Warped Summer*Vic fuentes Love story*

Sabrina**

I woke up with someones arm draped around me and my phone buzzing a mile a minute, I unraveled myself from Vics arm and answered my phone
"Hello?"..."Oh my god Sabrina! Please tell me you didnt do anything.. Please tell me Its not my fault"..."Kellin, Im fine.. Im with Vic"..."I know... and I know he said he would keep you safe, I just worry..." I sighed "I'm going back to bed. I'll see you at the next venue" I hung up before he could speak "What did he want?" Vic asked sitting up with me "He just wanted... Wanted to know if I did anything,.." I said avoiding eye contact "You din't though.. Right?" I shook my head but he grabbed my arms anyway but I pulled away "I said I didn't.. Why dont you trust me" Tears rising in my eyes "Because I used that lie before too, now just let me see" "Why" I argued "So I can see all the times you needed me, and I want there" I reluctantly gave in and held out my arm, He gently rolled up my sleeve. He ran his fingers lightly down my scars and let a tear escape his eye "This needs to stop, Rina... You cant keep doing this" "Ive been trying, you dont know how hard ive been trying" I shot back "One sec" He said hopping down off the bunk..

He came back with an elastic in hand "Here.. When ever you feel the need, Snap this against your wrist" He said handing the small rubber band to me. I put it on, snapping it a couple times "thanks..." he smiled "Lets go get some breakfast, Yea?" my heart stopped "I.. Uh I'm not that hungry...." He gave me a look "Your eating..." My heart rat picked up and i felt like I couldn't breath "Can You Be Quiet. I have a massive hangover that needs to be gone by the time we get to the next place!" I heard Mike shout and my breath caught in my throat "You okay Rina?" I went to say something, but all that came out was a wheeze, He noticed my struggle and quickly brought me to the front of the bus where no one could hear or see us..

In an instant the walls were closing in on me, All control had left my body and It was restricting me from being able to take in a breath, or my surroundings for that matter, someone touched my hand, but my attack was so bad that I couldn't register who or where it was "Rina" the voice spoke "Sabrina.. It's Vic.. Listen to my voice, its okay." I was shaking and wheezing "Im going to lift you into my lap now" he said and I gave a small nod.
Suddenly his voice was right by my ear "You need to calm down" He said slowly I again nodded but mad no move to calm myself down "Sabrina... Breathe.. Your holing your breath.. You need to let it out" I let it out slowly and choppy and after a few minutes of Vic cooing on my ear, and the slow rocking back and forth I had calmed down enough to see and hear properly, My berating was slower and more even now "Good, Your doing so good," He whispered again "I-I-I'm s-s-sorry" I choked out "Don't be, Panic attacks happen.. It's fine" I gave a small nod "Now, what do you want for breakfast" I felt my chest tighten again, Vic noticed "Hey... Look at me, Rina.." He tilted my face towards him "Why don't you wanna eat?" I looked down "Imtoofat|" I mumble "Your what?" He asked "Fat Vic. Im fat... I cant... I cant eat..." His grip tightened around me "Your far, from fat.. Who put that thought into your head?" I shook my head.. He wouldn't believe me anyway "I swear to god, If it was Gabe hes going to be hurting more then he is now" My heart stopped

"What do you mean"

"Kellin saw what Gabe was writing on his twitter and lost it.."

"I can't go back there then.. No hes gonna make my life even worse..."

"No hes not"

"Vic yes he is... hes an ass hole like that, Hes gonna blame me"

"Sabrina. He felt horrible about what he was doing.. Now all that aside.. Can you at lease eat a fruit cup"

I was reluctant to the idea but decided to agree. He gave me a smile and got one out of the fridge and I slowly started eating..
"So... Uh... Last night.." I spoke up "Yea? What about it?" I looked away "Are we.. Like.. You know..." He said nothing "Never mind.. it was stupid.. I jus-" "No.. Wasnt stupid... And I mean... If you wan't to be" I looked at him "So.. we are?" I asked a smile spreading across my face "I guess so" An even wider smile on his.

