Cold, Empty Mattresses And Falling Stars

*Cassidy's POV*

I had been jogging for over 20 minutes before I stopped to have a rest at a bench, when I looked up I recognized the house in front of me and it didn't click until I saw a car pull into the drive, it was Austin's house, he jumped out the car and looked at me, it's like he recognized who I was but wasn't sure due to the new hair color, "Austin!" I smiled waving, his face suddenly lit up before he ran over, I took my earphones out as he reached me, of course I was being weary around him but it's in the pass, you forgive, forget and move on, "Cass, what are you doing out at 7:30, it's freezing out?" He asked looking at my choice of clothing, "Mike and I had an argument so I had to get out of the house" I smiled lightly, he nodded and sighed, "Well I was about to go to have myself a cup of tea but if you want to come in I'm sure I can stretch to two cups" he smiled, I sighed and nodded before following him in, I mainly just wanted to talk to him about not sending back an RSVP for the wedding, when we got inside it was nice and warm, "So when did you change your hair?" He asked switching the kettle on as I took a seat on his counter, "Umm earlier today before I went wedding dress shopping" I smiled, I saw him tense up at the mention of wedding, "Which reminds me, why haven't you RSVP'ed?" I asked, he looked at me with apologetic eyes, "Okay, so it's not a secret that I really like you.. A lot" he started, I smiled awkwardly unsure what to say as he handed me a cup of tea, "It would hurt too much to see someone I love and care for so deeply being handed off to someone else, who can give them everything I can't" he said with big sad eyes, "Austin it's just a stupid school boy crush, that doesn't mean-" I started but he cut me off, "No it isn't, ever since I saw you I knew you were the one" he said with tears forming in his eyes, "Don't you remember all the times Mike hurt you, I would never do anything like that" he sighed, I looked at him in disbelief, "Are you serious? You tried to rape me" I said jumping down and looking at him straight in the eyes, "I was drunk and in a bad way, you got engaged and I realized that I'd never be able to have you, I was hurt, drunk and just depressed, I didn't mean it, I swear to you, if I could go back and make everything different I would, and I would make sure that I was the one proposing to you on those steps, not him!" He said raising his voice a little as tears fell from his eyes, I was gob smacked and unsure what to say until suddenly, he kissed me out of the blue.

I tried my hardest not to kiss him back but when he pulled away and looked deeply into my eyes, something just clicked and in that moment it felt so right, I quickly grabbed his face and clashed his lips on mine, I felt his lips moving back as we started to make out, I felt myself being turned around and propped up on the counter as we continued to passionately make out, I started pulling at his black before we pulled apart and he took it off, he slowly started to unzip the top half of my jumper revealing my black sports bra, we went back to making out before he spread my legs apart and started to rub my thighs, I started to moan into his mouth before I realized who I was with and what I was doing, realization hit me and I pushed his cold chest back with my small hands and jumped down, "I'm sorry, I-I can't not while-" I started but stopped when I noticed I was about to tell him about the baby, "Not while what?" He asked inquisitively, "Umm.." I said unable to think of an excuse, "Why did you and Mike argue?" He asked, I sighed and zipped my jumper up before looking back at him, his brown eyes were piercing into my soul causing me to cave, "Mike and I argued because he can't come to the scan tomorrow" I said softly and internally kicking myself for telling him, "Scan? You're pregnant?" He asked, I smiled weakly and nodded, "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked confused, "Well we were keeping it a secret until the wedding" I explained, he nodded and thought for a moment, "So no-one else knows?" He asked, I shook my head, "You can't go to the scan on your own, why don't I come?" He asked, I felt a tingling in the pit of my stomach as I was unsure what to say, "I dunno? If Mike finds out he will flip and-" I started but he cut me off, "Then Mike doesn't need to know, this can be our secret, I won't tell anyone if you won't" he smiled sticking out his hand, "Fine" I sighed finally giving in and shaking his hand, "Just put your shirt back on, it's distracting" I laughed handing him his shirt from the table, "Sorry" he said quietly and threw on his shirt, "I'll drop you off, yeah" he said, I nodded and drank the rest of my tea before he dropped me off. When I walked into the house Mike was sitting with his head in his hands, "Babe?" I asked, he looked at me and smiled, "I'm so sorry Cass, I'll come with you tomorrow, I promise" he said in a guilty tone, I suddenly felt myself start to panic, "No it's fine, it's okay, I told my dad, because I went to his and he asked me what was wrong and it slipped out and he agreed to come with me, I hope you don't mind" I said lying to him, "No, not at all babe, that's so cute" he smiled hugging me, "I'll get the doctor to put the gender on a piece of paper and in an envelope and we can open it together, yeah?" I murmured into his chest, he pulled back and smiled at me, "I love you" he smiled, "I love you too" I smiled back, he quickly kissed my lips before pulling me back in to a hug, if he finds out.. I'm so dead...

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