Disenchanted Lullabye

We had just split up with Tony, Vic and Mike. They wanted to go drink for a little while while Jaime and I wanted to just have fun and ride some more rides.

"Can I have a piggyback ride?" I asked with puppy dog eyes and Jaime laughed before crouching down slightly. I hopped on his back and he mad sure I was securely on his back.

"Hold on!" he yelled up before dashing through the crowd to get to the rides. I was laughing and squealing whenever he would either stop short or almost run into someone. It was fun until I had to get down.

"Where to first?" I asked as we were in the midst of all the rides. We both kind of looked around.

"Wanna just go on them in order of what we see first?" Jaime said and I nodded. Logic, we just needed some.

Seven rollercoasters, the tea cups and a few other rides later and I was beat.

"My voice is gonna be so gone tomorrow." I whined but smiled. I had fun today and it didn't matter that tomorrow would be hell repaying me for it.

"And you're gonna have a serious burn to." He said as he pointed to my shoulder and I cringed but shrugged.

"I don't know about you, but I could use that drink now." I chuckled and gently rubbed my tender shoulder.

"Oh, yeah, sure!" He said and started acting a little weird.

"Hey, you want to sit for a minute, my legs need a little rest anyways." I suggested and he nodded.

I sat down on the toasty asphalt and slid my Vans off my feet before looking over at a very pensive Jaime.

"What's up?" I asked and he just looked off and smiled slightly.

~Jaime's POV~

The day had been going great and spending time with Miranda just getting to know her quirks.
I was freaking out all week just thinking about what I would say or if I would say anything at all. It was weird to think that this girl made me feel like I was back in school. I had butterflies and I was nervous whenever she was around. I had fallen for her through and through and I didn't even know if she felt the same way.

The guys were fairly certain that she had some kind of feelings for me but I think they were just trying to boost my confidence. They had split from us and that's when things got weird for me because it was now or never.

We had rode all the rides until she was tired and wanted a break before meeting up with the guys.

"What's up?" She asked and I couldn't help but smile but I tried to conceal it. Her voice was, as cliche as it sounds, music to my ears.

"Well, I don't really know." I said and rubbed the back of my neck nervously and smiled down at her and her confused expression.

"Miranda, I know I've only known you a few months but I wanted to know If you would want to go out with me some day and have dinner or just hang out." I blurted out after a long awkward pause. She looked as though she was in deep thought and smiled.

"I would love to get together and do something, Jaime." she smiled and got up to sit with me on the bench. I let out a sigh of relief.

"You know, I kind of had a feeling that they set you up for this." she chuckled and I bowed my head in slight embarrassment and then looked over at her.

"Yeah, I'm sure as soon as we see them they will break my balls about it." I chuckled nervously.

"Stop being so nervous! The worst I could've said was no. I'm here, we have plans now and to be honest, I'm excited." She said timidly, something I never really saw from her.

"We should probably go find the three musketeers now." I said with a smile on my face.

"Yeah, god knows Mike will make some kind of sexual joke when we show up." She giggled.

"Damn, you've been here for like three months and already know how Mike is. I'm impressed." I smiled and watched as she slipped her shoes back on.

"Well, I am a very observant person." She smiled and shrugged. We started weaving through the thick crowds and finally made it to the arcade much earlier than the others so we decided to play some games while we waited.

I won her a stuffed Tiger while she whooped my ass in Air Hockey.

"Like I've said before, I am a beast when it comes to competitive games." She chuckled and I frowned.

"Aw, don't feel sad!" She said and gave me a hug. I chuckled and squeezed her tightly before we got interrupted.

"Ow Owww, I see all went well, like we said." Mike said with a smirk and I rolled my eyes.

"Well, before all of the lovely school boy taunting begins, can we get a drink or something?" Miranda asked while her arms were still wrapped around my torso.

"Yeah! Wanna get a quick drink here then go out for something to eat?" Vic said with a coy smile while looking at us. Yeah, I was definitely gonna get ripped apart when she leaves.

We went to the tiki bar that was located in the water park and ordered some drinks before relaxing into the beach chairs.

Everyone was fairly quiet though I knew what they were thinking.

We all finished our drinks and headed out of the park to catch a bite to eat.

Miranda had fallen asleep again on the ride home but we were all close to passing out by the time we had arrived back in town to a restaurant.