An hour later and everyone was crawling out of there bunks and flopping down on the couch's and shit.
Tony was the first to speak "You know.. Bina... You had us scared shitles last night.." I looked down ashamed "Yea, for real. Why on earth would you think it was a good idea to do that" Mike piped it "Guys... Stop. Its been hard enough on her this morning, Just drop it, Shes here, shes fine" Vic spoke up 'tank you' I mouthed an he held his thumbs up.

We got to the venue a few hours after that, and as soon as we parked there was a banging at the bus door, Mike got up to answer it and Kellin pushed passed him and ran right to me, engulfing me in a huge hug "Oh my fuck, Im so fucking sorry Brina.... I didn't know what I would have done if something had of happened to you.. Im so SO fucking sorry" he spoke fast holding me as tight as possible, I hugged him back "Its okay.. Im sorry too.." he pulled away and his eyes went wide "Whats that bruise from" I looked down "You... Kellin.. You gave it to her when You squeezed he face yesterday.. I could see his heart break through his eyes, A single tear fell "I'm so sorry... I never meant to hurt you... I just wanted to show you that what you're doing to yourself isn't good" That caught everyone's attention "what do you mean?" Jaime asked I looked at kellin and Vic with pleading eyes and shook my head "Sabrina has-" "I'm going for a walk" I said before jogging off the bus, Vic hot on my trail "Rina. Sabrina" He yelled and spun me around "Please Vic... I jut wanna take a walk alone, I promise I won't go far" I pleaded I just wanted to be alone... "Okay... Text me if you feel like.. You know..." I nodded in agreement and walked away.

Everything has just been so shitty lately... I was getting frustrated... And kellin going and telling everyone about my relapse wasnt helping... No one was supposed to find out... In the mix of my thoughts my phone buzzing brought me out of them

Matthew~I see you, Sabbs
Sabrina~You know not to call me that.. Just leave me alone...
Matthew~No I honestly want to talk...
Sabrina~And I told you, you had your time for talking, and you blew it
Matthew~What ever...

After that I put my phone on airplane mode so no one could bother me...
All I did was walk and think. Until my alarm went off indicating I had to take my anti-depressants.
I sighed an walked back to Sleeping with sirens bus..
Empty.. Huh.. "Ow fuck" Or not...

I walked passed the curtain to get into the bathroom.. But it was locked
"Hello? I need to get in" I spoke while knocking "Shit.." Someone that sounded like Gabe whispered under his breath. But I didnt wait, I grabbed the key and unlocked it..
But what I saw next made my skin crawl and wrist's burn..
Gabe.. sitting there.. Tear stains on his cheek and arms bleeding "G-Gabe...?" I choked out "I'm sorry..." He cried
I had to act fast, I got a wet rag and whipped off his arms. then got some gauze and wrapped up his arms, the whole time him apologizing "Why?" I asked angry at him. and at myself.
Angry at him for being so stupid. Angry at myself for doing the same shit and feeling good about it.
Angry at him for putting me through shit and thinking he can get away with doing this to himself.
Angry at myself because this is what Ive been putting others through
"Because.. I deserve it. I've been treating you like shit.. You don't deserve that.. I just wanted to understand,, Understand why you did it. Why, why do you do it, WHY!" he yelled rolling up my sleeves "Why are you getting angry at me when you have them on your arms too. Sabrina why! I'm so fucking sorry, please stop this." I was taken aback and all that could slip through my parted lips was "You first" I let a tear slip "I.. I just wanted to know.. It was only supposed to be one.. But then..." "...Then you felt all the anger and hate and stress and everything leave at once... You felt happy for once, your were high on adrenaline. Yea I know that feeling all to well. And its the best feeling ever,... But its also the most dangerous.. Because you go numb.. and you lose control. and one turns.." "...Turns into this..." we were sharing sentences, thinking the same
"Im so fucking sorry Sabrina... I never.. Never thought that what I said effected you this badly..." I scuffed "Yea.. well words hurt, Gabe... And now you know it too..." I looked into his eyes.. One half swollen and purple... "I though I learned my lesson when Kellin beat the shit out of me.. But then , he left the blade on the sink and.. I just..." "I know..."

