No Idea

It was 30 minutes to the first show of the tour. I was currently getting ready to see We Are The In Crowd then A Day To Remember. Mum will be performing after them then Austin and his band to finish off the night. I was allowed to go to three concerts a week. The other times I was to help Nathan look after Winter.

I was fixing my hair when my phone started ringing. I looked at the ID and smiled to see mums name pop up.

‘Hello?’ I said as I answered the phone.

‘You have about 25 minutes to finish up or you’ll miss We Are the in Crowd open.’ She said. I frowned at myself in the mirror.

‘Okay. We’ll be down in 20 minutes, hopefully. Sarah is taking a while…’ I said as I walked out the bathroom and walked into the bunk area.

‘Well, she should be on the phone to her father right now…’ She mentioned, and when I found Sarah, she was talking on the phone too.

‘Yep. Alright, I’ll rush her along. See you soon.’ I said as I hung up the phone.

‘Ugh, but dad…. Fine.. See you soon.’ Sarah said. She hung up the phone and threw it onto her bunk.

‘Well, come on. All you have to do is get dressed.’ I said as I was leaning up against the door frame.

‘Don’t you start either. I don’t know what to wear.’ She said looking down at her suitcase.

‘It’s not hard really. Wear a band top, a pair of skinny jeans and your converses.’ I said as I indicated that I was wearing exactly that.

‘What band top though?’ She questioned.

‘Support your dad tonight. I’m supporting mum.’ I replied.

‘Okay! Let me get dressed and lets get outta here.' Sarah said before running off to the bathroom.

About 10 minutes later, Sarah was ready to leave, having grabbed her phone and backstage pass, we left. As we were walking in silence, we noticed the amount of people there was in the crowd. So many people were here to see my mum’s band.

I’ve never really seen my mum’s band perform a whole lot. I mean, she had me at a young age, she was only 18 when she had me and when the band started becoming big, she really had no time for me.

When I was about the age of four, she went on her first tour and that’s when it became my dad and I. Mum came back 6 months later and that’s when mum and dad decided to marry. I was 5 when they ended up getting hitched and when I turned 15, was the year Mum fell in love with Austin. I mean, they had known each other for a while before hand. Meeting on tours and stuff, but it was like mum forgot about Dad and I. I feel like this happened for a reason, in my mind. I feel like, I wouldn’t have become my best friends sister. My dad wouldn’t have met Hannah and they wouldn’t be starting their only family. My Mum wouldn’t have had Winter.

We reached the entrance of the arena and walked on through, showing our passes as we wandered through looking for people. I was walking when I bumped into Jeremy from A Day to Remember. He looked down at me and frowned.

‘Oh, I’m sorry.’ I said as I looked up at him.

‘It’s fine kid. Why are you back here all alone anyway? Shouldn’t you be with your mother or something.’ He said.

‘I was just going to find her actually.’ I said as I looked over my shoulder to see her talking to Tay and Austin. ‘Oh, there she is now.’ I say, pointing to her as she began walking in my general direction.

‘You are Stella. You were this big when I last saw you. You have grown up so much!’ Jeremy said, realising who I was.

‘And I guess I kinda remember you. No offense or anything.’ I say as I smile to him.

‘Jenna, she is so big now. She would have been the same age as Winter the last time I saw her.’ Jeremy said to get Mum’s attention. She walked up behind me and put her arm around my shoulder.

‘I know, now she’s at her first concert, with her amazing mother.’ Mum said kissing my cheek.

‘Well, I better get going. Good seeing you Stella, have a good first concert.’ Jeremy said before he walked off as I said goodbye.

I walked to side stage, where Sarah was standing next to Austin. I smiled at them as we stood next to them and they smiled back. We are the in Crowd were just going on, and the vibe I got from them, was amazing. I loved the whole experience.

At the concert, I really felt like I could be who I was, I was able to sing to the songs I knew and learn new ones I didn’t. I looked over to the crowd and couldn’t help but to think that Jaime and Vic were in there somewhere, enjoying their night as much as I was.

‘Hey, I wonder how Jaime and Vic are enjoying the concert.’ I leaned over towards Sarah and say.

‘Yeah, I do wonder.’ She replied.

‘Who’s this?’ Austin asked.

‘My boyfriend and Stella’s ex are the crowd.’ Sarah said.

‘Well, tell them to meet me at the backstage gate and I’ll let them hang back here with you.’ Austin said before walking off to the gate.

Sarah grabbed out her phone and rang Vic, mentioning what Austin said. She nodded her head, letting me know that they were coming backstage. I smiled before looking at the stage.

Vic and Jaime walked up behind us as Austin said ‘here you go.’ I looked back and smiled and gave Vic and even Jaime a hug. It was an awkward hug, but friendly also.

It was an awkward evening between Jaime and I, only because we had just broken up and well, I still loved him. I wish I didn't say what I said, it really hurt him. Tony had a point, it was all in the heat of the moment. I have apologised over the phone but I feel that if I said it in person, it'll mean more.

A Day to Remember just finished their set when I took this oppitunity to talk to Jaime about our fight and break-up.

'Hey, Jaime. Can I talk to you for a sec...' I asked, grabbing his attention with a touch of him arm. He nodded his head and followed me away, more to the back of the room where it was quiet.

'Look, I just wanted to say that I am sorry for what happened between us. I know I've apologised before but now it might feel a bit more genuine. I really didn't mean to say it. It was all in the heat of the moment.' I said. Jaime looked at me and smiled.

He smiled, and giggled a little bit before cupping my face with his hand and dipping his head down to met with mine. Once his lips left mine, I blinked a couple of times, making sure I wasn't actually dreaming.

'It's okay Stel... I was in the wrong and I cant keep you away from my thoughts. I want to feel your embrace again.' He said, taking my hand. I smiled as he guided us back to the stage, where Mum was taking her place.

Her set was the best of the night. I was surrounded by my family and even better, Jaime. He held my hand for most of the concert and when it came to an end, we went for a walk. We walked the streets of the town before we sat at a park.

We sat next to each other on a pair of swings, slowly swinging as we talked about nothing, until Jaime said something I wasnt expecting.

'You are going to stay right?' He said, I looked over to him and smiled softly.

'No, Jaime. No, I'm not. I think I need to get away for a while. I still want to be your friend and everything. I still love you but I'm not staying.' I said, shaking my head.

'Uh, okay. But we will talk all the time? Do you promise me that?' He asked. I nodded my head and smiled.

'Of course we will. I don't want to cut you out of my life.' I replied. He smiled and looked at the ground, kicking at the sand.

'I love you, Stella. I am going to miss you, so much.' Jaime said as he got off the swing.

'I'm going to miss you too. I love you too.' I said, getting up off my swing. I smiled and hugged him. His arms hugging me around my neck. I felt secure, safe.

'Goodbye Jaime.' I said as I stepped away from him.

'This isn't goodbye. I'll see you very soon.' Jaime said before kissing my head, turning around and walking away.

I turned and began to walk back to the bus, turning around to see Jaime looking back at me, we waved slightly before he turned back around and continued walking. I watched him until I couldn't see him anymore.

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