Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt this emotional before. Not like I’ve felt in the last 2 weeks. I sit here filled with sadness, anger, fear, confusion, but most importantly joy. I don’t even know how to explain these last these 2 weeks. It’s not the easiest thing to do. I don’t want to believe any of this has happened let alone write it. I guess I’ll start where I left off after my last journal.
I left Danielle for a minute to go give Kellin the journal and ask him how things were going, when I returned to tell Danielle that we would be leaving soon, I found her on the floor doubled over. I had run up to her trying to ask her what was wrong but she wasn’t responding. I yelled up to the guys for help and I heard them running towards the basement. The whole time I was desperately trying to get her attention long enough to tell me what was wrong. By now Katelynn was beside me trying to do the same. Everyone for the most part was gathered around us curious and concerned as to what was wrong.
Suddenly we all went silent when we heard a gun shot. Danielle looked up tears started streaming down her face. “Mike.” She whispered. My eyes widened, I soon realized what had just happened. Even though I refused to believe it I need it proof. “Kellin, Tony. Go find him!” I demanded them and they ran up the stairs. Danielle was crying, saying to herself that she should of stopped him. I wrapped my arm around her as I looked around the room. Tears stained the faces in the room as we silently waited. The only noise we heard came from Alysha when Tony and Kellin left she tried following them but failed when Erin grabbed her and she started screaming. Mama was sitting in a chair she stared up to the ceiling, her hand placed upon her heart. I suppose she was praying that Mike would be all right. Not a single tear escaped her eyes. She was probably the strongest of us all. “Vic.” I heard a voice whisper as a hand landed on my leg. I looked down at her. “What is it sweetie.” I _____________ realizing I myself was crying. “My water broke.” Her voice had a mixture of tears with sorrow and pain in it. Her adrenaline rush from the gunshot has ended as she leaned over doubled in pain again. I now knew the source of her pain. Katelynn told me to help her onto the couch, to which I obeyed. I looked over to mama who was in the same position, Tony’s mom was trying to comfort her.
Moments later I heard the sound of running coming down the bottom of the stairs. It was Kellin and Tony. They abruptly stopped at the bottom and looked around the room. Everyone stopped what they were doing and stared back. I stepped forward waiting for the answer I was sure I didn’t want to hear. Kellin looked in my direction, a certain firmness showed over his face. It made it hard for me to tell what was to come next. He simply shook his head no and put it down. The room at that point seemed to slow down from that moment on. He then walked over to his son and took him to another area in the basement. I looked over at Alysha as she fell to the ground; Erin tried to stop her but was unsuccessful so she followed her to the ground hugging her as they cried to each other. Jess wrapped her arms around Jaime as tears streamed down the bassists face. Tony who was already crying when he came down the stairs walked over to his sisters and gave them a hug, comforting Rebecca who seemed more upset. Mama still hadn’t let out a single tear she looked over at me for a second and I could see the pain in her eyes. It was the worse of all the cries and screams throughout the room. Nick looked more angry than sad, he slowly walked up the stairs everyone too occupied to worry about him. I have never seen so many people so sad at once. Even Nick and Justin looked upset and they weren’t usually ones to show emotion.
I felt someone reach for my arm and I turned around. It was Danielle who was completely distraught; I kneeled down in front of the couch where she sat. I placed my hand on the side of her face and gave her the faintest smile. “I love you darling.” I told her. She pulled my hand off her face and looked directly into my eyes. “This is all my fault.” She said to me barely audible. I searched her eyes looking for a meaning to what she said. “No sweetheart, don’t say that this isn’t your fault.” More tears streamed down my face but I held back as much as possible for her sake. She held my hand as if it was a matter of life or death. “Yes it is, I could have stopped him. I should of. He basically told me he was going to do it. I was just to stupid to see what he was really saying!” She yelled at me as more tears filled her beautiful eyes. “Danielle it’s still not your fault even if you did figure it out you couldn’t of stopped him it was too late he has been planning it for a while now, he would of done no matter