Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

I'm confused... I'm lost...I don't know what I need to do... do I stay here and fight this non-winning battle? Or do I... just let go... I have faith that God will take control of this shitty situation that we are in... but really is there even a god? If there is why isn't he stopping this...

I remember hearing the gun shot. The gun shot that ended Mikes life. I can't stop crying... I can't stop thinking maybe I could have stopped it. What if I could? Would he still be here? This is hard. Maybe Mike dI'd the right thing by just letting go. Letting go of all the pain. Everything that was going on. It was just to much to handle. I know what he was feeling. He felt alone. Alone with a people who loved him. Sitting around a fire. Thinking of the good times. The times we all happen. Like the time that Jaime broke he's ankle. Or the time that my bother was drunk on top of the RV.

I sat there. Alone. In between a buse and a tree. I watched two zombies go past. This is what went through my mind. Death. Death is what makes me think of the person you lost. Death make's me what to leave this place and never look back. Not like I could if I did it. I felt a tear drop fall from my face to my knee. I don't want to let anymore out. I wanted to be tough about this. But I couldn't stop the emotions that I was feeling. I didn't stop the tears from coming. I sobbed to myself. I grabbed my knife. I put it to my neck. That would fast and easy. I closed my eyes and whispered "I love you" then I felt something on my shoulder. It was my brother. I looked up at him. He took the knife from me and picked me up and hugged me. I needed it. I needed love. He picked me up from under my legs and carried me to my tent. He laid me down and covered me uposted kissed my head and told said " I love you too" the love my brother just gave me was selfless and that what I needed. I needed a kiss on me head. I needed to cry. I needed to feel something other than pain. And he took it all away.

Thank you Tony.

Forever here,
Rebecca.

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