A Match Into Water
Dieciocho
I stared at myself in the mirror. It has been exactly 3 months since I kick Mike out. My eyes have huge bags underneath them from not sleeping since he left. I sighed and finished curling my hair. I then did my make up and covered the bags. I heard a knock on the bathroom door and opened it up. I found Austin in his suit looking down at me. I have on a black dress that ends just at my knees. "Ready?" He asked me. "No. Not really." I admitted. "Then we don't have to go Trinity." "Yes we do. Or at least I do. I need closure, Austin." He sighed and held out his arm.
We walked up to the building still arm in arm. Vic is on my other side, holding my hand. Jaime is behind me, his hand is on my lower back in a comforting way. Tony is in front of us, leading the way. We walked inside and I instantly wanted to run away. I could see Mike standing off to the side with Casey. They were laughing and talking. I could see a woman walking over to Mike and bitching at him. Must be Alexis' mom. Even from where I was standing, I knew he was rolling his eyes at her. Vic squeezed my hand and led me over to his parents. "Hola madre y padre." I greeted Vivian and Victor. They looked at me and Vivian threw out her arms. I let go of Austin and Vic and ran into her arms. I started to cry a little and Vivian started to rub my back in a soothing way. After a few minutes I was pulled away from her and into someone else's arms. I looked up and Victor was hugging me. "Chin up, Trinity. My son is a dumbass." I giggled, Victor never cusses. I nodded and he kissed the top of my head. I looked over at Mike again and he was looking over at us, at me hugging his parents hello. I wiped my eyes dry of tears and then went back over to Austin. He opened up his arms and I wrapped my arms around his waist, putting my head on his chest.
"Now does anyone have any reason as to why these two shouldn't get married today?" The pastor asked everyone. Jaime glanced at me and nodded his head, telling me that it was my turn. I stood up. "I do." I said, people started gasping as looking at me. I looked over and Jaime, Vic, Tony, Vivian, Victor, Austin, Kellin, Katelynne, Casey and many other friends were smiling at me. Copeland was just kind of sitting there but I felt her support all the same. "And why do you feel this way?" The pastor asked me. I looked at Mike and he just looked miserable up there. Alexis was glaring at me, mad that I was ruining her day. "Because Mike is my best friend. I have known this man since we've been 5. We've been through thick and thin. We have helped each other overcome so many obstacles and addictions. He was there the day my mother passed away from cancer. He was right by my side and held me as I cried. Three months ago, we had our two year anniversary. We had been dating for two years. That was the day that I was told by Mike that he had cheated on me with Alexis and had gotten her pregnant. I was so pissed off and betrayed that he cheated on me, and I want to hate him. I really do. But I can't. I just physically can't. I've been living in my own personal Hell these past three months. I'm turning into an alcoholic because of it and I'm just so numb. I'm in love with you, Michael Christopher Fuentes. I have since I've been 5. You are my everything and I'd die without you. I just... please don't go through with this. We will make this work out. You can still be a father to that baby, but I need you with me." I was sobbing and I could barely stand, but I fought. I looked into Mike's eyes and he looked so sad. I just stared at him until he said the same words that broke my heart when I asked him to go to rehab. "I can't." He simply said. I let out a sob and turned around. I ran to the church doors and opened them up in the cold winter night. I ran to the car and got in. I slammed my hands onto the steering wheel. "Fuck!" I screamed and started the car. I started to drive back home. My vision was blurry from my tears and it was snowing outside. The tires slid onto some ice and I felt the car spin around. The last thing I saw was head lights from a semi coming straight towards me. Then I blacked out.
We walked up to the building still arm in arm. Vic is on my other side, holding my hand. Jaime is behind me, his hand is on my lower back in a comforting way. Tony is in front of us, leading the way. We walked inside and I instantly wanted to run away. I could see Mike standing off to the side with Casey. They were laughing and talking. I could see a woman walking over to Mike and bitching at him. Must be Alexis' mom. Even from where I was standing, I knew he was rolling his eyes at her. Vic squeezed my hand and led me over to his parents. "Hola madre y padre." I greeted Vivian and Victor. They looked at me and Vivian threw out her arms. I let go of Austin and Vic and ran into her arms. I started to cry a little and Vivian started to rub my back in a soothing way. After a few minutes I was pulled away from her and into someone else's arms. I looked up and Victor was hugging me. "Chin up, Trinity. My son is a dumbass." I giggled, Victor never cusses. I nodded and he kissed the top of my head. I looked over at Mike again and he was looking over at us, at me hugging his parents hello. I wiped my eyes dry of tears and then went back over to Austin. He opened up his arms and I wrapped my arms around his waist, putting my head on his chest.
"Now does anyone have any reason as to why these two shouldn't get married today?" The pastor asked everyone. Jaime glanced at me and nodded his head, telling me that it was my turn. I stood up. "I do." I said, people started gasping as looking at me. I looked over and Jaime, Vic, Tony, Vivian, Victor, Austin, Kellin, Katelynne, Casey and many other friends were smiling at me. Copeland was just kind of sitting there but I felt her support all the same. "And why do you feel this way?" The pastor asked me. I looked at Mike and he just looked miserable up there. Alexis was glaring at me, mad that I was ruining her day. "Because Mike is my best friend. I have known this man since we've been 5. We've been through thick and thin. We have helped each other overcome so many obstacles and addictions. He was there the day my mother passed away from cancer. He was right by my side and held me as I cried. Three months ago, we had our two year anniversary. We had been dating for two years. That was the day that I was told by Mike that he had cheated on me with Alexis and had gotten her pregnant. I was so pissed off and betrayed that he cheated on me, and I want to hate him. I really do. But I can't. I just physically can't. I've been living in my own personal Hell these past three months. I'm turning into an alcoholic because of it and I'm just so numb. I'm in love with you, Michael Christopher Fuentes. I have since I've been 5. You are my everything and I'd die without you. I just... please don't go through with this. We will make this work out. You can still be a father to that baby, but I need you with me." I was sobbing and I could barely stand, but I fought. I looked into Mike's eyes and he looked so sad. I just stared at him until he said the same words that broke my heart when I asked him to go to rehab. "I can't." He simply said. I let out a sob and turned around. I ran to the church doors and opened them up in the cold winter night. I ran to the car and got in. I slammed my hands onto the steering wheel. "Fuck!" I screamed and started the car. I started to drive back home. My vision was blurry from my tears and it was snowing outside. The tires slid onto some ice and I felt the car spin around. The last thing I saw was head lights from a semi coming straight towards me. Then I blacked out.
I will, I'm sorry, I've been very busy. <3
10/15/13