Sabrina**

It wasn't supposed to go this far.. I was only supposed to cover for Gabe.. They were supposed to be shallow...
This isn't was I wanted... Or was it... I've been trying for an escape for at least a year now.... And maybe this is Lifes way of telling me its time..

"Rina.".. Or not.. "Rina Your gonna be okay, Your gonna make it" Vic's voice broke through the foggy haze of my brain "She loosing alot of blood!" I heard someone shout "Sabrina Please pull through" Kellins voice whispered. The I heard my heart monitor pick up and I faded out again...

Sabrina.... Sabrina.... I opend my eyes, everything was white... Was I dead? Was this what I wanted?
'Hello?' I called out 'is anyone there' Sabrina.... The voice was right beside me, I spun around to see a young girl with shoulder length hair 'Who... Are you?' I asked walking closer 'I am the reaper...' I looked at her confused 'does.. does this mean...' she shook her head 'no, my dear child... you have a choice...' my confusion was growing 'a choice? you mean... I can choose to leave, I can finally be free?' A huge weight lifted off my shoulders 'No' she giggled 'its not... that easy...' she smiled at my confusion 'You see.. Most people, when they take the... easy way out... think that no one will miss them...' I scuffed 'im not that selfish... I know people will miss me... but i also know that they'll get over it...' I explaind.. thinking I knew best 'ahh, but your wrong there' I went to say something 'Let me show you this' she said taking hold of my hand.

We flashed to the hospital Vic sat there staring off into space as kellin passed back and fourth "she's going to be okay..." Vic whispered "She has to be okay...." kellin paying no mind to whats being said.
A doctor walked in and Vic rose up "Well!" Kellin asked harshly, a somber look spread across the doctors face "I'm sorry... She just lost to much blood"

"No.." Vic said "No... shes not.."
Tears were already streaking down Kellins broken face and he headed down the hallway to where he didn't even know when Vic caught him by the arm, Kellin tried to fight off but Vic held tight, Pulling him into a forced hug.. Where both of them sobbed...

'So' I said coldy... 'this dosnt prove anything... Like I said it will hurt at first... they'll get over it'

She grabbed my arm and everything flashed. We were in Kellins old apartment... Before he met Kaitlynee
I walked around into each and every room until I found his, He was sat up against his bed, empty whisky bottles around him "fuck..." he choked out "WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THIS!" He screamed and threw the bottle at the wall, by an old picture of me

'What is this? A week later?' I asked coldly. "No... A year...' I looked at her 'no... no your lying.. your only saying that so I stay.. I know these games...'

'ahhh thats what you think... But your wrong... Your brother... He drank himself to death. Gabe will feel so bad for what he had seen you do, knowing he could stop it, that as soon as he found out, He killed himself. Justin, Jack, and nick all fall into a deep depression. Vic goes whoring around... Mike drinks more then he does now.. Jaime and Tony just aren't there selves anymore... both bands broke up.. all because of this stupid little mistake....' I looked at her, then back at the scene in front of me 'You need to make your decision fast my child your time is running short' I took a deep breath.. "Can you... Can you show me how they are right now?" My voice shaking.

Everything flashed and we were back in the waiting room. the doctor walking through again "How is she.. Is she..." Kellins voice broke "She's stable, for now... We dont know how long that will stay..." Tears fell from both there eyes "C-can we see her?" Vic asked and he nodded nd led them to my room.
'So.. whats your choice?' I turned to her "...Ill... Ill go back..." she smiled.

Everything flashed and then I all I saw was black.. I felt someones hand grab mine "C'mon Sabrina... Wake up.. Please" Kellin whispered, I heard the door open "Oh my god..." A voice that sounded like Gabes sobbed "Gabe! What the fuck happened. Why did she do this, What the fuck did you do!" I heard Vic yell "I didn't mean to... I-" "YOU WHAT!" I haerd kellin yell, letting go of my hand "What did you say to her!" Vic growled "No-Nothing. I swear" I whined a little and the room went silent, I felt kellin by me again "Hey, Sabrina wake up, Open your eyes beautiful." His hand pushed some hair out of my face.

I slowly fluttered my eyes open "D-dont be mad at him... It's not his fault..." I whispered squinting at the bright lights "then what happened" Kellin said glaring at Gabe "It wasnt supposed to go this way... No one was supposed to know" Gabe sobbed "what do you mean?" Kellin said moving away from me "Gabe dont" I whispered sitting up he just shook his head at me "I just wanted to know" He fell to his knees in tears, Kellin crouched by him and Gabe lifted up his sleeve, I heard a small gasp from kellin but no words spoken.
"I... I needed to know... I didn't understand. Then she walked in.. and then You walked on and I got scared, and she covered for me, made it like it was all her..." Gabe choked out.
I suddenly felt a pair of arms around me "You scared the shit out of me.." Vic whined "Well this has been an eventful day" Kellin whispered, and I broke into tears "Im sorry... I thought I was helping" I sobbed.