He looked up at me with a broken expression "I still don't understand..." He whined "Its all about the control.." I shifted so I was sitting criss cross "When everything around you, is so out of order, and you cant do anything in your life to control it. You find something you can control... Whether it be, Self harm.. Starving.. Purging.. Over eating.. Its all about control.. You could be on the brink of insanity and find that one thing you can control. whether it be good or bad.. And you just stick with it..." He nodded his head "So... with you... It's...-" I stopped him "Yes...." He cleared his throat "And... its my fault..." I shook my head "Not just you..." He grabbed my wrists again "Im so fucking sorry.. I just, I didn't know. then I saw Vic hand Kellin your razor and then I put all the pieces together, the sweaters, the avoiding pools flinching when you moved your arm a certain way and im.. it's my fault and I'm just so sorry, Sabrina you need to stop, Please stop!" I shook my head "It's not that easy" he let more tears slip "Does that mean..." I shook my head "Not with the way your acting... You have more self control then I do..." his face twisted into a painful expression "I'm-" "Stop saying sorry.." I heard the bus door open "Sabrina, are you on here" I heard Kellin yell, Gabes face turned to panic I quickly whispered "Pull down your sleeve's.. I'll take this one" He pulled them down giving me a look of confusion, I snatched the razor out of his hands and quickly made cuts up and down my arm, Ignoring Gabes protest "What the fuck" He looked like he was gonna break down "SABRINA!" He shouted louder, and my chest constricted in panic. I made Gabe switch spots and looked at him as if to tell him to speak, I think he got the hint "I-I-In h-here" He held my bad arm in his hand. Tears falling.. I was starting to get dizzy.. Maybe I cut to deep..
I heard his shoes against the floor and as soon as his face appeared in the door of the bathroom all color drained from his face....

Kellin**

The Guys were really understanding about Sabrina's situation.. I left the bus to go back to mine, Hopping that she was there.. And hoping Gabe was there to make sure she didn't do anything

"Sabrina, are you on here" I waited a few seconds, my heart rate picking up "SABRINA!" I shouted Praying for a response, I heard whispering.. good sign then Gabes voice "I-I-In h-here" He stutters.. Fuck...
I practically sprinted to the curtain and whipped it open, taking in the scene before me.. Blood on a wet towel, and Gabe holding Sabrinas bleeding arm tears running down both of there face's "I... I got it from here, Gabe..." I said shocked, trying not to cry He slowly stood up, shock evident on his face slowly backing away from Sabrina "Sab... You... Why..." I couldn't form a proper sentence "I-I'm s-s-sorry" She sobbed... Going paler I couldn't understand why...

Gabe**

I sat there in shock as she took the blade from my hand and started slicing her arm, Everything in me wanted to rip it away, But I was frozen, she made us switch spots, I was left holing her heavily bleeding arm "SABRINA!" Kellin's shouting brought me out of my trance "I-I-In h-here" My voice shaking I heard a small gasp from behind me I let the tears that I've been holding in fall "I... I got it from here, Gabe" Kellin's voice just as shaky as mine.
I slowly stood up, backing away from the horror scene in front of me... Sabrina wasn't looking to good.. I left though the curtain hearing the end of there conversion and Sabrina choking out a sorry..
I left out of the bus, totally oblivious that I still had Mine and Sabrina's blood on me..
As I was walking I passed Vic "Hey Ga- What the fuck happened" Shock evident in his voice "I.. She... It..." I couldn't form a proper sentence.. Why would she do that.. "Gabe, sit down, what is it" Vic said leading me to a table "Sabrina..." His face went white "What so you mean..." I worked up the courage to speak again "She.. In front of me.." Was all I could get out He shot up and Ran in the direction of Our bus...

Vic**

All Gabe had to say was that the blood was Sabrina's and I was up in an instant, heading straight for SWS bus.

A soon as i got on the first thing I seen was Kellin Cradling Sabrina's lifeless body in his arms "No..." Was all that left my lips "Vic.." Kellin whined, I dropped to my knees next to Kellin "Is there?" "Yah... Should be here soon" and as if directed we heard the sirens.... and they wheeled her on....

Notes

Sorry its been so long, I forgot my password to the sight is origenly on and couldnt get it here