Worlds Over, Time to Die. Nothing Left but our Souls Inside.

It’s been quite awhile since I last wrote anything. I’m afraid that’s a bad habit of mine. I start something but can’t continue through with it. That and I’ve been kind of busy with trying to get the group organized and also we’re all still trying to cope with all this. It’s just so much to handle. We still haven’t found Erin. I don’t know if we will but we haven’t given up yet. We decided that our first priority is to find Erin than after that we hope to head to Oregon to find Kellin’s family and hopefully find out this whole thing started and ended in California.
I’m sort of like the leader now I guess. I never wanted to be. I mean it’s not like I won’t try to be a good one, but the group kind of forced me to do it. Everyone was looking around all confused and they turned to me for answers. I didn’t know what to do. Hell, I still don’t know what to do, but I’m just trying to do what I think is best and what’s going to keep us alive. Honestly I’m scared to death to even fall asleep in the some what safety of our storage unit that is on the outskirts of San Diego, so you can imagine me trying to make decisions for the group to go out on supply runs and rescue missions. It’s so hard and I sometimes wish I didn’t have to make the situations. God forbid I tell someone to do something and they go out and get killed. This is such a nightmare and I’m just waiting for the day I wake up and realize that this was all just a really bad dream. Of course I realize that it isn’t, but a guy can wish. Not to mention earthquakes are still happening every now and then they haven’t been as bad as they were the first day but they’re still scary.
Currently I am trying to figure out what we need in the storage unit. We got plenty of food the other day that will hold us up for probably another week but were running low on water. The good thing is we haven’t see to many of those things around here in week or so, because of that we still have plenty of ammo. I want to believe that this may truly be the end of all this but we can’t let our guards down. Not Yet. I think we also need some more weapons that aren’t guns. Quieter weapons that will be always useful, you know so that if we run out of ammo in our guns we will have things for back ups. It’s not fully necessary but we all could use a fresh set of clothes so hopefully we can get some somewhere.
I’m probably going to send Mike out with Alysha and Jaime and who ever else wants to go to get supplies. Again, I hate sending people out to go get thing because If I’m the reason they die I could never let myself live it down… You know what. Why am I sending people out when I’m in charge? ... I shouldn’t be putting people’s life in danger without putting mine as well. I really can’t do what I’m about to do, but I’m going to do it anyway and I know that everyone isn’t going to be thrilled with the idea but I’m going on this run with them, end of story.
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I was right they weren’t happy. I don’t understand why they should get to go out and risk their lives and I can’t. It’s not right and I’m not going to let it happen. I am in charge and what I say is the final call and I say I’m going with them and I’m leaving my dad in charge back here.
I think in a few days, if were ready, were going to move a little farther out. Try to find people, hopefully Erin and get the hell out of California. I don’t like staying here. I don’t have a good feeling being here. We need to find Erin and leave and find the Quinn’s. Find out that this is all just in Cali and that Oregon and everywhere else is fine. I’m so ready to go, but we can’t just rush these things. We’re not prepared yet and getting ourselves killed wont solve anything.
Mike just told me that they’re getting ready to go out so I’m going to end this here now and if I don’t come back… I just want anyone and everyone to know that I love you all especially my fans and I’m glad you made it and if this is all over when you read this than please I just ask one thing from you. And that is to earn this; you are alive and still here on this earth. Life is such a fragile thing especially now so live each day like it’s your last and please never give up. If these things, I guess zombies are what we should call them, are still around and things are still crumbling down than do me a favor and do what I couldn’t. Beat this, fight for your life, never give this up, when this is all over I hope you will remember this journal whether you still have it or not. Remember us and how we fought to live and how you did. Believe in yourself because… Only the strongest will survive.

Notes

Hey guys Devyn here! Sorry haven't posted on anything in awhile been super busy! Anyhow hope you like my update! We need some comments down below so please show us some love! Do you think anythings gonna happen on this supply run? Do you think we'll ever find Erin? What do you think happened to her? Will the group get out of California? Will the earthquakes ever stop? Do you think the world outside of Cali is okay? Let us know what you think!

Little side note:
I started my youtube channel back up! That's right I'm sure none of you even know about it and thats because I stopped using it so long ago! I need some love on there though so if you want to check out my most recent video its up! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=phXySFvap5Y In the video I talk about who I think is likely to be in this years warped tour line up and why! Go check it out! Love you all so much hope you have a fantastic day! and Don't forget to stay beautiful! XOXO