The ride back was very awkward. No one spoke. No music was played. just the sound of breathing and the car engine.
We got back to the buss lot and I was the first to hop out. ignoring help from Vic..
I walked onto the bus and straight to my bunk.. Suddenly not wanting human contact. with anyone...
I silently curled myself into a ball on my bed and closed my eyes.. hearing Gabe and Kellin walk on... But not Vic.. Oh... Usually he'd follow me to see what was wrong... I silently let my tears fall, I rolled over so I was facing the wall. I covered my ears with my hands, trying to block out the voices in my head.. Soon they subsided and I finally heard Vic's voice "So what are we gonna do?" He asked "Once warped tour's over I'm gonna get her help.. She cant keep doing this.. It's not good for her.... I could have lost her!" It sounded like he was crying "I know.. I'll be here for you both, through it all" Vic spoke.
'ya you say that now, until i get to be to much and you dump me because you cant handle my depression' i though to myself "I'm gonna go check on her" Vic said "Okay.. Just.. Don't fuck her..." Kellin said trying to lighten the mood "Buuutt mmmooommm" Vic laughed as did kellin. then I heard the bus door close

"Rina? Baby are you awake" He asked from behind me "mmhmm" I hummed and I felt the mattress sink beside me and a body press up against me "You okay?" He asked rubbing my arm, I rolled over shaking my head "Whats wrong babe?" His worry in his eyes "Please don't leave me" I sobbed, and he hugged me to his chest "I'm never leaving you... Why would you think that" He asked pulling me into his chest, I just shrugged crying harder.

About an hour later I passed out, Falling into a nightmare.

"Vic whats wrong?" I asked walking into the house I guess we bought "You!, Your always so clingy. You never give me time to myself! Its driving me nuts, Sabrina. Just leave me alone!" He stormed out, and I was left standing dumbfounded, Tears found there way to my eyes and soon I was a sobbing mess on the couch "Hey, Sabrina are you okay?" Kellin asked I shook my head "I..I think Vic just broke up with me" I choked out.. And kellin started... Laughing "Thank god!" I dont have to listen to him complain about you any more.. Or put up with you myself.. The only reason I was still in your life was because Vic was dating you, and would always bring you around. Thank god thats over" The he got up and left..

I was in shock. I couldnt cry... or anything... Soon the door opened again and Vic walked through "Ugh your still here. Leave, I dont love you, Never did. I just felt bad for you! GO!" but I couldn't move it was like I was frozen "Are you deff GOO!"

And I ran out, into the cold rainy night.. All alone.

"Sabrina!" Someone was calling my name "Sabrina wake up!" their voice was urgent "

"SABRINA!" I shot up screaming, tears running down my face, "Hey, I'ts okay, It's me, It's Vic. Its Okay, It was Just a dream" He spoke softly, I let out a strangled sob "What happened?" He questioned moving my face to look at him "There. You. Kellin" I was sobbing and hyperventilating "Sabrina.. Breathe... In" I breathed in with him "...Out..." I blew out slowly "There you go.. That's it.. You dont have to talk about it.." I just nodded "What Time is it?" I sighed "9:38" Vics soft voice calming me as he spoke "You should probably eat somethin.." I looked at him in a pleading manner and shook my head "Please babygirl.. Just a little something..." he wasnt gonna let up "Rina, you haven't eatin in days... Please" I sighed "Salad...?" My voice shook, "Thats a start" Disappointment in his voice..

We walked out and I was greeted by everybody. I silently sat down by my brother, fiddling with my fingers, while Vic went out and got me a salad. a few minutes passed before anyone spoke to me, "Where'd Vic go?" Kellin asked, pulling me out of my trance "Hmm? Oh he went to get me a salad..." my voice quiet, Turning my attention back to my fingers.

A few more minutes passed before Kellin spoke again "Well, When he gets back tell him we went to the bar for a little" He said standing up 'Mhum' i hummed "Hey.. Sabrina" He continued I looked up "Yeah..?" My voice soft "I love you, Please don't do anything stupid.. I cant loose you.." I smiled at him "I promise.." "Comon lets goo" I heard Jack yell "Comming, Bye Bina. Love you" "Love you too" Then he left.

I sat there in silence for a little, and decided to take a quick shower before he got back.
I walked into the bathroom and turned on the water, letting it run hot. I stripped my self of my cloths and was just about to get in when I heard the bus door open, and Vic's panicked voice "Oh my god no" I heard something drop and feet running towards the bathroom, The door opened and Vic came running at me, He ripped my arms away form me, making me drop my towel, He checked my arm's, stomach, and thighs.. After that he dropped to his knees, I saw his body shake a little, and I quickly dropped down myself "Vic.. Baby whats wrong..." He looked up at me with red eyes "I though.. I thought you... Ya know... I got scared.." His voice cracked "I'm sorry.. I didn't mean to scare you" He sighed "No one was on the bus, and thats when you usually do it.. nd I justs.. I cant lose you. Kellin cant lose you, you may not see it but you are so fucking perfect, I dont know what I would have done if you had of died...

Please dont ever leave me" He pleaded. I've never seen Vic this vulnerable.. "Vic, baby I promise I wont ever leave you.." He brought me into his arms and hugged me tight. "Now.. can I please.. Take a shower?" I asked and he sniffed "Y-yah.. Only if you promise to eat after..." I nodded my head, and he smiled "I love you . Rina.." "I love you too, Vic."

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