No Idea

I woke up to something lightly buzzing from underneath my pillow. I pulled my phone, which magically ended up there, to see Sarah calling me.

‘Hey.’ I said as I rubbed my eyes. I slowly got up and walked over to the curtains and opened it to let the sun in.

‘Hey, when you come in, can you bring me a mocha please?’ Sarah requested.

‘I sure can. Have you talked to Vic yet?’ I questioned as I walked out the room to the kitchen to see Winter sitting in her highchair.

‘Yeah, he’s so worried. So very worried. So I assume, Jamie will now know and same with everyone else.’ Sarah said as I walked up to winter and kissed her head.

‘Yeah, alright, well I’ve gotta have a shower and everything before I get there, so it’ll be about 11 instead of 10 since I slept in. but I’ll see you soon.’ I said as she said a quick goodbye before I hung up. I sat down next to Winter and smiled to her.

‘You’d look good with purple hair.’ I said as she giggled. She nodded her head and said something with her baby language.

‘Mum? Can I die Winter’s hair?’ I yelled through the house.

‘No you cannot!’ Mum yelled back.

‘Austin?’ I yelled.

‘Don’t bring me into this.’ He yelled back. I laughed and got up. I had a shower and dressed in some comfortable clothes. So a baggy jumper and trackies. It’s not like I was going to meet the queen.

‘I’m ready? Are you guys ready to go?’ I yelled leaning into the fridge and grabbing a mocha.

‘Yeah, no need to yell.’ Mum said with a laugh.

‘I didn’t know where you were.’ I said in a smart ass tone. Mum rolled her eyes and Austin laughed as we all walked out the door to the car.

Reaching the hospital, I felt my phone buzz. I looked at it and it was a message from Jamie, well it had question marks. Plus I had more messages.

From: Jamie: I heard! Oh my god, are you okay? Are you coping? How is Sarah doing? I wish I was there with you so I could look after you. I miss you too. I have your Christmas present waiting for you under my tree. And the one you’ve bought me, sitting next to it. Can I just open it??
From: Jamie: ????????
To: Jamie: No, you can’t open it. Don’t be a bastard. And yes, I am okay, I am coping but I wish I had your company. It’d be amazing. How’s Vic coping? Hope he isn’t losing his locks.

From Vic: Yes, I just did. I am so worried. Look after her okay. And I can’t believe you gave away one of your kidneys.
To: Vic: You would have done the same thing though. Tell me you wouldn’t. I’ll look after her and bring her home in one piece.

From: Tony: I heard, Vic told me. How are you coping? And I need some advice on things?
To: Tony: I’m fine. So why do you need my help? Not that I’m good at helping with advice. But go ahead.

By the time I had finished messaging everyone back, I placed my phone into my pocket and walked into Sarah’s room. Still no one on the bed I had, so she had the room to herself.

‘Here is your mocha.’ I said pulling it out the bag I brought. I also pulled out a little Christmas tree and some tinsel. ‘It’s Christmas time and it doesn’t feel like it, so here. Feel the spirit of Jesus’s birth.’ I said laughing. I placed the tree next to the bed and the tinsel over the head of the bed.

‘Thank you Stella.’ Sarah said laughing.

We shared lunch before we left her to sleep. We decided to take Winter to the park down the road.

As I was walking back to the exit on the main floor, I looked into the room where the little girl was once sitting. But when I looked into the room, the bed was empty. The mother sitting next to the bed with her head in her hands, sobbing quietly to herself. I looked at the bed and saw her crown and wand sitting over the white colour sheet. It was heartbreaking, she couldn’t make it to one more Christmas, let alone another year. I wiped a tear from my eye before catching up to Mum and Austin.

Being so young and so valuable to such an illness and it killing you like snapping a twig is just so sad. She must have only been 5 or something, she was full of life and during the duration of two days, she wasted away, into those sheets as her mother watched her lively little girl, choke and lose breathing capabilities before her eyes closed for one last time. Her mother to see her bright green eyes ever again. That wide, bright smile forming on her daughters face when she saw something she loved. Only memories and pictures to carry on her spirit.

*A Day Later*

‘Come on, get up! Mum has a piggy in the oven and it’s going to be the best night ever. I miss my roommate.’ I say jumping on Sarahs’s hospital bed for the last time. She was putting her shoes on and starting to stand up. I smiled and jumped up to help her.

