Scared. But Why?!?!

3 weeks later
STORMS POV.
I've been depressed. I don't leave my bunk unless it's to eat or shower. I've pushed everyone away even Tony. I won't talk to anyone. Tony got a new girlfriend, we were never a thing, so it shouldn't bug me, even tho it does. Mike, Vic and Hime, are taking me to a club to cheer me up. So I had to get out of my bunk. I slipped out of my bunk and walked to the bathroom. I showered and brushed my teeth. I put a bra and underwear on and slipped into my black lace dress that went to mid thigh. it was strapless and poofed out at the bottom. I straitened my hair, and put a headband in with a purple bow. My bangs went to the side of my face. I put my black converse on and stepped out of the bathroom. I walked to the living room, were Tony and his girlfriend were sitting. It hurt me so bad, that he would just go to somebody else, because I pushed him away. I didn't smile, I walked off the bus and sat behind it. I took my left converse off and pulled out my blade. I took a couple deep breaths and carved, TONY. Into my arm. I'm so pathetic. I didn't let tears fall even tho it was excruciating. Shit, I have to go back on the bus to clean up. I heard a door open and close I peeked over. Tonys girlfriend was finally leaving to NY. I put my blade back in my shoe and covered my seeping cuts with my hand. They were pretty deep. I stepped on the bus and Tony was still sitting on the couch. All the guys were out hanging out with other band until they come get me to take me to the club. I was covering it as blood seeped out from under my hands. I tried to run to the bathroom but I tripped on the last step and fell on my butt. I let go of my arm to catch myself. Tony looked at my hand covered in blood then at my arm. He shot up from the couch and carried me bridal style to the bathroom. by this time I'm crying my eyes out. "w-why?" Tony asked letting a couple tears escape. "life.". Is all I said and everything went black. Atleast it will all be over.

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