Don't Hit me

His hand are on me. Around my neck. I can’t breath. He’s hitting me. I’m screaming but no one can hear me. I finally get away from him but I can’t run fast enough and he catches me. Then I’m falling, and I keep falling.
“Taylor, Taylor wake up!!”-T I’m awake. I’m sweating. And I’m screaming. I stop I look at Tony I begin to cry. Then once I’m crying I realize that I haven’t cried about anything that has happened to me yet. I realize that I haven’t expressed any emotion until now. “It’s okay, I’ve got you, I won’t ever let him get you.” Tony holds me tightly against him. He rubs my hair. I listen to his heartbeat. At first it is fast, but then it calms down. This makes me calm and I can breath again. I don’t ever want to let go.
“Tony, I’m sorry.” “No it’s okay, you didn’t take your anxiety meds that the doctors gave you.” “I guess those are gonna come in handy.” We both let out a small laugh. “Do you want to talk about it?” “When he had me in the van he told me that I wasn’t going to ever be able to really get away from him. And that was my dream. He was there, hitting me, then I would runaway but he would always catch me and it was on a loop. But then I just started falling, then I woke up.” “Well I’m here now and I’m always going to protect you.” We kiss for a long time. His lips are warm and they fit perfectly in mine. “You should probably take your meds before you go back to sleep. I put them right beside the be just in case this happened.” He reaches over and grabs them and a bottle of water that is by the bed too. “here.” I take them. “they’re probably going to take 30minutes to start working so lets talk about something.”
We talk about our childhoods. How I was raised in a fancy neighbor hood where my parents put my in a private school where I never really fit in. and how he has dog when he was little that stayed with him all the way through college. He was close to his grandma then she died. He fell into a depression and that’s when he met Vic who introduced him to Jamie and Mike.
Then we hear yelling. “What time is it?” “2:30”-T “Who the hell is yelling at 2:30 in the damn morning?” “Erin.” “Fuck.”
Jamie’s POV:
“why can’t you just understand this?” “What am I suppose to understand Jamie? That you want to be with me but you want to be in a stupid band and go on tour more? What about starting a family? Or buying a fucking house? When are you going to grow up?” “Are you kidding me? When am I going to grow up?” you’re jealous of a girl who is living here even after we asked you if you wanted to move in! You’re the one who said you didn’t want o move in because your house is closer to your damn job!” “Yeah sorry I have a real job and I’m not in some fucking boy band traveling the planet!” Here’s the deal Jamie, either you lose the sluts that are living here, or you lose me!” “NO. they are staying. Mike and Tony both love them and who am I to take that away from them?” “Then we’re done.” “Fine, get the fuck out and take you shit.”
So she leaves and it’s all over. Two years down the drain.
Taylor’s POV:
“I can’t believe he just did that. He just told me earlier he wasn’t ready to give up on her.” “Taylor, it’s best that Erin leaves. She isn’t into the boy band scene. She doesn’t have any tattoos and she works in an office. She needs some guy who wears sweaters and drives a minivan.” This makes me laugh. “Your laugh is so cute” And that’s what starts it all. Tony craws on top of me and you bodies just know what to do. It’s like they trained for this exact moment. They’re working together. He must have asked me 5 times if I really wanted to do this. Every time I said the same thing “you’re the only one I would ever want to do it with.” We try to as quiet as we can, not wanting to wake anyone else. It’s perfect. I can’t say that I didn’t think about this happening. I just didn’t know it would really be as perfect as I imagined it. Afterwards we don’t say anything. Nothing needs to be said. I fall asleep on his chest. Now his heart is beating really fast. But as it always does, it slows down. When I’m sure Tony is asleep I whisper as quiet as I can, “I love you.”

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