Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

I was about to write in here a couple a minutes ago about something’s that have been going through my mind. I wanted to sort everything out on paper on my own but my problems started knocking on my door. Whenever I was upset and needed someone to talk to, I’d go off by myself and keep everything bottled up inside. Why? You might ask. Well I wish I could tell you, but what I can tell you is that I could always count on my little brother to come and talk to me. So what was so different this time? The fact that he was the reason for all of this, He was the one who did this to me and now he thinks he can come in and make it better.
“What do you want Mike?” I asked him coldly. He paused for a second adjusting to the hate in my voice. “I just wanted to use the journal, but I can see your using it I guess I can come back for it later.” He said staring at the little black and white marbled composition book in my hand. “Cut the shit, Mike. Why don’t you tell me why you really came in here.” I yelled at him. “Really dude, what is your problem?” He said holding his hands up. “Oh so what’s my problem? WHAT’S MY PROBLEM? It’s fucking you. You’re my problem and you always have been. I don’t know why you keep trying so hard. I am done with you. You have ruined my life. At least what was left of it. You stole my girlfriend away from me; my life, and you got her knocked the fuck up! Are you happy you have everything this fucked up world could possibly give you? So why the fuck are you still bothering me.” Mike looked at me angrily for a few moments. “You really think I got her fucking pregnant Vic? Really? There’s no fucking way that was like 6 months ago she would be huge right now. That was all you my friend.” I looked at him realizing how long ago Jaime’s birthday was. “But Danielle and I haven’t had sex since like April that was like what? 8 months ago?” I told my brother. “That’s what I’m trying to tell you man, she’s bullshitting. Looking for attention. That’s it.” Why would my Danielle do something like that? She wouldn’t? Would she? Is she even mine anymore? I was so confused I couldn’t even think anymore. “She wouldn’t lie to all of us like that Mike.” I told him trying to stand up for the girl I love. “Than explain to me how she could be pregnant Vic. Go ahead.” I really couldn’t but I didn’t want to believe she made this all up. “Vic man, listen Danielle is not the same Danielle anymore. This new world has changed her. It’s changed all of us. She was a girl who got attention 24/7 and had everything she dreamt of under the sky now she barely even has you. She probably doesn’t know how to react to this. So to get attention back on her she made it up.” I looked my brother in the eyes not a glimpse of denial left his face. He believed what he was saying word for word. I can’t even think of what to do right now. “I got to go talk to her.” I finally decided. “Be carful don’t upset her.” He told me. “Really you’re going to tell me how to run my relationship.” I got angry again. “Relax don’t get mad at me again I don’t want to fight with you anymore.” “Why not. You’re the one who started all this shit.” I said pushing him as hard as I could. “Dude back the fuck off.” He punched me square in the jaw. I fell down onto my bed. He sighed. “I’m sorry you’re just pissing me the fuck off! I want to make this up to you bro.” Tears started streaming down his face. I don’t want to fight with you anymore. We are living in hell right now and us fighting is just making it worse. It’s tearing everyone we love apart at a time when we all need each other most. I know I have been an asshole lately but I don’t mean it. I promise and sleeping with Danielle was the worse thing I could of ever done and I hate myself so much for it. I shouldn’t have done it. You’re my brother, and I love you. I didn’t want to hurt you like that.” He stared up at the ceiling sniffling for a moment. “Since Dad died things have been so much harder and I know it hurt you so much and I was trying to stay strong for you especially and for Mom. When Mom needed us you were nowhere to be found and I knew you were struggling so I was there for her. That was fine, but I guess I went with Danielle cause I was mad that you could mope around and be sad and I couldn’t. I did it to spite you and I see how much of a mistake that was. Dad wouldn’t have wanted us fighting like this. He would be so ashamed if he could see us right now. We don’t know how much more time we have left on this damned earth. We shouldn’t be spending the last bit of it fighting.” We were both crying. I walked up to my younger brother and hugged him as tight as I could. We stayed there crying to each other for a while. I couldn’t believe we had let us get this bad. We needed to fix this mess before it got any worse.

Notes

Hey guys! So my internet stopped working last night for some dumb reason so just pretend that I updated this last night. The date totally matters cause it was Mikes Birthday! I realize now that I did not mention it once in the update but because i was a day off I think someone else wanted to update for Mikes birthday so the next update may also be a day off just to wish him a happy birthday #mybad #Imesseverythingup Oh well. It'll all be okay I promise.

So what did you think of the update? Let me know below personally I think this is one of my favorite chapters of mine.

I hope you all have a fantastic day and dont ever forget to stay beautiful! XOXO <3