what. He was ready to go. Now I need you to calm down if not for me than for you and the baby.” She looked at me with saddened eyes. I leaned in a gave her a kiss, something I haven’t done in a very long time, and it felt really good despite the chaos going on around us. “Please.” I reiterated. She nodded. “I’m trying my hardest.” She told me and I nodded as I got up and sat beside her. I pulled her in for a hug. “How are you feeling?” I asked her, still holding on to her. “It’s not as bad as it was a moment ago but it still hurts.” She told me truthfully. “Be prepared for it to get worse.” Katelynn chimed in. “A lot worse.” Her face was stained with tears but she seemed to be holding herself together a lot better than most.
Kellin walked up to us and asked me to talk to him for a second I took a step away from the girls to talk to him. “What are we going to do with the body? I don’t want anyone going up there its bad.” I thought for a minute. “Where is he...or I guess was he?” I asked him. Kellin looked at me for a second I suppose trying to figure out if I could handle the information. “He’s in the attic, and it’s a scene up there. He blew out his brains…literally.” I took a step back steadying myself. I didn’t want to imagine my little brother up there like that, but I knew I’d have to see him eventually. Kellin looked at me concerned. “Are you alright?” He asked. I nodded. “Ummm yeah. Just. Don’t do anything right now. I need to worry about Danielle, but don’t let anyone up there you hear me? When everything’s okay with her then we’ll take care of my brother.” Kellin nodded. “You do realize you’re about to be a father.” He asked me. I looked at him for a moment. “Yeah…I guess I am.” For the first time I actually thought about the idea. I wasn’t sure if I liked it but there was no going back from it now. I was so upset about Mike and everything that I didn’t take a moment to actually sit down and think about what was really happening. A baby was about to come in this world, and I was going to have to take care of him/her and protect them. “Listen, I know this is scary right now, but were all going to make this work and none of us are going let anything bad happen to this child.” Kellin informed me. I thought of Copeland and Rowan as he said that thinking about how important it is to him to make sure that my baby would be safe. I know Kellin wished he could have been there for his children to save them. That makes what he said feel so much more comforting. I really believe that we can somehow make this work now. “Thank you.” I told him and gave him a hug. “Can you get everyone to clear out down here for now and than make sure no one goes up to the attic.” He nodded. “Sure thing brother.” He told me.
I turned around to see Danielle. She is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen and I finally could see how happy I was to have her and start a family with her. Katelynn was giving her a blanket and had her lay down on the couch. After what seemed like hours had passed the baby had finally arrived. He was so perfect and everything just seemed perfect, despite the events that had happened right before, despite the world being the way it currently is. I still felt at peace. Fast forward to right now and I still feel the same. I am currently in bed next to the most perfect woman in the world holding our beautiful baby boy. Even though things have been rough and I still feel sad a lot of the time about Mike, I just look at Ciel and Danielle and everything feels all right again. I am missing a lot of details of what happened after he was born and right now but that is all right. It will be explained in due time and things will just continue to move forward from here, in a good way. When Danielle is feeling 100% again and when we feel Ciel is ready we are going to start going to D.C again. Hopefully there we can find some answers. For now I am going to leave this entry here and spend some time with my family.



R.I.P Michael Christopher Fuentes December 14, 1984 -January 17, 2016 Fly High Little Brother.

Notes

Hey guys I hope you know this was not an easy chapter to write. Sorry for the feels! So there wasn't like a whole lot of comments after the last few chapters went up and they were like a pretty huge deal so I was hoping we could get some more love from you guys cause we know your out there and we want some more comments <3 What did you guys think of the chapter? Do you think that Vic letting his guards down and finally being at peace is going to hurt him in the long run or do you think its good that he is finally learning to be happy again. Let me know what you think! Also tell us what you think should be in store for the group we always love your guys input.

Anyway I hope you all have a fantastic day and please don't ever forget to stay beautiful. XOXO -Devyn