‘No, I got this. I’ll do it on my own!’ Ash kind of yelled. I put my hands up in surrender and walked backwards.

‘Sorry, I didn’t mean to snap, I’m just kind of still tired.’ Sarah said, smiling weakly at me. I just nodded my head and picked up the bag. I guided Sarah out of the room and we walked to the elevator. Pressing the button, we waited for the doors to open.

‘So, how’s Vic copying?’ I asked, looking over to her, who was staring at her phone.

‘He’s coping well. Still worried as fuck though. Like all boyfriends should.’ She said, letting a chuckle leave her lips. I nodded my head and looked at the doors which began to open.

‘Why do we always seem to bump into each other in the elevator?’ I said to Nathan who smiled to me, then looked to Sarah.

‘I’m blaming you. You’re stalking me.’ Nathan said, leaving me to laugh at him.

‘Am not. You are stalking me!’ I said, which left him to laugh. Sarah coughed a little and gave me the are-you-going-to-introduce-me look.

‘Oh where are my manners, Nathan this is my sister, Sarah. Sarah, Nathan. We met on the day of the shooting. He kind of saved me from going into shock and cleaned me up of all your blood. He also is the one who sent the ambulance.’ I explained. Sarah nodded her head and smiled to Nathan. Nathan following her actions.

‘Oh, well I’ll see you later guys, Stella. I expect a text, even if it isn’t about the police force.’ Nathan said, stepping out of the elevator and waving before the doors closed.

‘Holy shit, he’s cute.’ Sarah said, smiling to me than winking. I just nodded my head and laughed.

‘I know, but I like Jamie and Jamie likes me.’ I explained. Sarah nodded her head. The doors finally opened on the main floor which lead us to the exit, where Austin was waiting for us. We hopped into the car, Sarah sitting next to her dad and I sitting in the back with Winter.

We arrived home and I jumped out the car, grabbed winter and ran inside to the smell of perfect cooked pork and pork crackling.

‘Smell that baby that smells like a good dinner.’ I said to winter who said some baby words and giggled. I just shook my head and placed winter in the high chair. I sat myself down at the table, in my normal spot and watched as Sarah hobbled to the table and sat down. Austin joined us and then mum brought out a plate of good looking meat.

‘Yum! Did you need anything else from the kitchen?’ I said seeing as the vegetables were not on the table.

‘Do you mind getting the veggies please?’ Mum said. I hopped up from my seat and walked into the kitchen. I couldn’t help but feel sick just looking at the fridge. I refused to really come into the kitchen anymore, which has stopped me from eating. I grabbed the veggies and walked out the kitchen back to the table. I sat down to see that there was an envelope on my plate instead of meat.

‘Uh, what’s in the envelope?’ I said pointing to it.

‘I don’t know, why don’t you open it? You too Sarah.’ Mum said, I looked up to see Sarah had one too. I frowned before I opened the envelope to see…

*Back to present*

‘I’m sorry to interrupt but you guys have to leave now. Visiting times are over. Stella will be out of this room tomorrow and moved to another room in the general part of the hospital. You guys are welcome back tomorrow at any time between 10-6.’ Hayley said, interrupting the story.

‘Okay, that’s alright. I’ll tell you what was in the envelope.’ Sarah said walking over to my bed side. ‘And I’ll be in before these guys, to tell you on my own, they still don’t know what was in them.’ She whispered. I just laughed a little and thought,I can see myself being friends with her.
‘I’ll see you tomorrow Stel.’ Vic said before him and Sarah walked out the room. Tony was the next to say goodbye, saying that Brendon gets back tomorrow and he’ll bring him in for me to meet.

‘I’ll be in at 10 alright ba- Stella.’ Jamie said as he picked up Ruby from my bed and rested her on his shoulder.

‘Yeah, thank you for telling me all this information. It sounds interesting. So far my life seems so interesting, and I can’t believe I gave away a kidney.’ I said shaking my head.

‘You do a lot more interesting things Stel.’ Jamie says before he begins to walk away. He smiles and waves before he leaves the room for good. I sigh loudly and roll onto my side.

I wish I could remember these guys, and remember all of these important things. I wonder who Nathan is. Wonder if he is still a part of my life? Pete and Patrick? Mum, Austin. Winter. How old would she be now? Man, I don’t even know how old I am. I would say I’m about 22-23. Shit, I can’t remember my fucking birthdate. Anniversaries. Nothing.I think until my brains says enough and pulls me into a horrible nightmare.

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