisa: You better!! Love u

Me: Love u too. I’ll text u when I’m there.

I turned on some music and began to dance as I began to do my make up. I wanted to do something simple, and so I put on my contacts and took my nudes palette and did an alternate version of my everyday makeup. I simply put on my basic browns but instead of shading my crease with the darkest brown, I dabbed my brush lightly on a black shadow and blended it, making my eyes pop a little more than usual. I then double layered my mascara, lined half of my waterline with black and used some gold shadow underneath the waterline - only the inner corner of my eyes and a little out though, so it would contrast with the black.

I then took the hair dryer and began to shake my hair, drying it enough to be able to straighten it the easiest way possible and once that was all done I was ready to get dressed. I stared at myself as I got dressed and attempted to feel good about myself. I knew Mike was attracted to me, and I definitely saw aspects of me that I liked, but I’d never been a self confident person and as much as I was trying to feel comfortable with myself whilst hanging out with all of these models, I still had my moments of weakness. I got all of my earrings on as well as my bracelets and final accessories and then headed outside of the bathroom, Mike was laying in bed, dressed in shorts and a tank, with his laptop over his legs as he watched more Cutthroat Kitchen.

“Wow, you look so beautiful,” he said, making me blush.

“Thank you,” I whispered as I dropped all of my junk on the chair next to my suitcase and made my way towards the bed where I curled up against him. His body was always so warm, or maybe mine was just really cold in general, who knows? We stayed there for a couple of minutes as we finished the episode and then we got a call from Vic which meant it was time to go.

“Are you ready?” he asked.

“Yup, ready when you are,”

“Then let’s go!”

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We walked into the venue and saw that the crew was already setting up the stage; they were the opening band and so they went up first. It was a really cool design and set up; there were turning elements as well as different glow-in-the-dark elements. They had mariachi skeleton cartoons that moved as well as the band’s logo.

“This is crazy,” I said as I turned around to see Mike who was taking pictures of the stage. I stood in the middle of the empty venue as I appreciated every detail of it. In just a couple of hours this place would be filled with people who felt inspired by the boys and the members of the other band that played tonight, PVRIS. These people were completely devoted to them and I found it so inspirational.

“I know, it’s quite amazing to see how many people we inspire and how many people actually support us and love us as much as they do,” Tony commented as we started move towards the back and into the backstage area.

The boys headed straight into their sound check as they tested all of the equipment. Vic was testing his microphone alongside with Jaime and they kept making terrible jokes and at the end Mike would end it with the classic bad joke drum noise. They then tested Mike’s drums and fixed everything before heading back to the backstage area. All that was left to wait for the crowd to fill the venue and for the show to start.

I took my time to exchange some texts with Lisa who was dying to hear about my first night in Vegas, and honestly I was excited to tell her; Tiff was my only confident back when I was growing up due to my introverted personality, and after everything that had gone down before my move to Los Angeles, I was left friendless and even without someone to share the good and the bad things in my life. Lisa had become like a little sister to me and although she’d never fill the hole that Tiff used to be in, she had gotten pretty close to it.

Me: So, exciting news: We kinda made it official.

Lisa: Omg, details pls

Me: well it kinda happened outta nowhere. He told me as we ate in his car and then we lowkey got kicked out of the McDonald’s parking lot due to some PDA rules >o< then you know the night came, we gambled, drank (loads) and other stuff happened.

Lisa: Dude you can’t just tell me this and leave me hanging

Me: hahahaha, well I won’t get into many details till im back home but lets say that several plates of fried foods were burnt.

Lisa: Well, that made no sense but I’ll trust that you’ll fill me in soon. I’ve gotta go, I have a date tonight! Txt me how the concert goes. Love yah, and I’m rly happy for you bby :)

Me: Thanks hun, I’m happy for you and I need details on how this goes ;)
That was the last text I sent before the girls and me were taken to the VIP section. There were still some fans that had bought tickets to stay there with us and kept asking the girls for pictures but thankfully I had gone unnoticed; I wasn’t sure if I was ready to be thrown into that aspect of the scene just yet.

A couple of minutes after that we heard the intro beginning to play and all of the fans began to scream loudly as the show began. This was the first time I would see Mike and the boys in action and I was very excited to see them do what they do best.

“You’re going to love this, it’s the most heartwarming aspect of the whole scene,” Danielle said and I smiled. I was beginning to take this whole thing in, and I felt more comfortable with everything. Maybe this was the right thing for me, I thought, maybe this really was where I was meant to be and trying to convince myself that I had to hide and run away wasn’t what I really needed; now that I had a taste of happiness in my new life, I realized that, although I felt like I was a strong and independent person, I needed Mike and the boys in my life as they had brought out this side of me that seemed to overshadow the pain that had dominated for so long.

I smiled at this thought, and simply enjoyed the moment.

Notes

hey everyone im sorry I took so long to update, I've been suffering from writer's block.
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