I woke Miranda up and she protested until she heard that food was the reason to wake up. She groaned but made her way out of the car.

"Hello, What can I get you to drink?" Our servers asked politely and looked at each of us.

"I'll have a water please." Miranda said and so did Vic since he has been driving this whole time. The rest of us ordered beers.

"I forgot how tiring Six Flags is." Miranda yawned and let her head rest on Tony's shoulder. We all mumbled some kind of agreement to her statement.

We ordered and soon our food came out and we were finally talkative again since we had our energy back.

"So, Miranda, you and good ole Hime-Time, aye?" Mike said with a wiggle of his brows and I blushed and watched as she shook her head with a smile.

"Slow down, killer. We aren't dating yet." she chuckled and I caught a quick but nervous glance from her.

~Miranda's POV~

I couldn't believe that Jaime actually asked me out. It was somewhat of a surprise and I didn't see it coming until the guys split up with us at the park but I'm kind of giddy about going on a date with him. I am excited but nervous as to what could happen.

We were currently sat in a cute restaurant and regaining our energy back.

Mike was breaking our balls pretty hard and just had the smuggest look on his face. Even though I was shutting him down every time he would make a comment, Every time he said something it just brought me back home and listening to my friends when Chris and I had first started dating. I had known him since I was ten, he was my best friend's cousin and I didn't like him from the start but he grew on me as that first day we met went on. He was addictive in a way; you didn't want to like him but he just knew the right things to say to make you love him for the asshole that he was.

I stopped myself from thinking too much about him and joined the conversation again.

"So, we'll all just go back to my house and chill?" Vic said and we all nodded.

We finished eating, paid the check and left. Soon we were back at Vic's house and reverted to what we had done last week; Video games and movies for the night.

"I'll be right back." I said and walked up the stairs and out to my car to get my cigarettes. I used to smoke regularly but now it was only an occasional thing.

I sat in my car with the door open; I had gotten myself thinking about back home. I missed it. While California is a nice change and I know it will be good for me, it's just nothing like home. I knew where everything was in Connecticut. I feel so... alone out here. I know I'm not but I was used to seeing so many familiar faces every day and now it's just the same small handful of friends that I've made. I thought about all that I had left behind; the friends I've had since I was ten, family that meant a lot to me even though they caused so many of my problems, the town that I grew up hating and loving at the same time; the small state that meant so much to me. I was now just a little fish swimming in a big pond not knowing where I was going or what I was going to do.

"What's wrong?" I snapped out of my thoughts only to see Mike sitting in the passenger seat staring at me with a cigarette in his hand. I hadn't realized I had been crying until he handed me a tissue.

"I'm just homesick." I said as I wiped my face. "I know it's not true but... I just feel alone here. I feel like in a way, I fucked up thinking I would be better off moving out here. I've met plenty of nice people and I know that this could be really good for my career but I don't think it'll be good for me, you know?" I sniffled and took a drag off of my cigarette before I got myself too worked up.

"Everyone gets homesick and thinks they made the wrong choice but it's just... You were in one place for so long and right now you are out of your comfort zone. Eventually when you get more comfortable being here, Home will be both places you have lived and not just where you grew up." He said with a small smile.

"I know, it's just still hard to picture me being here and doing something that I have craved for so long and making connections with people that I, at one time, thought I would never even meet let alone work with." I said with a sigh and put my cigarette out in my cars' ashtray.

"Well, that just proves that this is a good thing for you. You may doubt yourself some times and think that this was a bad move but it all works out in the end. The ends justify the means." I nodded and he stepped out of my car. I followed him so we could go back inside with the others. "You'll be okay and everything will be fine." He said and pulled me in for a hug. I appreciated him and his kind words but the small doubtful voice still stuck in the back of my mind.


For the rest of the night, I stayed quiet. I talked only when someone directed their words towards me. They knew that something was off but I just played it off as I was tired.
Soon enough I was curled up on the couch falling asleep as they played their games.

I wanted to believe that everything would work out for me, that everything would be alright but it's hard to picture that when so much has happened to make you doubt yourself and your actions constantly.

Notes

I apologize for the fairly late update but I've been sick since Friday and have been slowly finishing up this chapter. I didn't want to put some crappy chapter up so I tried to write it as best I could while sick. I'm not too fond on this one but hopefully this weeks update will be much better!


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~Becca xx <3